16 Days

Apr 01, 2013

16 days and counting til my surgery. I am getting anxious. I seem to be distancing myself from things around me. I guess I am preparing myself. I do not feel like doing the things I normally do at night to entertain myself. I am bored but cannot seem to pull myself away from the TV, OH, FB....

Today was a normal day with hospice...family members stealing diapers....people bitching...patients dying. I am so use to it that I have become numb to the insanity. My sons car breaks went out and he had to drive it home with crappy breaks which scared me. I prayed for his safe return and he made it home fine. I picked up dog food then Whataburger. OH and I picked up cupcakes on my way home from work. I have been eating horrible since I got my surgery date. There is no pre op diet and I am eating things I know I will not eat after surgery. Last chance kinda thing. I am going to make myself sick, lol. 

Anyway, I think it is time for me to try and sleep. That is another thing that I have been robbed of lately other than my sanity. Sleep...

Good night all. 

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