grace H.
Anticipation
Sep 18, 2010
I went on September 2, 2010 for a consultation for bariatric surgery. The appointment went very well. I was extremely nervous going in because the usual doctor experience for me is some tiny nurse weighing me and looking at me in disgust when she sees how much I weigh, and then a doctor telling me that I am having problems because I am lazy and won't get up and lose weight. This wasn't at all what I experienced at the Barix Clinic in Columbus. Everyone was extremely nice and understanding, and some of them had even had the surgery themselves.Since I am in college, I will be covered under my mom's insurance until I am 26. When we went, we thought that we were going to have to appeal the insurance, but the office at Barix Clinc came back saying that UHC does usually cover it. So that was a huge relief for everyone. We waited and waited and waited and we finally got a letter in the mail saying that I needed proof that I have been considered obese for a while now and documentation of my attempt at dieting for six consecutive months from my family doctor. So, we called my family doctor (who is amazing) and he said he will give me the information but he insisted that I come in for a physical to make sure that he is comfortable with me having surgery first.
Sometimes it's really hard for me to be positive about things. I am mostly positive about the insurance going through and I am very willing to do whatever I have to do to get the weight off, but the other night I was having a hard time with it. I was crying and telling my mom that I felt like I was just going to be fat forever. She gave me probably some of the best advice I've ever heard. She told me that if God doesn't want something to happen, he will slam the door of opportunity shut pretty quick. However, doors just keep opening for me and things are going extremely well. That gives me a lot of comfort...
Now, on to my friends and the people who should be supportive of me. All of my friends that I have told are friends that I have had since childhood except for one. I have this good friend who is probably a size 18-20 (I'm a size 26-28) Well, our entire lives she has been the one guys paid attention to. Not because she was more attractive than me because I am gorgeous, but because she was smaller than me. Anyway, the other day we were talking and I told her one day I hope to fit in a pair of jeans from Hollister, and when I can fit in those jeans, I am going and forking out the money, just to say I own a pair of those jeans. This to which she responded "Pshht. I can't even wear those jeans." I told her, it doesn't matter whether she can wear them or not, I will one day be able to wear those. She just got quiet. She's jealous and it really bothers me. I don't remember ever being able to wear "normal" clothing. When I was young, my mom had to put me in those stretchy exercise pants with the elastic around the bottom of the foot because adult jeans were too big but girl's jeans were too small. And when I finally get an opportunity for something to actually change and go well for me, she has to just put a damper on it!
Another problem I seem to be having is when I do tell a friend, they say "Oh I wish I could have that surgery!" When they are only, like, thirty pounds overweight (sorry if I just offended anyone). It seems like people do think I am taking the "easy way out"...but who would think of this as easy? The physical pain I will go through for a while until I am healed...and I can deal with the change in the lifestyle. But I will go through a lot of emotional changes also. Why would I spend so much time and money on having a surgery to lose weight if I could lose it on my own? And why can't people just be HAPPY for me? I am so excited and I feel like I have to tone that down around certain people just because they are jealous that I have this opportunity.
Well, I really don't know what else to write! Thanks for reading my little rant! lol.
Grace
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About Me
Grove City, OH
Location
33.4
BMI
Surgery
05/03/2011
Surgery Date
Sep 02, 2010
Member Since
Before & After
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427 poundslbs
212 pounds down
215 poundslbs
