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Ok I am a horrible patient, I admit it.  I am suppose to be on this pre-op diet & I am justifing cheating buy claiming that the diet is for people with a BMI over 40 & I am under like 39.8.  This is ridiculous.  How am I ever going to be in control with this attitude.  Maybe it is pre-sx jitters.  There are 2 people on the VSG forum that changed their minds last minute about the sx.  I have that self doubt floating in the back of my mind, it comes & goes.  But god knows it is still there.  I try & be positive, like the other day I when to the mall to get a new coffee maker & I keep thinking, oh before I know it I will be shopping over there in that section - & w/o the sales girl looking at me like "yah honey dream on"  

Well my stomach is gurgling, I have developed a dread of soy & I am trying not to think that I have 12 more days of this.  I keep reading everyone's profiles & comments & thinking "ok it is 12 days you can do anything for 12 days"  phrmmphhh