Shay Bell
The seminar of my life
Oct 22, 2010
.... is next week! gosh it's been 4(?) looooooooong weeks whew! and it's about to get longer after this, just a feeling. But I pray to god that it i doesn't takes really loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong to get the surgery. but yep, it's next week!
and oh I recently got baptized. Oh! it was an amazing experience, I now feel like I am one with god and I DO NOT want to break the bond...
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and oh I recently got baptized. Oh! it was an amazing experience, I now feel like I am one with god and I DO NOT want to break the bond...
DONE!
Sep 26, 2010
Ever get that feeling when you wish you could go back in time to deliberately make yourself put the fork down lol wellllll nowadays that's how i always feel.
As a kid i was kind of big for my age... OK i was big for my age, and i used to get picked on a lot by the other kids, but it never bothered me as much until I got into middle school and even more when i got in high school! In high school and middle school I was severely depressed so i kind of forced myself to eat most of the time. I would eat and I wouldn't even be hungry or anything. I even went on diets yes I did the whole weight watchers thing and i think i lost like 2 lbs. doing that however it only lasted a week or two, so I ended up gaining it all back. So then I'm depressed again like i was so depressed in HS that I didn't want to go out anywhere, attend any HS activities nothing and i didn't have a real boyfriend until i was 19 years old.. sad right? Because I was too concerned with what everyone else would think.. And then when I finally got a bf he cheated on me which put in THE deepest depressive state that I have ever been in, because he cheated on me with someone who was wayyyyy smaller than I was, and then my next bf called me fat and that was the end of that, so now I'm here today on OH.com hoping to put a stop to my madness.. because I am DONE with this. This has caused me not to work, not to go out as much, and it caused me not to build strong friendships with people. This time I'm going to win this battle and I am definitely going to win the war!
...XoXo...Shay
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As a kid i was kind of big for my age... OK i was big for my age, and i used to get picked on a lot by the other kids, but it never bothered me as much until I got into middle school and even more when i got in high school! In high school and middle school I was severely depressed so i kind of forced myself to eat most of the time. I would eat and I wouldn't even be hungry or anything. I even went on diets yes I did the whole weight watchers thing and i think i lost like 2 lbs. doing that however it only lasted a week or two, so I ended up gaining it all back. So then I'm depressed again like i was so depressed in HS that I didn't want to go out anywhere, attend any HS activities nothing and i didn't have a real boyfriend until i was 19 years old.. sad right? Because I was too concerned with what everyone else would think.. And then when I finally got a bf he cheated on me which put in THE deepest depressive state that I have ever been in, because he cheated on me with someone who was wayyyyy smaller than I was, and then my next bf called me fat and that was the end of that, so now I'm here today on OH.com hoping to put a stop to my madness.. because I am DONE with this. This has caused me not to work, not to go out as much, and it caused me not to build strong friendships with people. This time I'm going to win this battle and I am definitely going to win the war!
...XoXo...Shay
