Cindy W.

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Of course Ive had problems, issues, transfer addictions and detox. I am human, I am normal, I am you and me.
I am at the end of my 2 yrs and starting my 3rd year. One thing Ive found out, just when you think you think youve outsmarted,outdated,outfit the programn, there comes something else that you have to take care of. Did I t hink this was going to be a walk in the park? Cake walk at that? Subconsciously probably so. Cross addictions, and other medical issues have been some of the hardest things I have been and am dealing with. But to no avail. It felt pretty good walking into my surgeons office today for my past post2yr op appt to be made and jaws still drop. Yes I like to look like this. Has it been ultimate happiness now that I am skinny? No..Have I suffered from depression, anxiety, fears, etcetcetc. losing myself? who am I? and am I pretty at all?
Gosh..I must be human after all. I hope if nothing else , this post helps you realize, we still fall, we get up, we fall down, we get up and this IS A LIFETIME change. to take shortcuts, quit taking vitamins  and taking care of ourselves, is only an injustice to ourselves and we are the ones that will feel the results from it! Believe me! I have, i am and I continue to daily do better!  I am at 145lbs. Not alot of regrets. Wish I had more local postop resort 1 year and beyond? Real life now! and whats to come when I am older? anyway..all for now! Best to all!Cindy

Tan, Fit and Fabulous? Thats what I keep telling my new self that I am seeing in the mirror. I still cannot believe that I am as small as my daughther now(Actually i am 1 pound lighter! neener!neener!) I am still trying to get used to all of this. The buying New clothes hasnt happened yet. I have gotten some clothes from Goodwill because I know that I will fluctuate alot the next year or so as well and dont want to drop a whole lot of $ into clothing. I still like my comfy baggy clothes. I look like a baglady at times. I put on a little skinny girl short just above the knees dress for the first time in years and years. I felt naked! But i dressed up and went to my surgery support group. I felt really good when I got there and it just helped me to further continue this wonderful journey of Finding myself that I am on! 

Congrats to all my friends on here that have done so wonderfully! Every day is the chance to do it right! And if we dont get it right today, dont give up! Try again tomorrow! Be blessed and know that you are loved! Loving yourself is the single most important gift that you can ever give to YOU!!!

OH yeah I weigh 158 as of today! I am at what you would call Goal because I never really made one. That way if i dont have bounceback I wont be sad or anything. I dont want to be super thin. I just wanted to be healthy!!!

Well, Its time to get my body moving and make changes for the better on the physical side! I joined the gym. For the whole family. My son is doing wonderful(dropped 35lbs and gained lots of muscle).  My daughter still struggles with Lupus. Surprise? I have been diagnosed with SLE Lupus and Reynauds Disease myself. Now at least I know how my daughter got it and understand some of the issues/problems I have been having have manifested itself thru this type disease. The red face all the time for the past few years is the Lupus mask. I dont have the butterfly red, I have the full face red and everyone always thinks I have been out in the sun, but I havent. My muskeloskeletal pain is chronic at times and keeps me from performing exercises and stuff like I would like to. I am going to try to push through this tho and the Gym will help me with this. I  have been the type loser that plateaus constantly and for anywhere from 3=10 weeks at a time. I am at the 10week point right now with not another ounce lost. Its frustrating. I hope the increase in activity will force the metabolism to start performing like it should be. Hope all of you are doing well.  I am at 9mos postop. I started at around 253-255. Today I weigh 165. not bad. 90 lbs lost. I dont have an ultimate Low goal. I just want to be fit and feel good. 

I am staying put at this weight. I cant get motivated to exercise! My hypoglycemic drops are less and less as long as I do not eat out!. Food choices are becoming really boring for me. I still dont have any real appetite, or cravings. I am glad for that. I did eat a decent meal last night for dinner and it actually looked like the plate that the dietician showed me a month ago that I was supposed to be able to eat/fit in the tiny stomach I have now. That part concerns me. If I am able to eat more now, then will the weight come back on?  Its hard staying motivated to keep this up. I guess I am still having issues with the mental part. I dont want to be th inking about food all the time!@ Thats why I was fat? When i thought about it and shoved food in my mouth all the time!. Dang...... I know I will get past this. COngrats on others that have gotten such wonderful results and are dealing with the headgame better than I am.! ANy comments are appreciated!@

I am not at the original goal I made for myself 145 but with everybody it seems like haveing regain, i t hink this weight is what I would regain back to and be ok with. Hopefully I will just maintain now and not have to worry about it. I am having some medical issues tho. Going back to the doctor tuesday for labwork and stuff.


Hope everyone is doing well. !

Well....I suppose I am going to have to do something drastic at this point to get my weightloss started again. I have plateau'd for 6+weeks now....Not an ounce and not losing inches either. My protein intake is good, I am not over 750-900 calories a day. I am consuming some vegys and fruits now to add more variety in my diet. My vitamins are good. My water is fair.

I still have issues with lack of energy and to workout for a good period of time.


Any suggestions? Help?

smartarse comments not welcome! LOL>>Cept Melting Mama's! Shes the only one that can!!!!!

Anyway...............................Im trying not to be disappointed and trying not to think "Is this it? Already? Sheeshhh!!!!"

I havent moved an ounce in over a month. What fun.

The struggles some of us have cause unnecessary brain stress.
I am thinking of trying to not weigh myself at all. Just not.

and see what happens in 2-3months from now.


I keep having dreams that this is it! thats all I am going to lose..........................
and if so.......................well dang............I could have gone on biggest loser and done this.
And they lost that kind of weight in 11 weeks....sheeshhh.....
with no dumping, no diarrhea, no vomiting, no hypoglycemia, no hairloss, etc etc.etc.
ok IM done fussing..

Its just so frustrating.
I play by the book...............and the end of the book keeps repeating the same number 180 180 180 180 180.......

Happy New Year Everyone!!!!!!!

OK.........................................after weeks of combing a CHIA PET out of my hair daily, i finally woke up last Saturday and got in the car and went to the beautician. I said? Fix me! Cut it all off.......

And I did... End of story..no .just kidding..

I was getting down everytime that I took a shower and washed my hair and then combed what is left of my long curls. Handfuls of hair coming out.


NOw onto better things....I am down to 180. I feel really good about that. Still having aversions to food. I have to make myself eat now. And I am bored with it.

I bought myself a recumbent(reclined)exercise bicycle. I seem to lose my energy that I have before I can get the car down to the gym or the recreation center to walk or do weights. So I brought the gym to my house.  I am putting the bike together this morning and will start my routine.

I am determined to get the remaining 45 pounds off of this body.  And to look pretty fit when I am done. This should take care of the legs, thighs, buttocks, lower abdomen ...etc.......

So I took a few  pictures this morning(LIke 200 and deleted 199). I was laughing..I am at that odd stage where Ive lost alot of weight, but i gotta big nose and I look like a HUGE BAZONKA ON THE FACE. I may use photoedit and cut 1/2 of it off....lol..I am laughing.... No seriously.......I have a really good camera and it showed every dark spot, vein, blotch on my face.. so I had to powder it up and put on lips and try again. Ahhhh..much better this time..Well time for me to go. I need to get in my first of many rides on my new bike! Keep on trying every day!!! That's all we can do! That is how we truly succeed! When we try. When we give up trying, thats when we dont succeed! >>>>>>>>A new day! Happy Friday all!!!

Hugs to all my friends!!!!!! I can see my collarbones now~!~ WOW>>>>>

Lookie what santa's little elf( AKA Betharoo) is up to!!!!!  LIke OMG!!!!!   I want some YUMMIES!!! Plz N Tanks!


Keepin fingers crossed that I win!!!! :o)    

Go to her site but hurry!!!!!! Times almost up!!! ANd I wanna win!!! I wanna I wanna I wanna!!!!;o)

Kicking off the season with a Black Friday CONTEST!

 

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The prize:

 

$84.99 CarbSmart Deluxe Low Carb Christmas Gift Basket:
 

• CarbSmart Semi Sweet Chocolate Chips
• CarbSmart Sugar Free Dark Chocolate Almond Bark
• 6 CiaoCarb High Protein Cookies From Italy
• R.W. Garcia Spicy Soy & Flaxseed Tortilla Chips
• Foods Alive Flax Crackers
• Walden Farms Dip
• Smackaroos Diet Treats Low Carb Crackers
• 2 Just the Cheese Crunchy Baked Cheese Snacks
• CarbRite Protein Bar
• Think Thin Protein Bar
• Walden Farms Salad Dressing Packets
• Dixie Carb Counters Soy Beanits Roasted Soybeans
• 4 Ross Chocolate Bars
• ChocoPerfection Chocolate Bar
• 2 Sugar Free Vines Candies
• 4 Golightly Sugar Free Candies
• Jelly Belly Sugar Free Bagged Candies
• Brown & Haley Sugar Free Almond Roca
• Freshmint Blitz Powermints

Want one? 

• Subscribe to my feed if you haven't already.  Please.  KTHANX.
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A winner will be chosen at RANDOM on 12/1/09.*  Which is my birthday!  Neat. 

*Your prize will be purchased by me and shipped direct to YOU, so be prepared for that.  If a winner does not respond within a pretty reasonable time frame, I will pick another winner.  The prize for the contest is courtesy of MM.net, and this is not an advertisement.

Share any/all desserts that you have that we all can say YUMMMM too and fool our families with!
HA! I have in the oven now:
 

Paula Deen's Magical Peanut Butter Cookies (makes 15 to 18 cookies)

1 cup crunchy or creamy peanut butter

1 egg

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

1 1/3 cups Splenda sugar replacement

Preheat oven to 350. Grease a large baking sheet.

In a mixing bowl, combine the peanut butter, 1 cup sugar replacement, vanilla, and egg and stir well with a spoon. Roll the dough into balls the size of a walnut. Place them on prepared baking sheet. With a fork dipped in the remaining sugar substitute, press a crisscross design on each cookie. Bake for 12 minutes, remove from the oven, and sprinkle with remaining Splenda. Cool slightly before removing from pan.


Major Rave Reviews. Allow to cool and will be just like the real deal! And so good for us!!! 


Another idea:

Pumpkin/GreekYogurt Dessert
2 cups pumpkin from can(Not pie filling type, plain pumpkin)
2 cups greek yogurt(Plain)
1/4 cup splenda ( I just used 8 single packets!Sweeten to taste)
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 nutmeg
Mix all together and chill.

Our version of pumpkin pie without the crust! ANd soooooooooo protein filled!

I hope you all have a Blessed Thanksgiving. Remember to be thankful for the things that matter! And be kind to others! Many people need our help, our encouragement, and just a smile to make a difference in their days!
 

Dont worry about tomorrow! God is already there...