hinderloves
I am just starting my hopeful endeavor in weight loss surgery. I would have loved to have had surgery 10 years ago but things would arise and never work out. I have given in to my loss of control with weight in the last year.. Trying the last fad diet of juicing, if you have ever seen 'Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead' you feel the motivations and believe in yourself. I can do that! Drink juice all day long and see drastic changes in weight, Heck yea, Why not?! Well so I splurged and bought a lot of fruits and veggies juiced them, drank and drank. UGH, then I realized.. I need something to chew on.. I went about crazy 24 hours into juicing.. LOL. Yes, then I realized I am for sure one huge food addict. I cannot live without food and nor would I want to, but seriously.. Somedays I feel like a shark, I eat and eat and I could still eat.. I think if I would get surgery they may find all kinds of things in my gut.. Like when they do shark biopsies and find licenses plates and what not.
I meet next Weds for the group info session about 2 hours from home, that would be the closest place for duodenal switch surgery. I know gastric bypass I could get close to home, but I feel if anyone could stretch their pouch out A LOT, it would be me:(. So I am honest with myself and feel the need to have the ever longing malabsorption problems.
So about me, I am a pediatric nurse, married for almost 9 years with 2 girls(9 and 5). I feel that I am surrounded by children all day which is wonderful except for taking care of myself. I need now to focus a bit more on myself, being selfish yes. But only that I can live. I feel at this time I am living a half life, I would love to have the confidence to go on a romantic getaway by plane, but am terrified by seatbelt extenders! I would love to go to the amusement park and get scared with my kids on the rollercoaster, but the lapbar or seats might not work. I do believe I would and could die of embarrassment, So I live this life of wishes and wants. IF anything I want to be healthy and normal size. Being checked out from time to time wouldn't hurt either.. HEHE.