jackie_h1
the rest of my logged adventure
Sep 01, 2008
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3/7/03...Well I'm now 13 months post op and I finally hit a BIG goal of mine! I'm officially under 200#'s!! :o) I hit 199 this morning and boy did it feel great! My own personal goal is between 180-190, so I'm really close to getting there! This surgery has truly been a wonderful thing for me. I continue to surprise myself with new things I can do or feel (like my collar bones, hip bones....gee, I didn't know I had bones?!!!) Still wearing a size 16 jeans or a 36/30 in mens jeans....I feel incredible! My neighbor today tells me that I've totally inspired her to have surgery herself, she is having her RNY done next month at BTC. I said "Who Me? An Inspiration?" ...never thought of myself that way before....guess there is a first time for everything!
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4/3/03...Well I'm doing well physically, but emotionally things have been rough. Just found out 2 days ago that BTC will no longer be accepting BCBS insurance, which is 75% of our clients....so they are decreasing the staff by 2/3! I'm one of them! No longer working with Bariatric patients that I so adore and relate to like never before. I'm deeply saddened by this mess. I know I will find another nursing position, but I so loved my job with BTC. The stress of knowing I'm losing my job has been difficult to deal with, but by the grace of GOD, I have not turned to food, like I would in the past, for comfort and support. I have turned to all of my WLS family and friends. Oh what support and friendship they have given me. ((Thanks to all of you out there!!)) I know that I am strong, I will go on, I will find another position that is satisfying. Yet, I will miss my BTC days. But am thankful for the year I have had to gain experience and knowledge about Bariatrics and the care of the morbidly obese. So anyways, a little update on me...weight loss has slowed down dramatically...weight is steady at 193 right now...but I'm losing inches! Finally wore my first ever, pair of size 14 "average" relaxed fit jeans from Lane Bryant! I was screaming "I'm wearing the smallest size in this store!" Pre surgery I couldn't even shop there, so this is a big accomplishment for me! I'm hoping to either have another baby or have my plastic surgery...whichever comes first! I kinda want to put the baby thing on hold and take care of my body first. ALOT of excess skin, I wish I didn't have to carry around all the time! So that's me in a nutshell....out pounding the pavement in search of a new job! Trying not to turn to food for support. REALITY CHECK!! Jackie~ -176# and counting! :o)
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July 8, 2003...Well here I sit 17 months post op and still losing! I am now down to 186#'s, I am literally 1/2 the size I used to be...unbelievable. On my 5'4" frame (I got my height checked at the gym...I knew I had not shrunk an inch) I bought my first ever size 12/14 at Walmarts the other day. Still shocking. I also found a new job back in May. I'm now working acute care and really enjoying the complexity. Boy is it busy! I'm moving my butt that's for sure :o) I have also met 2 other women who have had the RNY surgery, one has done very well and the other says "It didn't work for me!" as she eats a Big Mac, Large Fry and downs a 20oz diet coke! I just reply, "I'm sorry to hear that." knowing that she didn't work with her tool. I try not to judge, because I still know what it's like to be a food addict. I'm still one, I just feel like I have more control than I did before. Hubby and I are now trying for baby #3....but I told him if it doesn't happen by DEC, I want him to get a Vasectomy....I want to move onto the next phase "reconstructive surgery" in the next year and I don't want to go thru TTC for nearly 2 years like we did with baby #2. That's my update! Oh and I just want to thank the AMOS family and creators, you all do such a wonderful job! I subscribed to the magazine and i love it! Job Well Done!
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October 29, 2003...Ok, here I sit and I've finally made it to my own personal goal of 180! Well guess what? We just found out today we're pregnant! Yahoo! I can't believe it! I am 21 months post op and pregnant with baby #3. I'm happy that I made it to my own personal goal before getting pregnant, but I have to admit, i am very scared of gaining weight and seeing the scale go up! Guess I'll have to take it all in stride.
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Feb 2, 2004~ Well it's been a rough couple of weeks. We found out last week that our baby had died in utero and I had to go through a full labor and delivery. Our son, Devin Joseph Hutchison, was born at 4:07pm on 1/29/04. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. We found that his umbilical cord had knotted in 6 spots, basically cutting off his life line. Thanks to our family and friends, we are pulling forward in life. My OB assures me his demise had nothing to do with my RNY surgery. I tell you this, if and when we start trying for another baby, I will NOT stress about gaining weight, I will not worry about it at all. I know now how important nourishing myself and this baby is. Not that I didn't eat, but I stressed over food and that is NOT necessary. I know that the weight I gain during those 9 months will come off after delivery. Have a blessed day friends and peace be with you.
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Feb 8, 2004~ Hello to all of my friends and Obesityhelp family! It was just 2 years ago today that I was at the Forest Health Medical Center in Ypsilanti Michigan (BTC) about to undergo a life changing procedure. This procedure would not only allow me to lose some weight, but it would help me regain my health, independence and control over my life. These 2 years have flown by, but I am forever grateful to myself, my surgeon and my support system for sticking with this life-long committment to health. I have gone from 369 down to 180 and I feel wonderful. I never thought I'd get this far and I even see potential for more loss. But more important than the # on the scale is how you feel post op. Regaining life and living. Being able to tie your own shoes or take care of yourself independently are just a few of the things people take for granted and now, I have so much appreciation for. I may never be a size 6, but by God, I'm a 100 times healthier than I was at nearly 370#'s! One of the biggest misconceptions I had about this surgery was that I wouldn't be able to eat again....well let me tell you, I can eat! No, I can't eat like a 300+ pound person, but I can eat "normal" portions and feel "normal" around others eating. With this procedure (RNY) I have to watch my sugar and fat intake. This is still a life long committment and eating change for me. I will forever be watching what I put in my mouth and that's OK. Some say they are having WLS so they never have to diet again....well in my opinion, you still have to "diet" or "watch what you eat" if you want to lose the weight and keep it off. I remind myself everyday what a surgeon I used to work with told me...."You could out eat any surgery, Jackie, it takes a life long committment to keep the weight off!" and that reminds me that old habits die hard and I know I have to keep this promise to myself. I am worth it! I can do this! This tool relies on my committment and your determination to get healthy and stay healthy. Water, Protein and Exercise are still a #1 priority, even at 2 years post op. Oh and don't forget the Vitamin/Mineral and Calcium supplements! You never stop living this life, but boy does it beat the old me who couldn't play with her children because she couldn't keep up or have the breath or energy to do so, used Amigo carts to shop at any store, headed for a wheelchair cuz my back couldn't support my weight, had my loving husband tie my shoes and wash my behind! I even had to stop working because I just couldn't perform my duties as a nurse. This RNY surgery and committment to MYSELF is what has gotten me this far and by golly, I won't let food take that away again! Hugs and Blessings to you all! I'm only an email away if anyone needs me or just wants to chat!
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6/16/04~ Well I am now persuing my reconstructive surgery. I have maintained my weight loss for over a year and think it's time to have the redundant skin and flesh removed from my abdomen, breasts, back, legs and arms. I went to my PCP today and she wrote me a beautiful letter of medical necessity, so I'm hoping it will help with insurance approval. I go for my 1st surgical consultation on Monday and then to someone else on the 29th. I'm looking for a surgeon who is willing to perform the belt lipectomy with an inner thigh lift. My poor body looks worse than my grandma in the shower! *lol* I think my arms are the least of my concerns, but probably need to be done eventually. I'll keep you all updated!
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6/29/04...Well I went for my 2nd surgical consultation for reconstructive surgery today....1st visit was last monday, but I have to admit, today's visit with Dr. Mirium Awada in Southfield was much much better! She was a gem! Pleasant, honest, to-the-point and seemed to know what she was talking about. She has done quite a few WLS patients in this area. Anyways, she pulled my skin in every direction, had me pulling my own skin and looking in a mirror, she says "Look at that, you have a waist line!" ...holy smokes, there really is a body under all this skin and flabbage! She said she doesn't feel that I need a belt lipectomy (my butt doesn't need any work or lifting, so no need for a incision above my buttocks, but she does feel that I need an extended abdominoplasty) so my incision will be the anchor cut or upside down T that will extend over my hips. This also includes another hernia repair. She said she will bring my muscles together and reinforce with mesh, because this is hernia #4 (would hate to get another one after having all this work done) She also would like to do a mons pubis lift and anterior thigh lift.....so we'll see what happens and what my insurance will cover. *Praying insurance takes pitty on this body when they get the photographs* 2nd surgery will be the breast lift with augmentation and lateral skin flap removal (I have so much hanging on the sides of my breasts (I call this boobs 3 & 4)...but we'll discuss that at a later date. So, I shall know in about 3 weeks if my insurance will pay for all of this, part of this or at least something! As little out of pocket as possible would be nice! :o)
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7/12/04...Well I just got the call from the surgeons office and my reconstructive surgery (extended abdominoplasty *anchor cut* with hernia repair, anterior and medial thigh lift) are going to be covered by my insurance Messa BCBS!) I go tomorrow at 11am to see the surgeon and possibly having surgery as soon as July 28th! Maybe the 1st week of August....we'll see tomorrow! I am excited. Having this surgery, losing the weight through alot of hard work and determination are the BEST things I have ever done for myself, but the icing on the cake will be looking normal under these clothes! Having the "normal" feeling to accompany the weight-loss and health gain---instead of feeling like I look worse than some of my 80+ year old geriatric patients! ....anxious to be free from the excess skin and flabbage!
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7/24/04...Hello AMOS buddies! Well only 6 days till the beginning of my "transformation". I'm having the extended abdominoplasty with hernia repair, mons lift and anterior thigh lift with Dr. Mariam Awada in Southfield Michigan (LOVE HER) at Providence Hospital. I'm so excited to be shedding more pounds, this excess skin and flabbage! Wahoo! This WLS adventure has been such an incredible journey. I know that I am a work in progress and shedding the weight was just the beginning. Dr. Awada says at least 10 pounds of excess skin will be removed with this surgery....maybe, just maybe within the next month or so, as swelling goes down...I'll hit the 200 pound weight loss mark! Hugs and Blessings Folks!
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8/3/04...Well I got to the hospital on Friday morning at 10am and began the prep for surgery. Blood work, IV starts and giving my medical history to every person who asked. My nevers were horrible and I was so "ready" to get the show on the
road......Dr. Awada arrived to "mark" me at a few minutes after noon and I was taken into the O.R. at around 12:30pm. Dr. Awada did a "stand-up" prep with betadine and wash and let me tell ya folks....she washed every part of this body from my shoulders to my knees! Her and the Surgical Resident both did the
scrubbing while the nurses and assistants held my arms up and tried to maintain the sterile field. By 1pm I was on the table and they were giving me the "snoozy" juice. I woke up in recovery around 7-8pm and all I can say is "Why couldn't I even imagine this pain ahead of time, so I could have prepared
myself?" I remember Dr. Awada coming in to talk to me and it sounded like the teacher in the Peanuts Character cartoons "Waaawaaawaa Muaaawaaawaaa......" but I do remember opening my mouth and saying "How much? How much did you take
off?"--I also asked her to remember this as she was weighing the skin/flabbage as she took it off--- and she said "11 pounds and 29 inches---but I don't know if she means she took off 29 inches or if I now have a 29 inch waste......I was like "WOW! I can rest now....she took off 11 pounds....is that alot? Oh who cares....go to sleep!" But the nausea and pain were overwhelming at times.....anesthesia can truly reek some havoc on your system. So anyways....I got in my hospital room around 10pm. The staff at Providence left alot
to be desired, but I'm so very happy with Dr. Awada and Dr. Dubay (she did the double hernia repair). Dubay kept me a few extra hospital days because of the hernias and large mesh placement. According to both surgeons the mesh and hernia repair
were what was causing most of my pain. Dr. Awada says most of her patients only spend 1 night in the hospital and then get to go home. I just have to keep my dressings clean and keep the antibiotic ointment and dressings changed every 6
hours or so. I have 4 JP (jackson pratt) drains--(same kind of drains we have when had the open RNY with BTC) that I have to keep stripping and draining.
It's not too bad. Just keeping comfortable is my #1 priority. My family is helping with the kids and I'm just so happy to be home. I can't believe how flat my tummy looks!! Yeah buddy!.....but I hate to say it, but now my thighs look HUGE! *lol* Oh well, who knows if I'm really eager to get back on that O.R. table sooner than later....she pulled me extrememly tight and I'm having to adjust to breathing and just moving/living again. I also don't have the mons roll any longer!! I have a flat mons! WooHoo! I'm sure as the time
and healing progress, the drains are removed....I'll really be able to see a difference. Until then....focus on healing.
If my weight-loss runs true with the amount of skin/flabbage removed, I will be at a weight-loss total of 201 pounds! I can't even believe that! Plus, if this "lack of appetite" keeps up, maybe even more!.....but I'm swollen right now, right down to my toes, so I'm going to avoid the scale for a few weeks! Thanks to all of my AMOS family!
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8/10/04...Well I went for my follow up appt with Dr. Awada today. I think I got more of a kick out of putting on the "paper drape" and having my entire body covered than anything else......anybody else ever experience this, before WLS,in the doctor's office...
---the nurse puts you in the exam room and tells you to undress and cover with that little paper drape and when you put it on it not only does not fit, but you rip it in the process????----
well imagine my amazement when that darn thing fit with tons of room to spare! :o)
Anyhow....she examined my incision lines and removed the steri strips. She said my belly button looks great and it's going to "make it"...thank God! She removed 3 of my 4 drains and said maybe in another week the last drain will come out. It was so "weird" when she pulled the drains out. See, I had a drain in each outer thigh and 2 in my mons pubic region....and when she snipped the sutures and pulled---I felt it in my abdomen (almost like the drain tube was wrapped around and organ or something) ....felt a bit creepy!!! Oh well , it's over and there is no signs of infection. I am to continue on antibiotics for another 7-10 days and I guess just continue to heel. She now wants me to wear my binders very snug to help with the remainder of the swelling and to help contour my figure.....OK....as if I'm not suffocating enough from how tight she pulled my skin, let's suck it in a little tighter! LMBO!
Good news! I got on the scale this morning and I've officiall lost 10 pounds since the day of surgery. Day of surgery I was 181 and today I am 171! Plus I have more swelling to lose, maybe, just maybe I'll hit that 165?? If I keep up with this lack of appetite, I'm hoping it will happen!
Ok, that's my update! If anyone wants to see my 11 day comparison pix--Joe took them for me today.....I'll email them privately.
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8/23/04...Well I did it! I hit the 165 pound mark and a grand total of 204 pounds gone from this body in nearly 29 months. I still can't believe it! I can't wait to get the rest of my body fixed (breasts and thighs).....maybe then I'll feel normal and proportioned? This surgery has been a wonderful thing for me, I just can't put it into words................
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10/22/04...Well I underwent round 2 of reconstructive surgery with Dr. Awada. I had a breast lift with augmentation, side skin flap removals and an entire thigh lift. I am quite swollen and bruised in areas, but I know she had a lot of work to do on me and I'm not surprised. I have no pain in my legs or left side, just the right, which was where the majority of her reconstuctive work was being done. I can't wait to see the full results. Doc says that will take about 3 months. I have gained weight because of IV fluids and steroid therapy. She said she thinks she took off between 5-10 more pounds of excess skin. YUCK! Just glad it's gone. Well I'm on the road to recovery.....................................
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1/3/05...Well I'm now nearly 3 years post op from my RNY surgery and down over 210 pounds. I never thought I'd succeed to this level, but praise God, I'm here! I have recently had all of my plastic surgery done and low and behold we just found out we are pregnant. I'm overjoyed to say the least, but I would be lying if I didn't say I had some fears about the belly not stretching because of the TT. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers that this pregnancy sticks and we have a healthy full term delivery.
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4/22/05~ Hello friends! Wow, I've been behind with my updates. I am now 20wks 2 days preggo with our 3rd GIRL! My OB has been wonderful and close monitoring has kept my stress level low. Our little girl is developing quite normally. I'm liberal with my vitamins, calcium and protein and eating a well rounded diet including good carbs. I am hungry all the time and eating every 2 hours per the Barix doc and dietician. I've gained about 20 pounds...averaging a pound per week. I have all the confidence that I will lose all this pregnancy weight gain once Emma-Jo Marie arrives. I also am proud to report that I was re-hired as a Barix Clinics nurse. Working post op and LOVING it! I love working with folks who are taking the first step in changing the rest of their lives. Oh and this belly of mine has had NO trouble stretching to accomodate the baby. I was a bit concerned I wouldn't show. I'm probably not showing as much as I would had I not had the TT, but I'm definately pooching out at 5 months along. We'll see what the next 4 months brings.....
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6/8/05 ... Hello friends. Well I'm now 27wks pregnant and doing wonderfully. I've gained about 26 pounds thus far and I'm eating, eating, eating. I have to eat every 2 hours to keep my blood sugar levels above 80 and even sometimes that doesn't work! Baby girl, Emma, is doing well and growing perfectly. Had an ultrasound last Friday and she's measuring right on Target. My belly still doesn't seem to be the size of a nearly 7 month pregnancy female, but baby is doing wonderfully. I'm having a repeat C section on Aug 30th and I can't wait! I love being pregnant, but I want to see who this wee one looks like...mom or dad?
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8/15/05....Well I'm now entering week 37 of pregnancy and soooo ready to deliver this baby girl! I've gained about 41 pounds and feel HUGE, but noone believes me when i tell them I'm about ready to POP! The tummy tuck has really stopped my from growing OUT, but I've definately grown UP in the tummy. This pregnancy has definately been different than my Pre-WLS pregnancies, it's been alot tighter and I'm sure it's because of the TT and mesh placement from the multiple hernia repairs. But it's been fun wearing maternity clothes and FEELING everything this baby does. I have stretch marks from being PG and not because I'm FAT! I'm scheduled for a repeat C section on 8/29/05, barring baby doesn't come before then! This entire pregnancy has been a bit hard on me, emotionally. Seeing the scale go up consistently. Being able to eat more frequently and actually gain weight. Suffering with hypoglycemia.....eating every 2 hours to keep my sugar levels up....it's just been hard. Kind of scares me that I'll continue eating this way after delivery and continue to gain. But...I'm trying to keep the faith that all will be OK and the weight will come off. It has to be easy to lose the remaining pounds rather than needing to lose 200+!
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August 21, 2005... Well tomorrow is Delivery Day! I'm having repeat C section. My OB decided to take the baby @ 38 wks because I am so uncomfortable and miserable. I've lost 6 pounds in 2wks because I can't eat (there is no room), having a bit of difficulty breathing (decreased lung capacity). Anyways, I'm so excited to meet my 3rd baby girl, Emma-Jo Marie.
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October 3, 2005... Hello everyone! Well it's been 6wks to the day since delivery of our baby girl. She's so beautiful. My repeat C section went well. Doc did a wonderful job on my incision. He cut me right on the tummy tuck incision and thru the mesh, but it looks GREAT! I've lost 24 pounds since delivery and have 13 more to go to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 163. Ultimately I want to lose about 20 and get down to the 155-157 range. I keep telling myself if I get back on track and stick to the protein first, water, exercise and no grazing, the weight has no choice but to come off! My weight has definately redistributed itself, my butt is bigger and my thighs are too! I've got some work to do, that's for sure. But I know I can do it, so I'm keeping ++++++
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February 7, 2006. Hello OH friends! Well tomorrow is my 4 year anniversary or rebirthday! It's so hard to believe how fast these last 4 years have FLOWN by! :o) I currently weigh around 190 and am having such a difficult time getting OFF those pregnancy weight gain pounds. The initial loss lead to repeat gain. But I'm having some problems with my back and I'm not able to exercise to help burn off the calories -- so I have to be very conscious of what I eat, but I have to admit, I'm having some depression due to the chronic back pain and frustrated because the spinal steroid nerve blocks I keep getting --are not working! <> Ho-Hum, such is life. I just have to be thankful to the Lord above because even at my current weight, I am much better off than I was at 369 pounds. I currently wear a size 12/14 in pants and size XL in tops. Still better than wearing 5XL's or 32/34's! Oh and one more thing I have to remember, I have a beautiful baby girl I may never have had, if I didn't have this surgery!! We had secondary infertility when TTC baby #2 and were also doing fertility treatments prior to my plastic surgery, so I'm delighted to thank the Lord above for blessing our family with Emma-Jo Marie. (she's 5 months old and simply beautiful (and LOVES to eat, just like her mommy *giggle*)
Again, if anyone out there needs a WLS friend, I'm just a key stroke awy!!! God Bless you ALL here at OH and beyond!
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Feb 9, 2006...Thanks to EVERYONE for your congrats and re-birthday wishes. I sit here and reflect on the last 4 years and how much I've grown as a person, a wife, a mother, and a friend. Not only has the weightloss helped just my health, it has helped me be a better person. I know that at a weight of 369 pounds on a 5'4" frame, as much of a social butterfly I wanted to be, I was becoming a recluse. I was an observer in the game called LIFE. I couldn't work because of my back, nor play or be active with my husband or family. With the 200 pound weightloss, gaining a job with BTC, losing a job with BTC, the pregnancy, the severe loss's one can endure, the reconstructive surgery, the sudden/unexpected blessings from above, and regaining my position with BTC....boy have the last 4 years been a whirlwind, an adventure, a journey. I am definately now an active participant in the game. The parade of life has me marching with it. And even if I have gained back some weight with the pregnancy, I'm still so much better off at 190-200 pounds than I was at 370 pounds. Granted my back is still suffering the effects of being super obese, but I know "this too shall pass"
I'm so thankful to Barix, my family, and all the friends I have gained. I also found out that some people are only meant to be in my life for a certain length of time (a day, a month, a season or years). And it's OK if people don't like you. You can't win everyone's hearts. I've also learned that "I" have to maintain control over my eating. The surgery doesn't do all the work and the further out you get, the more control you have to grasp. It's all about choices. Choices with food, people, surroundings, circumstances. I have definately learned more responsibility since having WLS.
Anyways, I could type a book ((hey that would be an awesome project)) but I don't think I could possibly get all my thoughts down on paper!
I LOVE YOU ALL
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August 10, 2006...Just a small update. I've been suffering with back pain since the delivery of my daughter last August. I underwent Lumbar Spinal Fusion surgery back in May to no avail and no relief. I have to resign my position with Barix because I'm debilitating as we speak. Just having a very difficult time. I am on alot of pain medication and just can't work without being slow or falling asleep (not safe). Also, I've had some weight gain. It seems that now that I'm NOT active, the weight comes on very easy. I'm up to 207 and I'm even watching what I eat. One of the ladies in my online support group was telling us about a surgeon in Grand Rapids who is doing a new procedure called "Sclerotherapy" and from what I understand is basically a stomal revision via EGD instead of general surgery or laproscopic surgery. AND.....it's COVERED by most insurance. And if not covered by insurance it's less than $1,000 out of pocket. Anyways, I have a consult on Sept 29th with Dr. Randal Baker at MMPC Michigan Weight Loss Specialists to see if I qualify or what it's really all about. I'll keep you all updated. ((((Hugs to all))))
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Sept 29, 2006...OK friends, I just underwent a consultation with a surgeon here in Michigan who does what I call Stomal REVISION, by "Sclerotherapy" (an endoscopic procedure with injecting medication around the stomal tissue, causing constriction and natural scarring around the stoma). His name is Dr. Randal Baker at MMPC Michigan Weight Loss Specialists A Center of Excellence.
All I can say is WOW! He was so nice, the staff was nice and Dr. Baker answered all of my questions. My #1 question was "How do you know the stoma won't stretch again?" He explained that once the stoma is injected with this medication (used to be mainly used on vericose veins) constriction happens and then over time natural scarring occurs and SCARS DON'T STRETCH! He was so nice and I'm so glad I was able to meet him (my good friend Yvonne went with me and we had our consults together) We've scheduled our procedures for October 20th --- I CAN'T WAIT!
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October 20, 2006...Well it's over! Hello friends,
Well Yvonne and I got to Michigan Weight Loss Specialists MMPC @ 7:30am and checked in to see the exercise person, dietician, and behavorist. It actually went pretty fast and meeting Scott, the behaviorist, was well worth the $180 paid for all 3 consults.(These 3 consults were the only thing NOT paid for by insurance, $60 per visit) He is a Christian man and he really inspired Yvonne and I as we are both Christians as well. He gave us alternate ways to think about ourselves other than beating up ourselves over things we don't like or are sad about. I can't even put into words how nice he was to talk to. Yvonne and I said it was just a "God moment" ....pretty awesome. Scott also told us that Dr. Baker is a devout Christian, we thought that was pretty cool, too.
We made it over to the endoscopy center next door by noon or a little after, they checked us in, called us back individually, started IV, asked some questions and then took me into one of the endoscopic rooms. Gave me a little Versed, laid on my left side (bad pain from surgery/fall/stress/everything!), I felt the tube going down my throat initially, but then all I remember was waking up in recovery with my friends Yvonne and Mike (Yvonne's awesome hubby) sitting beside my gurney. Mike said Dr. Baker said my stoma opening was 18mm (Yvonne's was 18 as well) and with this injection he's hoping for a constriction/scarring of 12-15mm.
As far as pain. Initially the pain was more bloating for me. I couldn't burp, but was passing gas down below (Poor Mikey who drove us home after the procedure) then the burping started and OUCH! It was very uncomfortable with each burp. I've also noticed it's a bit uncomfortable to take a deep breath. They gave us Lortab Elixer for pain. It helps, but really my pain is worse elsewhere and I prefer to take my other medication. I bought a pill splitter and so far everything smaller than an m&m is going down just fine----well drinking leads to a few painful burps.
I purchased 1 box of each flavor of their own protein bars (they don't believe in protein shakes for long term success because it doesn't give the body/pouch that feeling of satiety) Price wise they are pretty reasonable. $7/box with 7 bars per box, so basically $1 per bar. I am going to try to stick to a regimen of 2 shakes (I have to use them up-- 24 cans-- and I'm going to drink them really fast in hopes of getting that feeling of satiety) and 2 bars per day for the first 6 wks until I see them for my follow up visit. I'm also making a vow to myself to STOP drinking with my meals. That is the one rule I've never followed since surgery, but I'm going to do it now....I'm determined. The high protein will help in my back surgery recovery on Nov 2nd as well.
Ok enough from me. I'm praying this "revision" will get me back down into the 150-160 range. I felt so good then.
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March 7, 2007 ... Hello Everyone! I guess I'm not used to the obesityhelp website anymore. So many changes. I want to say that the Sclerotherapy stomal revision did NOTHING for me. I'm disappointed, but I also didn't go back for a 2nd or 3rd injection, which was probably needed as my stoma was 18mm. I still think the world of Dr. Baker and his staff. But my hopes of a miracle were shattered. But guess what? In December I went through alot of stress. It's a long story, but our family has been thru alot of problems due to me needing spinal fusion surgery in 2006. We moved out of our home of over 5 years, into a 3 bedroom townhouse. In mid December I just decided I was cutting out eating anything that wasn't healthy for me and my body. I have reverted back to my WLS eating plan. I do 2 protein shakes per day, 1 protein bar, 1 food snack, & 1 food meal. I honestly don't deprive myself and I feel GREAT! I've now lost 37 pounds, from 213 down to 176. I can actually squeeze my bum into my size 10's again, but 12's are truly comfortable! I hope and pray the weightloss continues. I'm just going to keep eating like this and pray for the best. Due to my back problems, I can't exercise, but what little bit of activity I can do, I will do. It's now been over 5 years since my WLS and I am still so happy that I did this for ME!
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March 9, 2008 ~ Hello friends! Well it's hard to believe it's been 6 full years since I had surgery & over 10 since I started my journey. I'm so happy to have kept off so much weight. I'm currently struggling to get to goal of 120 (never been there), but I know I have the strength, the support at home, support spiritually, and just support from all of you here at obesityhelp! If anyone wants to chat, please feel free to email. I'm always here!
3/7/03...Well I'm now 13 months post op and I finally hit a BIG goal of mine! I'm officially under 200#'s!! :o) I hit 199 this morning and boy did it feel great! My own personal goal is between 180-190, so I'm really close to getting there! This surgery has truly been a wonderful thing for me. I continue to surprise myself with new things I can do or feel (like my collar bones, hip bones....gee, I didn't know I had bones?!!!) Still wearing a size 16 jeans or a 36/30 in mens jeans....I feel incredible! My neighbor today tells me that I've totally inspired her to have surgery herself, she is having her RNY done next month at BTC. I said "Who Me? An Inspiration?" ...never thought of myself that way before....guess there is a first time for everything!
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4/3/03...Well I'm doing well physically, but emotionally things have been rough. Just found out 2 days ago that BTC will no longer be accepting BCBS insurance, which is 75% of our clients....so they are decreasing the staff by 2/3! I'm one of them! No longer working with Bariatric patients that I so adore and relate to like never before. I'm deeply saddened by this mess. I know I will find another nursing position, but I so loved my job with BTC. The stress of knowing I'm losing my job has been difficult to deal with, but by the grace of GOD, I have not turned to food, like I would in the past, for comfort and support. I have turned to all of my WLS family and friends. Oh what support and friendship they have given me. ((Thanks to all of you out there!!)) I know that I am strong, I will go on, I will find another position that is satisfying. Yet, I will miss my BTC days. But am thankful for the year I have had to gain experience and knowledge about Bariatrics and the care of the morbidly obese. So anyways, a little update on me...weight loss has slowed down dramatically...weight is steady at 193 right now...but I'm losing inches! Finally wore my first ever, pair of size 14 "average" relaxed fit jeans from Lane Bryant! I was screaming "I'm wearing the smallest size in this store!" Pre surgery I couldn't even shop there, so this is a big accomplishment for me! I'm hoping to either have another baby or have my plastic surgery...whichever comes first! I kinda want to put the baby thing on hold and take care of my body first. ALOT of excess skin, I wish I didn't have to carry around all the time! So that's me in a nutshell....out pounding the pavement in search of a new job! Trying not to turn to food for support. REALITY CHECK!! Jackie~ -176# and counting! :o)
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July 8, 2003...Well here I sit 17 months post op and still losing! I am now down to 186#'s, I am literally 1/2 the size I used to be...unbelievable. On my 5'4" frame (I got my height checked at the gym...I knew I had not shrunk an inch) I bought my first ever size 12/14 at Walmarts the other day. Still shocking. I also found a new job back in May. I'm now working acute care and really enjoying the complexity. Boy is it busy! I'm moving my butt that's for sure :o) I have also met 2 other women who have had the RNY surgery, one has done very well and the other says "It didn't work for me!" as she eats a Big Mac, Large Fry and downs a 20oz diet coke! I just reply, "I'm sorry to hear that." knowing that she didn't work with her tool. I try not to judge, because I still know what it's like to be a food addict. I'm still one, I just feel like I have more control than I did before. Hubby and I are now trying for baby #3....but I told him if it doesn't happen by DEC, I want him to get a Vasectomy....I want to move onto the next phase "reconstructive surgery" in the next year and I don't want to go thru TTC for nearly 2 years like we did with baby #2. That's my update! Oh and I just want to thank the AMOS family and creators, you all do such a wonderful job! I subscribed to the magazine and i love it! Job Well Done!
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October 29, 2003...Ok, here I sit and I've finally made it to my own personal goal of 180! Well guess what? We just found out today we're pregnant! Yahoo! I can't believe it! I am 21 months post op and pregnant with baby #3. I'm happy that I made it to my own personal goal before getting pregnant, but I have to admit, i am very scared of gaining weight and seeing the scale go up! Guess I'll have to take it all in stride.
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Feb 2, 2004~ Well it's been a rough couple of weeks. We found out last week that our baby had died in utero and I had to go through a full labor and delivery. Our son, Devin Joseph Hutchison, was born at 4:07pm on 1/29/04. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. We found that his umbilical cord had knotted in 6 spots, basically cutting off his life line. Thanks to our family and friends, we are pulling forward in life. My OB assures me his demise had nothing to do with my RNY surgery. I tell you this, if and when we start trying for another baby, I will NOT stress about gaining weight, I will not worry about it at all. I know now how important nourishing myself and this baby is. Not that I didn't eat, but I stressed over food and that is NOT necessary. I know that the weight I gain during those 9 months will come off after delivery. Have a blessed day friends and peace be with you.
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Feb 8, 2004~ Hello to all of my friends and Obesityhelp family! It was just 2 years ago today that I was at the Forest Health Medical Center in Ypsilanti Michigan (BTC) about to undergo a life changing procedure. This procedure would not only allow me to lose some weight, but it would help me regain my health, independence and control over my life. These 2 years have flown by, but I am forever grateful to myself, my surgeon and my support system for sticking with this life-long committment to health. I have gone from 369 down to 180 and I feel wonderful. I never thought I'd get this far and I even see potential for more loss. But more important than the # on the scale is how you feel post op. Regaining life and living. Being able to tie your own shoes or take care of yourself independently are just a few of the things people take for granted and now, I have so much appreciation for. I may never be a size 6, but by God, I'm a 100 times healthier than I was at nearly 370#'s! One of the biggest misconceptions I had about this surgery was that I wouldn't be able to eat again....well let me tell you, I can eat! No, I can't eat like a 300+ pound person, but I can eat "normal" portions and feel "normal" around others eating. With this procedure (RNY) I have to watch my sugar and fat intake. This is still a life long committment and eating change for me. I will forever be watching what I put in my mouth and that's OK. Some say they are having WLS so they never have to diet again....well in my opinion, you still have to "diet" or "watch what you eat" if you want to lose the weight and keep it off. I remind myself everyday what a surgeon I used to work with told me...."You could out eat any surgery, Jackie, it takes a life long committment to keep the weight off!" and that reminds me that old habits die hard and I know I have to keep this promise to myself. I am worth it! I can do this! This tool relies on my committment and your determination to get healthy and stay healthy. Water, Protein and Exercise are still a #1 priority, even at 2 years post op. Oh and don't forget the Vitamin/Mineral and Calcium supplements! You never stop living this life, but boy does it beat the old me who couldn't play with her children because she couldn't keep up or have the breath or energy to do so, used Amigo carts to shop at any store, headed for a wheelchair cuz my back couldn't support my weight, had my loving husband tie my shoes and wash my behind! I even had to stop working because I just couldn't perform my duties as a nurse. This RNY surgery and committment to MYSELF is what has gotten me this far and by golly, I won't let food take that away again! Hugs and Blessings to you all! I'm only an email away if anyone needs me or just wants to chat!
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6/16/04~ Well I am now persuing my reconstructive surgery. I have maintained my weight loss for over a year and think it's time to have the redundant skin and flesh removed from my abdomen, breasts, back, legs and arms. I went to my PCP today and she wrote me a beautiful letter of medical necessity, so I'm hoping it will help with insurance approval. I go for my 1st surgical consultation on Monday and then to someone else on the 29th. I'm looking for a surgeon who is willing to perform the belt lipectomy with an inner thigh lift. My poor body looks worse than my grandma in the shower! *lol* I think my arms are the least of my concerns, but probably need to be done eventually. I'll keep you all updated!
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6/29/04...Well I went for my 2nd surgical consultation for reconstructive surgery today....1st visit was last monday, but I have to admit, today's visit with Dr. Mirium Awada in Southfield was much much better! She was a gem! Pleasant, honest, to-the-point and seemed to know what she was talking about. She has done quite a few WLS patients in this area. Anyways, she pulled my skin in every direction, had me pulling my own skin and looking in a mirror, she says "Look at that, you have a waist line!" ...holy smokes, there really is a body under all this skin and flabbage! She said she doesn't feel that I need a belt lipectomy (my butt doesn't need any work or lifting, so no need for a incision above my buttocks, but she does feel that I need an extended abdominoplasty) so my incision will be the anchor cut or upside down T that will extend over my hips. This also includes another hernia repair. She said she will bring my muscles together and reinforce with mesh, because this is hernia #4 (would hate to get another one after having all this work done) She also would like to do a mons pubis lift and anterior thigh lift.....so we'll see what happens and what my insurance will cover. *Praying insurance takes pitty on this body when they get the photographs* 2nd surgery will be the breast lift with augmentation and lateral skin flap removal (I have so much hanging on the sides of my breasts (I call this boobs 3 & 4)...but we'll discuss that at a later date. So, I shall know in about 3 weeks if my insurance will pay for all of this, part of this or at least something! As little out of pocket as possible would be nice! :o)
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7/12/04...Well I just got the call from the surgeons office and my reconstructive surgery (extended abdominoplasty *anchor cut* with hernia repair, anterior and medial thigh lift) are going to be covered by my insurance Messa BCBS!) I go tomorrow at 11am to see the surgeon and possibly having surgery as soon as July 28th! Maybe the 1st week of August....we'll see tomorrow! I am excited. Having this surgery, losing the weight through alot of hard work and determination are the BEST things I have ever done for myself, but the icing on the cake will be looking normal under these clothes! Having the "normal" feeling to accompany the weight-loss and health gain---instead of feeling like I look worse than some of my 80+ year old geriatric patients! ....anxious to be free from the excess skin and flabbage!
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7/24/04...Hello AMOS buddies! Well only 6 days till the beginning of my "transformation". I'm having the extended abdominoplasty with hernia repair, mons lift and anterior thigh lift with Dr. Mariam Awada in Southfield Michigan (LOVE HER) at Providence Hospital. I'm so excited to be shedding more pounds, this excess skin and flabbage! Wahoo! This WLS adventure has been such an incredible journey. I know that I am a work in progress and shedding the weight was just the beginning. Dr. Awada says at least 10 pounds of excess skin will be removed with this surgery....maybe, just maybe within the next month or so, as swelling goes down...I'll hit the 200 pound weight loss mark! Hugs and Blessings Folks!
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8/3/04...Well I got to the hospital on Friday morning at 10am and began the prep for surgery. Blood work, IV starts and giving my medical history to every person who asked. My nevers were horrible and I was so "ready" to get the show on the
road......Dr. Awada arrived to "mark" me at a few minutes after noon and I was taken into the O.R. at around 12:30pm. Dr. Awada did a "stand-up" prep with betadine and wash and let me tell ya folks....she washed every part of this body from my shoulders to my knees! Her and the Surgical Resident both did the
scrubbing while the nurses and assistants held my arms up and tried to maintain the sterile field. By 1pm I was on the table and they were giving me the "snoozy" juice. I woke up in recovery around 7-8pm and all I can say is "Why couldn't I even imagine this pain ahead of time, so I could have prepared
myself?" I remember Dr. Awada coming in to talk to me and it sounded like the teacher in the Peanuts Character cartoons "Waaawaaawaa Muaaawaaawaaa......" but I do remember opening my mouth and saying "How much? How much did you take
off?"--I also asked her to remember this as she was weighing the skin/flabbage as she took it off--- and she said "11 pounds and 29 inches---but I don't know if she means she took off 29 inches or if I now have a 29 inch waste......I was like "WOW! I can rest now....she took off 11 pounds....is that alot? Oh who cares....go to sleep!" But the nausea and pain were overwhelming at times.....anesthesia can truly reek some havoc on your system. So anyways....I got in my hospital room around 10pm. The staff at Providence left alot
to be desired, but I'm so very happy with Dr. Awada and Dr. Dubay (she did the double hernia repair). Dubay kept me a few extra hospital days because of the hernias and large mesh placement. According to both surgeons the mesh and hernia repair
were what was causing most of my pain. Dr. Awada says most of her patients only spend 1 night in the hospital and then get to go home. I just have to keep my dressings clean and keep the antibiotic ointment and dressings changed every 6
hours or so. I have 4 JP (jackson pratt) drains--(same kind of drains we have when had the open RNY with BTC) that I have to keep stripping and draining.
It's not too bad. Just keeping comfortable is my #1 priority. My family is helping with the kids and I'm just so happy to be home. I can't believe how flat my tummy looks!! Yeah buddy!.....but I hate to say it, but now my thighs look HUGE! *lol* Oh well, who knows if I'm really eager to get back on that O.R. table sooner than later....she pulled me extrememly tight and I'm having to adjust to breathing and just moving/living again. I also don't have the mons roll any longer!! I have a flat mons! WooHoo! I'm sure as the time
and healing progress, the drains are removed....I'll really be able to see a difference. Until then....focus on healing.
If my weight-loss runs true with the amount of skin/flabbage removed, I will be at a weight-loss total of 201 pounds! I can't even believe that! Plus, if this "lack of appetite" keeps up, maybe even more!.....but I'm swollen right now, right down to my toes, so I'm going to avoid the scale for a few weeks! Thanks to all of my AMOS family!
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8/10/04...Well I went for my follow up appt with Dr. Awada today. I think I got more of a kick out of putting on the "paper drape" and having my entire body covered than anything else......anybody else ever experience this, before WLS,in the doctor's office...
---the nurse puts you in the exam room and tells you to undress and cover with that little paper drape and when you put it on it not only does not fit, but you rip it in the process????----
well imagine my amazement when that darn thing fit with tons of room to spare! :o)
Anyhow....she examined my incision lines and removed the steri strips. She said my belly button looks great and it's going to "make it"...thank God! She removed 3 of my 4 drains and said maybe in another week the last drain will come out. It was so "weird" when she pulled the drains out. See, I had a drain in each outer thigh and 2 in my mons pubic region....and when she snipped the sutures and pulled---I felt it in my abdomen (almost like the drain tube was wrapped around and organ or something) ....felt a bit creepy!!! Oh well , it's over and there is no signs of infection. I am to continue on antibiotics for another 7-10 days and I guess just continue to heel. She now wants me to wear my binders very snug to help with the remainder of the swelling and to help contour my figure.....OK....as if I'm not suffocating enough from how tight she pulled my skin, let's suck it in a little tighter! LMBO!
Good news! I got on the scale this morning and I've officiall lost 10 pounds since the day of surgery. Day of surgery I was 181 and today I am 171! Plus I have more swelling to lose, maybe, just maybe I'll hit that 165?? If I keep up with this lack of appetite, I'm hoping it will happen!
Ok, that's my update! If anyone wants to see my 11 day comparison pix--Joe took them for me today.....I'll email them privately.
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8/23/04...Well I did it! I hit the 165 pound mark and a grand total of 204 pounds gone from this body in nearly 29 months. I still can't believe it! I can't wait to get the rest of my body fixed (breasts and thighs).....maybe then I'll feel normal and proportioned? This surgery has been a wonderful thing for me, I just can't put it into words................
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10/22/04...Well I underwent round 2 of reconstructive surgery with Dr. Awada. I had a breast lift with augmentation, side skin flap removals and an entire thigh lift. I am quite swollen and bruised in areas, but I know she had a lot of work to do on me and I'm not surprised. I have no pain in my legs or left side, just the right, which was where the majority of her reconstuctive work was being done. I can't wait to see the full results. Doc says that will take about 3 months. I have gained weight because of IV fluids and steroid therapy. She said she thinks she took off between 5-10 more pounds of excess skin. YUCK! Just glad it's gone. Well I'm on the road to recovery.....................................
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1/3/05...Well I'm now nearly 3 years post op from my RNY surgery and down over 210 pounds. I never thought I'd succeed to this level, but praise God, I'm here! I have recently had all of my plastic surgery done and low and behold we just found out we are pregnant. I'm overjoyed to say the least, but I would be lying if I didn't say I had some fears about the belly not stretching because of the TT. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers that this pregnancy sticks and we have a healthy full term delivery.
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4/22/05~ Hello friends! Wow, I've been behind with my updates. I am now 20wks 2 days preggo with our 3rd GIRL! My OB has been wonderful and close monitoring has kept my stress level low. Our little girl is developing quite normally. I'm liberal with my vitamins, calcium and protein and eating a well rounded diet including good carbs. I am hungry all the time and eating every 2 hours per the Barix doc and dietician. I've gained about 20 pounds...averaging a pound per week. I have all the confidence that I will lose all this pregnancy weight gain once Emma-Jo Marie arrives. I also am proud to report that I was re-hired as a Barix Clinics nurse. Working post op and LOVING it! I love working with folks who are taking the first step in changing the rest of their lives. Oh and this belly of mine has had NO trouble stretching to accomodate the baby. I was a bit concerned I wouldn't show. I'm probably not showing as much as I would had I not had the TT, but I'm definately pooching out at 5 months along. We'll see what the next 4 months brings.....
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6/8/05 ... Hello friends. Well I'm now 27wks pregnant and doing wonderfully. I've gained about 26 pounds thus far and I'm eating, eating, eating. I have to eat every 2 hours to keep my blood sugar levels above 80 and even sometimes that doesn't work! Baby girl, Emma, is doing well and growing perfectly. Had an ultrasound last Friday and she's measuring right on Target. My belly still doesn't seem to be the size of a nearly 7 month pregnancy female, but baby is doing wonderfully. I'm having a repeat C section on Aug 30th and I can't wait! I love being pregnant, but I want to see who this wee one looks like...mom or dad?
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8/15/05....Well I'm now entering week 37 of pregnancy and soooo ready to deliver this baby girl! I've gained about 41 pounds and feel HUGE, but noone believes me when i tell them I'm about ready to POP! The tummy tuck has really stopped my from growing OUT, but I've definately grown UP in the tummy. This pregnancy has definately been different than my Pre-WLS pregnancies, it's been alot tighter and I'm sure it's because of the TT and mesh placement from the multiple hernia repairs. But it's been fun wearing maternity clothes and FEELING everything this baby does. I have stretch marks from being PG and not because I'm FAT! I'm scheduled for a repeat C section on 8/29/05, barring baby doesn't come before then! This entire pregnancy has been a bit hard on me, emotionally. Seeing the scale go up consistently. Being able to eat more frequently and actually gain weight. Suffering with hypoglycemia.....eating every 2 hours to keep my sugar levels up....it's just been hard. Kind of scares me that I'll continue eating this way after delivery and continue to gain. But...I'm trying to keep the faith that all will be OK and the weight will come off. It has to be easy to lose the remaining pounds rather than needing to lose 200+!
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August 21, 2005... Well tomorrow is Delivery Day! I'm having repeat C section. My OB decided to take the baby @ 38 wks because I am so uncomfortable and miserable. I've lost 6 pounds in 2wks because I can't eat (there is no room), having a bit of difficulty breathing (decreased lung capacity). Anyways, I'm so excited to meet my 3rd baby girl, Emma-Jo Marie.
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October 3, 2005... Hello everyone! Well it's been 6wks to the day since delivery of our baby girl. She's so beautiful. My repeat C section went well. Doc did a wonderful job on my incision. He cut me right on the tummy tuck incision and thru the mesh, but it looks GREAT! I've lost 24 pounds since delivery and have 13 more to go to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 163. Ultimately I want to lose about 20 and get down to the 155-157 range. I keep telling myself if I get back on track and stick to the protein first, water, exercise and no grazing, the weight has no choice but to come off! My weight has definately redistributed itself, my butt is bigger and my thighs are too! I've got some work to do, that's for sure. But I know I can do it, so I'm keeping ++++++
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February 7, 2006. Hello OH friends! Well tomorrow is my 4 year anniversary or rebirthday! It's so hard to believe how fast these last 4 years have FLOWN by! :o) I currently weigh around 190 and am having such a difficult time getting OFF those pregnancy weight gain pounds. The initial loss lead to repeat gain. But I'm having some problems with my back and I'm not able to exercise to help burn off the calories -- so I have to be very conscious of what I eat, but I have to admit, I'm having some depression due to the chronic back pain and frustrated because the spinal steroid nerve blocks I keep getting --are not working! <> Ho-Hum, such is life. I just have to be thankful to the Lord above because even at my current weight, I am much better off than I was at 369 pounds. I currently wear a size 12/14 in pants and size XL in tops. Still better than wearing 5XL's or 32/34's! Oh and one more thing I have to remember, I have a beautiful baby girl I may never have had, if I didn't have this surgery!! We had secondary infertility when TTC baby #2 and were also doing fertility treatments prior to my plastic surgery, so I'm delighted to thank the Lord above for blessing our family with Emma-Jo Marie. (she's 5 months old and simply beautiful (and LOVES to eat, just like her mommy *giggle*)
Again, if anyone out there needs a WLS friend, I'm just a key stroke awy!!! God Bless you ALL here at OH and beyond!
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Feb 9, 2006...Thanks to EVERYONE for your congrats and re-birthday wishes. I sit here and reflect on the last 4 years and how much I've grown as a person, a wife, a mother, and a friend. Not only has the weightloss helped just my health, it has helped me be a better person. I know that at a weight of 369 pounds on a 5'4" frame, as much of a social butterfly I wanted to be, I was becoming a recluse. I was an observer in the game called LIFE. I couldn't work because of my back, nor play or be active with my husband or family. With the 200 pound weightloss, gaining a job with BTC, losing a job with BTC, the pregnancy, the severe loss's one can endure, the reconstructive surgery, the sudden/unexpected blessings from above, and regaining my position with BTC....boy have the last 4 years been a whirlwind, an adventure, a journey. I am definately now an active participant in the game. The parade of life has me marching with it. And even if I have gained back some weight with the pregnancy, I'm still so much better off at 190-200 pounds than I was at 370 pounds. Granted my back is still suffering the effects of being super obese, but I know "this too shall pass"
I'm so thankful to Barix, my family, and all the friends I have gained. I also found out that some people are only meant to be in my life for a certain length of time (a day, a month, a season or years). And it's OK if people don't like you. You can't win everyone's hearts. I've also learned that "I" have to maintain control over my eating. The surgery doesn't do all the work and the further out you get, the more control you have to grasp. It's all about choices. Choices with food, people, surroundings, circumstances. I have definately learned more responsibility since having WLS.
Anyways, I could type a book ((hey that would be an awesome project)) but I don't think I could possibly get all my thoughts down on paper!
I LOVE YOU ALL
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August 10, 2006...Just a small update. I've been suffering with back pain since the delivery of my daughter last August. I underwent Lumbar Spinal Fusion surgery back in May to no avail and no relief. I have to resign my position with Barix because I'm debilitating as we speak. Just having a very difficult time. I am on alot of pain medication and just can't work without being slow or falling asleep (not safe). Also, I've had some weight gain. It seems that now that I'm NOT active, the weight comes on very easy. I'm up to 207 and I'm even watching what I eat. One of the ladies in my online support group was telling us about a surgeon in Grand Rapids who is doing a new procedure called "Sclerotherapy" and from what I understand is basically a stomal revision via EGD instead of general surgery or laproscopic surgery. AND.....it's COVERED by most insurance. And if not covered by insurance it's less than $1,000 out of pocket. Anyways, I have a consult on Sept 29th with Dr. Randal Baker at MMPC Michigan Weight Loss Specialists to see if I qualify or what it's really all about. I'll keep you all updated. ((((Hugs to all))))
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Sept 29, 2006...OK friends, I just underwent a consultation with a surgeon here in Michigan who does what I call Stomal REVISION, by "Sclerotherapy" (an endoscopic procedure with injecting medication around the stomal tissue, causing constriction and natural scarring around the stoma). His name is Dr. Randal Baker at MMPC Michigan Weight Loss Specialists A Center of Excellence.
All I can say is WOW! He was so nice, the staff was nice and Dr. Baker answered all of my questions. My #1 question was "How do you know the stoma won't stretch again?" He explained that once the stoma is injected with this medication (used to be mainly used on vericose veins) constriction happens and then over time natural scarring occurs and SCARS DON'T STRETCH! He was so nice and I'm so glad I was able to meet him (my good friend Yvonne went with me and we had our consults together) We've scheduled our procedures for October 20th --- I CAN'T WAIT!
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October 20, 2006...Well it's over! Hello friends,
Well Yvonne and I got to Michigan Weight Loss Specialists MMPC @ 7:30am and checked in to see the exercise person, dietician, and behavorist. It actually went pretty fast and meeting Scott, the behaviorist, was well worth the $180 paid for all 3 consults.(These 3 consults were the only thing NOT paid for by insurance, $60 per visit) He is a Christian man and he really inspired Yvonne and I as we are both Christians as well. He gave us alternate ways to think about ourselves other than beating up ourselves over things we don't like or are sad about. I can't even put into words how nice he was to talk to. Yvonne and I said it was just a "God moment" ....pretty awesome. Scott also told us that Dr. Baker is a devout Christian, we thought that was pretty cool, too.
We made it over to the endoscopy center next door by noon or a little after, they checked us in, called us back individually, started IV, asked some questions and then took me into one of the endoscopic rooms. Gave me a little Versed, laid on my left side (bad pain from surgery/fall/stress/everything!), I felt the tube going down my throat initially, but then all I remember was waking up in recovery with my friends Yvonne and Mike (Yvonne's awesome hubby) sitting beside my gurney. Mike said Dr. Baker said my stoma opening was 18mm (Yvonne's was 18 as well) and with this injection he's hoping for a constriction/scarring of 12-15mm.
As far as pain. Initially the pain was more bloating for me. I couldn't burp, but was passing gas down below (Poor Mikey who drove us home after the procedure) then the burping started and OUCH! It was very uncomfortable with each burp. I've also noticed it's a bit uncomfortable to take a deep breath. They gave us Lortab Elixer for pain. It helps, but really my pain is worse elsewhere and I prefer to take my other medication. I bought a pill splitter and so far everything smaller than an m&m is going down just fine----well drinking leads to a few painful burps.
I purchased 1 box of each flavor of their own protein bars (they don't believe in protein shakes for long term success because it doesn't give the body/pouch that feeling of satiety) Price wise they are pretty reasonable. $7/box with 7 bars per box, so basically $1 per bar. I am going to try to stick to a regimen of 2 shakes (I have to use them up-- 24 cans-- and I'm going to drink them really fast in hopes of getting that feeling of satiety) and 2 bars per day for the first 6 wks until I see them for my follow up visit. I'm also making a vow to myself to STOP drinking with my meals. That is the one rule I've never followed since surgery, but I'm going to do it now....I'm determined. The high protein will help in my back surgery recovery on Nov 2nd as well.
Ok enough from me. I'm praying this "revision" will get me back down into the 150-160 range. I felt so good then.
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March 7, 2007 ... Hello Everyone! I guess I'm not used to the obesityhelp website anymore. So many changes. I want to say that the Sclerotherapy stomal revision did NOTHING for me. I'm disappointed, but I also didn't go back for a 2nd or 3rd injection, which was probably needed as my stoma was 18mm. I still think the world of Dr. Baker and his staff. But my hopes of a miracle were shattered. But guess what? In December I went through alot of stress. It's a long story, but our family has been thru alot of problems due to me needing spinal fusion surgery in 2006. We moved out of our home of over 5 years, into a 3 bedroom townhouse. In mid December I just decided I was cutting out eating anything that wasn't healthy for me and my body. I have reverted back to my WLS eating plan. I do 2 protein shakes per day, 1 protein bar, 1 food snack, & 1 food meal. I honestly don't deprive myself and I feel GREAT! I've now lost 37 pounds, from 213 down to 176. I can actually squeeze my bum into my size 10's again, but 12's are truly comfortable! I hope and pray the weightloss continues. I'm just going to keep eating like this and pray for the best. Due to my back problems, I can't exercise, but what little bit of activity I can do, I will do. It's now been over 5 years since my WLS and I am still so happy that I did this for ME!
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March 9, 2008 ~ Hello friends! Well it's hard to believe it's been 6 full years since I had surgery & over 10 since I started my journey. I'm so happy to have kept off so much weight. I'm currently struggling to get to goal of 120 (never been there), but I know I have the strength, the support at home, support spiritually, and just support from all of you here at obesityhelp! If anyone wants to chat, please feel free to email. I'm always here!
more of me....
Sep 01, 2008
2/22/02...Well I went for my 2 wk check up and I lost another 3 pounds. So my total loss thus far is 29#'s...gosh, when was the last time I lost almost 30#'s in 2 weeks time? It's crazy how fast the weight comes off in the first 2 weeks, but it's nice! I don't go back until April for my 6 week check up.
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3/5/02...On pureed foods....Well I have hit my first plateau on this journey. I have not lost anything weight wise in the past week, I'm at a total loss of 35#'s gone forever. I have lost 12% of my excess weight in 25 days. Wow!! That in itself is wonderful. ((smile)) I can't complain, I look better and feel MUCH better than I did pre-op. The weight has no other choice but to come off. I am so excited, my good friend, Valerie Bucala is getting ready to have surgery later this month~!! She so deserves this and I can't wait for us to do this together~!!
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3/29/02...Well I am officially down 44#'s in 7 weeks and feeling totally awesome*!!! I wore jeans for the first time the other day, in about 2 years. Life is GREAT!!! I am working out 5 days a week at a Woman's only gym and it is the first time in my life that I actually enjoyed sweating and burning the fat:) LUV IT:) I don't know why, but I feel so much better about me, I'm have a smile on my face alot more often than I did pre-op....maybe that's because I know there is light at the end of the tunnel and I'm seeing it with both eyes open. Plus, I have a great support system, family, friends and 2 great support groups with great members and friends. HUGS to you all~!!
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4/2/02...Hello everyone~ Well this morning I went for my 6 week check up with Dr. Marymor at BTC Ypsi. Yes, I'm actually 7 weeks 4 days post op, but anyways....I about shocked the nurse today when I got on the scale! See, this morning, I weighed myself at home and it said 322 (and that is first thing in the morning, completely nude) but the scale at BTC fully clothed, minus the shoes said 320*!!!! I screamed out of excitement and thought she was gonna fall down....(I scared her)....that is a total of 49 pounds gone (FOREVER) and I am just so close to that 50# mark, I could scream again!!! BP was good, incision is completely healed, dietician says the meat issues I'm having could take a few more weeks to tolerate. I then saw Dr. Marymor.....he was just a pleasure to meet with again. More laid back then usual, smiled a few more times than I have seen in the past, and very positive and motivating. He said I've lost 19% of my excess weight. He said I am on the right track, keep exercising, go back to work, resume all normal pre-op activity. He was great, but then I asked him if it was true what I had heard? Is he leaving BTC Ypsi in August of this year? Unfortunately YES, he is leaving Michigan, but only to help with a new BTC being built (as we speak) outside of Philadelphia, PA near New Jersey. He also said that is where he originally is from and it's closer to family and friends.......I have to admit, I was sad that he is going, but then again, I'll still have the other staff members at BTC to rely on for after care on a yearly basis.
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4/11/02...Well I have some good news, my mom measured me yesterday for the 1st time in 6 weeks and I have lost 21 inches in my body!! Total loss thus far is 56# and I have lost 10 points on my BMI. I am just so happy that I had this surgery!!
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5/3/02...Well today is my 12 week mark and I have conquered a *very* BIG personal goal of mine....I'm finally under 300#...sitting here at 298#*!!! I am sooooo incredibly happy and feeling wonderful since surgery. This has truly been a life saver for me....-71#.
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5/7/02...Guess who is the newest member of the BTC staff? Yes, you guessed right....ME*!!!
I just got the call from the Nursing Director from BTC and he offered me an Nursing position with them!! I applied at my last check up! WooHoo, I'm so incredibly excited and happy!!! I have to go tomorrow for a Pre-employment physical and I should be starting orientation next week. He also said I will get to "see" an actual surgery, so I know what the patient is going through (like I don't already know!!:) This is sooo GREAT!! I'm gonna be back in the work force by next week! Who would have thought a year ago, that I would even be considering working for BTC....I am so excited, what a career move.
Thank you all for your support and friendship through all of this! Jackie....-74#
moving onward, upward and forward...
"nothing tastes as good as thin is going to feel."
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5/16/02...14 weeks post op....down 81# and 42.25" from the BOD*** I am definately amazed with the results. I can fit my but into a size 26 jean and 24 pants! Whoa baby!!! This surgery has been the BEST thing I have ever done for ME*!!! Life is going so great. I start working at BTC on Monday....new bod, new job....what else good can come from having WLS??? *EVERYTHING* I hope!!! God is definately watching over me....I am so thankful to him for allowing me to see WLS as an answer to my prayers!! I can eat just about anything, low fat, low sugar....I don't feel deprived or limited in what I can eat. Everything is trial and error....what agrees with me today, may not tomorrow....but so far Shrimp and crab are the only foods that make me feel incredibly YUCKY...but hey, in another month, it might not effect me that way! Life is good!!
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5/23/02...Well I went to BTC today (and everyday this week) had my 3 month check up, but I'm actually 15 weeks post op tomorrow...I am down to 287 and have lost 34% of my excess weight. No complications, blood work was good and I now don't have to go back till February of next year for my 1 year check up.....although with working there it should be easy to contact someone if I am having any trouble. By the way....I am so happy thus far with BTC as an employer, it seems that they truly care about their employees and want good quality workers....if you don't stand out as Quality, they will terminate you. They put the $$ they earn right back into the hospitals and the employees....like I said, thus far i am nothing but IMPRESSED!!
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5/25/02...OMG! My husband and I went to the movies today and I noticed something....I can sit in a movie theater seat without my thighs squeezing into the seat!!! I also crossed my legs!! OMG, I can't tell you how good it feels not to be the fattest person in the room. And does anyone else find they want to literally reach out and TELL every morbidly obese person that there is an answer, there is help for us??? Just wanted to share...life is good and just keeps getting better. Praise God daily for the gift he has given me!....slim-dom her I come!!!
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6/8/02...Well life is going great! I love my job and everyone at BTC is great!! I feel like I can talk about this surgery till I am blue in the face. Helping others going thru it is such a God Sending privelage! I am still keeping on track with the BTC program and exercise, the weight is still coming off, maybe a little slower than I would like, but still coming. I'm trying to think realistically...it is going to take me another year to get to my goal weight, regardless....slow or fast, I am going to get there!! My friends and support groups are my BEST assett thus far. I can turn to them for anything and that is a great feeling. For anyone out there reading, support groups are such an important part of this successful process. You need to have others around you to help keep yourself on track. We can not do this alone! I am traveling around Michigan to all the BTC support groups, with my friend, Valerie, to gain insight and friendships with others. I'm so thankful I have the friendships and support systems!
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6/25/02...Well I am almost 20 weeks post op and I have finally made a huge goal and milestone thus far in surgery....I've lost 100#*!!!! I just can't believe it, all the hard work, protein and water have paid off!!! WooHoo*!!! I feel incredible and I am so happy I had this surgery. Life is good and only getting better. I love my job and my body is slowly shrinking. I can't wait to be a size 20....still wearing a 24, but they are getting loose....I have these Disney jean bibs in my closet and they are a size 20....I want to wear them by my birthday of 10/27.
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8/21/02...Well I have dropped 20 points in my BMI and I've lost 50% of my excess body weight!! Boy does it feel good!!! How sweet is that??!! The weight loss slows at this point and the plateaus make you want to pull your hair out of your head, but at least they do break and this ride is not over yet! I want to get to 200#, then have reconstructive surgery and hope that puts me at 175..............
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8/26/02.....Ok another milestone down that I must share!! I have reached another goal, I've hit the 250# mark!! WooHoo, never thought I'd see these #'s again!! This is just so wonderful, 119# gone from this body forever! It's hard work, I must admit.....not grazing, drinking all the water, eating all the protein. And getting my butt to the gym! I never thought I would enjoy exercise as much as I do....BUT I DO*!!! Some days you do crave other foods (a sweet treat), but you know they will make you "dump", so you avoid them. I am very sensitive to any sugar/sugar free products (proud to say I have had no refined sugar in almost 7 months) , so I'm learning to live without them! I keep telling myelf, "If it doesn't pass my lips, it comes off the hips!"
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9/17/02....Well I've done it!! Those "Inspiration Pants" I bought (Disney Jean Bibs) size 20...FIT!! Yes, they fit around my tummy and over my butt and boy does it feel good! I haven't lost any weight this week, but I must be losing inches. I just can't believe it!! I look at these pants and I still can't believe they fit me. I still see my butt in a size 32/34. Next goal is a size 16 I guess....I'll have to do some clearance shopping here soon!!
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12/3/02...Well here I sit almost 10 months post op and officially as of today, I'm down 145#. This morning I stepped on the scale and I'm down to 224#. I feel amazing physically, but the excess skin issues are really killing my self esteem....oh well, as my husband keeps telling me "I'll get it fixed!"....reconstructive surgery possibly next summer? I'm wearing a size 18 jeans and I actually bought scrub pants in a size XL and they were too big! Could have gone with a Large! Wahoo!!! :o) This coming Friday I am having surgery again for a umbilical hernia that has redeveloped since the RNY procedure. I wanted to wait to have it fixed, but it's getting bigger and painful, I don't want to risk a bowel obstruction, so I'm going under the knife again.....it's an outpatient procedure and I'm sure things will go well. Well that's my update! Thanksgiving went well and I'm soooo ready for Xmas!
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12/30/02...*Reflection on the year 2002* I sit here and think about all that has changed in the past year. Not just The World and the War on Terror, The Osbourne's & Anna Nicole or Michael Jackson's baby dangling episode, but.....How life & living are totally different than one year ago. My pre op pics were taken New Years Eve 2001, right before hubby and I went out to dinner (It was one of the only times I did my hair and applied the make-up)....Restaurant Italia's famous New Years All You Can Eat Crab Legs.....still had no surgery date, couldn't work due to my size and state, waiting on insurance and eating to my hearts content, not knowing if I'd see tomorrow with my health literally failing at the age of 27...not able to walk very far and using Amigo carts in stores (I know my husband was embarrassed, even though he never said a word), short of breath and full of sweat at any given time of the day, Joe putting on my shoes, like a child, because I could not do it myself, taking meds for Diabetes and edema & just not living or liking much about life anymore....A 3 year research and insurance battle had me more depressed than ever, but I still had a single glimmer of hope that this surgery would happen and help me regain life and living......
February 8th 2002....my life did change. Almost as if I awoke from anesthesia screaming in pain, but screaming because the old me, the me who didn't care about herself, the me who was killing herself with food was leaving my soul. I was determined to do this. Determined to regain health, living, family, friends and LIFE. No longer was I going to watch the parade pass me by, I was going to be an active participant. No longer will food run me. No longer will I NOT care about my appearance. Gone were the days of Buffet Food Establishments or All You Can Eat dinner specials....A new ME had stood up and said "Hey, I'm worth it! I'm worth living for!"
As the months have passed and the pounds have melted, I have began loving myself and loving what has always lived inside, but was afraid to show her face. I have gained a new career and being a mom & wife has never been so fun :o)....although I still feel the urge to pull my hair out every couple of days with a 4 and 2 year old....playing in the snow and making Angels couldn't have come at a better time. This Xmas I was on the floor opening gifts with my girls. Last Year, I didn't know if I could get off the floor, so I didn't bother getting down there!
I have gained life and living. I've made some amazing friends and all I find myself wanting to do is help others who have walked in my shoes. I still haven't gotten up enough nerve to approach a stranger about surgery, cuz I know surgery is not for everyone....it's a personal decision within ones self that has to be made. I'm just so happy I made mine!
Hugs to you all and I wish you all a healthy, prosperous THINNER 2003!!!~Jackie, -157# & 103.5" from the body!!
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2/5/03...Well I am fast approaching my Re-birthday on 2/8....Wow, what a year I've had!! To date I have lost 162#'s and I've just made another goal....my butt is wearing a size 16 jeans!! Wahoo!! Never dreamed in a million years that I would get this far, but I did it and I am hoping to continue with my progress. I am weighing in at 207 and my own personal goal is 193. Dr. Rogers at BTC tells me that my expectations for surgery in the 2 year time frame, should put me between 180-190 for a 75-80% loss of excess weight. So I'm thinking realistically and not going to kill myself for the perfect body! I know once I have the reconstructive surgery, I will be much happier with my body, but that isn't for another year or more. Hubby and I have decided to try for another baby in July of this year....so that puts my RS on hold for a few. This surgery has been miraculous in so many ways, but the daily battle with food still exists. I am one of those folks who has to watch every little thing I put in my mouth. I can't eat the sugars or fats and I know if I do, not only will I dump, but my weight loss slows or my biggest fear is gaining weight. I tell myself everyday, "Your a food addict, but you can win this battle!"
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3/5/02...On pureed foods....Well I have hit my first plateau on this journey. I have not lost anything weight wise in the past week, I'm at a total loss of 35#'s gone forever. I have lost 12% of my excess weight in 25 days. Wow!! That in itself is wonderful. ((smile)) I can't complain, I look better and feel MUCH better than I did pre-op. The weight has no other choice but to come off. I am so excited, my good friend, Valerie Bucala is getting ready to have surgery later this month~!! She so deserves this and I can't wait for us to do this together~!!
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3/29/02...Well I am officially down 44#'s in 7 weeks and feeling totally awesome*!!! I wore jeans for the first time the other day, in about 2 years. Life is GREAT!!! I am working out 5 days a week at a Woman's only gym and it is the first time in my life that I actually enjoyed sweating and burning the fat:) LUV IT:) I don't know why, but I feel so much better about me, I'm have a smile on my face alot more often than I did pre-op....maybe that's because I know there is light at the end of the tunnel and I'm seeing it with both eyes open. Plus, I have a great support system, family, friends and 2 great support groups with great members and friends. HUGS to you all~!!
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4/2/02...Hello everyone~ Well this morning I went for my 6 week check up with Dr. Marymor at BTC Ypsi. Yes, I'm actually 7 weeks 4 days post op, but anyways....I about shocked the nurse today when I got on the scale! See, this morning, I weighed myself at home and it said 322 (and that is first thing in the morning, completely nude) but the scale at BTC fully clothed, minus the shoes said 320*!!!! I screamed out of excitement and thought she was gonna fall down....(I scared her)....that is a total of 49 pounds gone (FOREVER) and I am just so close to that 50# mark, I could scream again!!! BP was good, incision is completely healed, dietician says the meat issues I'm having could take a few more weeks to tolerate. I then saw Dr. Marymor.....he was just a pleasure to meet with again. More laid back then usual, smiled a few more times than I have seen in the past, and very positive and motivating. He said I've lost 19% of my excess weight. He said I am on the right track, keep exercising, go back to work, resume all normal pre-op activity. He was great, but then I asked him if it was true what I had heard? Is he leaving BTC Ypsi in August of this year? Unfortunately YES, he is leaving Michigan, but only to help with a new BTC being built (as we speak) outside of Philadelphia, PA near New Jersey. He also said that is where he originally is from and it's closer to family and friends.......I have to admit, I was sad that he is going, but then again, I'll still have the other staff members at BTC to rely on for after care on a yearly basis.
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4/11/02...Well I have some good news, my mom measured me yesterday for the 1st time in 6 weeks and I have lost 21 inches in my body!! Total loss thus far is 56# and I have lost 10 points on my BMI. I am just so happy that I had this surgery!!
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5/3/02...Well today is my 12 week mark and I have conquered a *very* BIG personal goal of mine....I'm finally under 300#...sitting here at 298#*!!! I am sooooo incredibly happy and feeling wonderful since surgery. This has truly been a life saver for me....-71#.
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5/7/02...Guess who is the newest member of the BTC staff? Yes, you guessed right....ME*!!!
I just got the call from the Nursing Director from BTC and he offered me an Nursing position with them!! I applied at my last check up! WooHoo, I'm so incredibly excited and happy!!! I have to go tomorrow for a Pre-employment physical and I should be starting orientation next week. He also said I will get to "see" an actual surgery, so I know what the patient is going through (like I don't already know!!:) This is sooo GREAT!! I'm gonna be back in the work force by next week! Who would have thought a year ago, that I would even be considering working for BTC....I am so excited, what a career move.
Thank you all for your support and friendship through all of this! Jackie....-74#
moving onward, upward and forward...
"nothing tastes as good as thin is going to feel."
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5/16/02...14 weeks post op....down 81# and 42.25" from the BOD*** I am definately amazed with the results. I can fit my but into a size 26 jean and 24 pants! Whoa baby!!! This surgery has been the BEST thing I have ever done for ME*!!! Life is going so great. I start working at BTC on Monday....new bod, new job....what else good can come from having WLS??? *EVERYTHING* I hope!!! God is definately watching over me....I am so thankful to him for allowing me to see WLS as an answer to my prayers!! I can eat just about anything, low fat, low sugar....I don't feel deprived or limited in what I can eat. Everything is trial and error....what agrees with me today, may not tomorrow....but so far Shrimp and crab are the only foods that make me feel incredibly YUCKY...but hey, in another month, it might not effect me that way! Life is good!!
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5/23/02...Well I went to BTC today (and everyday this week) had my 3 month check up, but I'm actually 15 weeks post op tomorrow...I am down to 287 and have lost 34% of my excess weight. No complications, blood work was good and I now don't have to go back till February of next year for my 1 year check up.....although with working there it should be easy to contact someone if I am having any trouble. By the way....I am so happy thus far with BTC as an employer, it seems that they truly care about their employees and want good quality workers....if you don't stand out as Quality, they will terminate you. They put the $$ they earn right back into the hospitals and the employees....like I said, thus far i am nothing but IMPRESSED!!
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5/25/02...OMG! My husband and I went to the movies today and I noticed something....I can sit in a movie theater seat without my thighs squeezing into the seat!!! I also crossed my legs!! OMG, I can't tell you how good it feels not to be the fattest person in the room. And does anyone else find they want to literally reach out and TELL every morbidly obese person that there is an answer, there is help for us??? Just wanted to share...life is good and just keeps getting better. Praise God daily for the gift he has given me!....slim-dom her I come!!!
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6/8/02...Well life is going great! I love my job and everyone at BTC is great!! I feel like I can talk about this surgery till I am blue in the face. Helping others going thru it is such a God Sending privelage! I am still keeping on track with the BTC program and exercise, the weight is still coming off, maybe a little slower than I would like, but still coming. I'm trying to think realistically...it is going to take me another year to get to my goal weight, regardless....slow or fast, I am going to get there!! My friends and support groups are my BEST assett thus far. I can turn to them for anything and that is a great feeling. For anyone out there reading, support groups are such an important part of this successful process. You need to have others around you to help keep yourself on track. We can not do this alone! I am traveling around Michigan to all the BTC support groups, with my friend, Valerie, to gain insight and friendships with others. I'm so thankful I have the friendships and support systems!
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6/25/02...Well I am almost 20 weeks post op and I have finally made a huge goal and milestone thus far in surgery....I've lost 100#*!!!! I just can't believe it, all the hard work, protein and water have paid off!!! WooHoo*!!! I feel incredible and I am so happy I had this surgery. Life is good and only getting better. I love my job and my body is slowly shrinking. I can't wait to be a size 20....still wearing a 24, but they are getting loose....I have these Disney jean bibs in my closet and they are a size 20....I want to wear them by my birthday of 10/27.
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8/21/02...Well I have dropped 20 points in my BMI and I've lost 50% of my excess body weight!! Boy does it feel good!!! How sweet is that??!! The weight loss slows at this point and the plateaus make you want to pull your hair out of your head, but at least they do break and this ride is not over yet! I want to get to 200#, then have reconstructive surgery and hope that puts me at 175..............
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8/26/02.....Ok another milestone down that I must share!! I have reached another goal, I've hit the 250# mark!! WooHoo, never thought I'd see these #'s again!! This is just so wonderful, 119# gone from this body forever! It's hard work, I must admit.....not grazing, drinking all the water, eating all the protein. And getting my butt to the gym! I never thought I would enjoy exercise as much as I do....BUT I DO*!!! Some days you do crave other foods (a sweet treat), but you know they will make you "dump", so you avoid them. I am very sensitive to any sugar/sugar free products (proud to say I have had no refined sugar in almost 7 months) , so I'm learning to live without them! I keep telling myelf, "If it doesn't pass my lips, it comes off the hips!"
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9/17/02....Well I've done it!! Those "Inspiration Pants" I bought (Disney Jean Bibs) size 20...FIT!! Yes, they fit around my tummy and over my butt and boy does it feel good! I haven't lost any weight this week, but I must be losing inches. I just can't believe it!! I look at these pants and I still can't believe they fit me. I still see my butt in a size 32/34. Next goal is a size 16 I guess....I'll have to do some clearance shopping here soon!!
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12/3/02...Well here I sit almost 10 months post op and officially as of today, I'm down 145#. This morning I stepped on the scale and I'm down to 224#. I feel amazing physically, but the excess skin issues are really killing my self esteem....oh well, as my husband keeps telling me "I'll get it fixed!"....reconstructive surgery possibly next summer? I'm wearing a size 18 jeans and I actually bought scrub pants in a size XL and they were too big! Could have gone with a Large! Wahoo!!! :o) This coming Friday I am having surgery again for a umbilical hernia that has redeveloped since the RNY procedure. I wanted to wait to have it fixed, but it's getting bigger and painful, I don't want to risk a bowel obstruction, so I'm going under the knife again.....it's an outpatient procedure and I'm sure things will go well. Well that's my update! Thanksgiving went well and I'm soooo ready for Xmas!
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12/30/02...*Reflection on the year 2002* I sit here and think about all that has changed in the past year. Not just The World and the War on Terror, The Osbourne's & Anna Nicole or Michael Jackson's baby dangling episode, but.....How life & living are totally different than one year ago. My pre op pics were taken New Years Eve 2001, right before hubby and I went out to dinner (It was one of the only times I did my hair and applied the make-up)....Restaurant Italia's famous New Years All You Can Eat Crab Legs.....still had no surgery date, couldn't work due to my size and state, waiting on insurance and eating to my hearts content, not knowing if I'd see tomorrow with my health literally failing at the age of 27...not able to walk very far and using Amigo carts in stores (I know my husband was embarrassed, even though he never said a word), short of breath and full of sweat at any given time of the day, Joe putting on my shoes, like a child, because I could not do it myself, taking meds for Diabetes and edema & just not living or liking much about life anymore....A 3 year research and insurance battle had me more depressed than ever, but I still had a single glimmer of hope that this surgery would happen and help me regain life and living......
February 8th 2002....my life did change. Almost as if I awoke from anesthesia screaming in pain, but screaming because the old me, the me who didn't care about herself, the me who was killing herself with food was leaving my soul. I was determined to do this. Determined to regain health, living, family, friends and LIFE. No longer was I going to watch the parade pass me by, I was going to be an active participant. No longer will food run me. No longer will I NOT care about my appearance. Gone were the days of Buffet Food Establishments or All You Can Eat dinner specials....A new ME had stood up and said "Hey, I'm worth it! I'm worth living for!"
As the months have passed and the pounds have melted, I have began loving myself and loving what has always lived inside, but was afraid to show her face. I have gained a new career and being a mom & wife has never been so fun :o)....although I still feel the urge to pull my hair out every couple of days with a 4 and 2 year old....playing in the snow and making Angels couldn't have come at a better time. This Xmas I was on the floor opening gifts with my girls. Last Year, I didn't know if I could get off the floor, so I didn't bother getting down there!
I have gained life and living. I've made some amazing friends and all I find myself wanting to do is help others who have walked in my shoes. I still haven't gotten up enough nerve to approach a stranger about surgery, cuz I know surgery is not for everyone....it's a personal decision within ones self that has to be made. I'm just so happy I made mine!
Hugs to you all and I wish you all a healthy, prosperous THINNER 2003!!!~Jackie, -157# & 103.5" from the body!!
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2/5/03...Well I am fast approaching my Re-birthday on 2/8....Wow, what a year I've had!! To date I have lost 162#'s and I've just made another goal....my butt is wearing a size 16 jeans!! Wahoo!! Never dreamed in a million years that I would get this far, but I did it and I am hoping to continue with my progress. I am weighing in at 207 and my own personal goal is 193. Dr. Rogers at BTC tells me that my expectations for surgery in the 2 year time frame, should put me between 180-190 for a 75-80% loss of excess weight. So I'm thinking realistically and not going to kill myself for the perfect body! I know once I have the reconstructive surgery, I will be much happier with my body, but that isn't for another year or more. Hubby and I have decided to try for another baby in July of this year....so that puts my RS on hold for a few. This surgery has been miraculous in so many ways, but the daily battle with food still exists. I am one of those folks who has to watch every little thing I put in my mouth. I can't eat the sugars or fats and I know if I do, not only will I dump, but my weight loss slows or my biggest fear is gaining weight. I tell myself everyday, "Your a food addict, but you can win this battle!"
The beginning
Sep 01, 2008
10/22/01...Well the insurance papers have been submitted and as of December 1, 2001, we will have BC/BS Messa insurance. So I have been thinking heavily on who I want to go with surgeon wise. I was thinking of going with the LAP procedure, but I am worried that due to the size/girth of my stomach, I will end up being OPEN anyways....I also went to my Monroe WLS support group and when I heard that 50% of Dr. Kligman's surgeries end up open anyways, I think I want to go with the OPEN experts! So I have decided to go with BTC here in Michigan and hope I can gain an approval. I called them up today and spoke with AMY. I asked if I could schedule my initial consultation.....she asked me what insurance I would have and a few health questions. I have a consultation date!!
12/11/01! WooHoo!! I am on cloud 9...can you see me up there? That Gold Cloud in the middle, that's the one I'm on!!!! :)
Anyways, I feel like my foot is in the door and now I have something so incredible to look forward to. Oh and my surgeon is DR. Neil Marymor. I have heard many positive things about him!! I can't wait to meet you Dr. Marymor!
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11/13/01...Well the wait for this consultation is horrid! I want this procedure so bad!! I find myself dreaming, thinking, eating, shopping....everything I do, I have WLS in the back of my mind. It's quite obsessive behavior don't you think? Oh well, I just want this soooo bad, it's all I think about! Still looking forward to my consultation next month, 4 weeks away! I have been reading some WLS books, including Carnie Wilson's to pass the time. I have been active with several support groups on and offline, which also helps. I love all these wonderful friends I am making through this whole process. I luv you all!
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12/1/01...Oh My God! I can't believe I have insurance again!! WooHoo! Life is good. Okay, now to get a few things going before my consult on 12/11/01. I want to go see my PCP, who has been treating me for over 7 years and I know she will be sooo happy to hear that we finally have an insurance to work with. She was up front with me when dealing with HAP (she told me not in a million years would they approve surgery for me) but I know that now with the BCBS Messa insurance, we can't go wrong! I'm gonna ask her for her written approval in a letter and I also need some new pain meds for my back....the weight is really taking it's toll on my body right now. I also am going to see my OB/GYN, I want her to give me written approval as well. Along with a letter saying my 'female organs' are okay. I keep thinking every little bit has got to help, right? I'm so excited!!!Nervous!!!and happy....my consult is in less than 10 days!! I'm gonna be so ready....think they can fit me in their surgical schedule for that evening of the 11th? HA! NOT!!! I'm just dreaming! My next update will probably be after my consult!
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12/10/01...Well the consult is in less than 24 hours and I'm totally geeked! I have all of my paperwork and I'm all ready to meet this man, Dr. Marymor....who is going to change my life! With my excitement there is also fear = fear that I won't qualify, fear that I'm too fat, fear that I won't know what to do if I lose this excess weight I've known for so many years. But I know that this is my last attempt at regaining LIFE and living. This is something I have to do to regain HEALTH. Oh, I went to my PCP this past week and she was all for the surgery....she even gave me a copy of my records to take to the consult and said "IF you need a letter of medical necessity, I'll write one, but I don't think you'll need one." She was very supportive and said "Go For IT!".....then I went and saw my OB/GYN and she too was wonderful with it.....she said she'd dictate me a letter of recomendation and put it in the mail! Hope to get it tomorrow before my consult! So all is well and I'm so ready! I've waited 3 long years for this! Thanks be to God for all that he has blessed me with!
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12/12/01...Well it's done and over with....I've had the consultation with the man that is going to change my life forever...Dr. Neil Marymor @ BTC. He was very pleasant, but kinda made me feel like he was tired of giving his "Speal"! My consult was the last one of the day @ 5pm yesterday. Anyways, I spoke with Kisha (patient counselor) and gave all of my medical history, as well as my medical records and complete diet history since 1983. But I don't think they needed it, cuz I had to basically make them take everything and add it to my file. I asked him about his experience, pre-op questions and he was kinda vague with his answers.....but I just think he was tired. Thus far he has done approx 400 surgeries since he has been with BTC and has had 1 death. That was a bit reassuring, although, I am still a bit scared (ya just never know when it's your time to go)!! So after an hour and a 1/2 they walked me back to the front desk and basically said I should here something within 6 weeks from my insurance....Kisha said my insurance was very good about approving (MESSA).....which again was very reassuring. I do have to get a Psych Eval....but I dont' even know where to go for this one....Oh and Dr. Marymor said the insurance doesn't require the eval....HE DOES! I said OK....I'll do my best! So anyways, I'm hoping for a late January early February surgery date....everyone cross you fingers and say a prayer or 2 for me!!! Oh and I had to get on the scale and I was totally shocked by the numbers.....weight has climbed to an all time high of 359! I am slowly killing myself with food.....why is my mentality to "Live to Eat"....all I want is to "Eat to Live". Oh and for years I thought I was 5'4" and today they tell me I've shrunk an inch...I'm at 5'3"!! I've not been that short in over 15 years that I can remember.
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12/13/01...Well a nice friend of mine has given me the name of a Psych doc in Wyandotte (Dr. Garg)...I go for my Eval on January 3rd!!! It's all happening so fast!!
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12/20/01...Well the fast pace has slowed down. I spoke with Jeff at BTC and my paperwork was sent out the day after my consultation, but just in case "snail mail" isn't going fast enouogh, he said he would FAX everything to Messa again today! God, I keep thinking with all this holiday crap, I won't get a surgery date until February. I really wish I could get in by the end of January, but that's probably wishful thinking. God answer my prayers and grant me an approval soon!
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1/2/02...Well tomorrow I go for the Psych Eval....hopefully things go well! I know I'm not crazy and I'm so ready for surgery I could spit nails! ((oh no, that might not be a good thing to say...sounds a bit crazy, huh?)) Called Messa today to see what was the hold up....basically my paperwork has been sitting on someone's desk since 12/20/01 and they haven't even looked at it, so looks like it will be a few more weeks before I know anything for sure....this is killing me...Waiting!!!
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1/3/02...I went for my Psych Eval this afternoon (Dr. Garg out of Wyandotte) and all went well. It took less then an hour and we basically discussed the surgery, my medical/mental history, what I know of Bariatric surgery and what I expect out of surgery. This doc was great! Very nice and he knew *everything* BTC needed without having to take that darn MMPI-2 test! He dictated a letter right in front of me and said it should be ready to be sent to them by mid-next week!!! So now, all I have to do is wait for my insurance to approve. And they don't even require the Psych Test, it's Dr. Marymor who wanted me to have it.....I think this is the hardest thing...WAITING.....waiting for someone else to decide my fait, my future! grrrrr.....I am so worried that now, I won't get a surgery date until March. Does anyone know if BTC has a cancellation list? I want the first slot available, don't care what time....I just want a date. I'm not working and my financial prospects are limited until AFTER I have surgery.....so I'm hoping to get in and on the road to recovery ASAP!! Please everyone pray that I get a letter of approval from Messa soon! I'm so tired of waiting!! Those greener (a little snow covered) pastures are within sight.....I just can't get close enough to jump the darn fence!
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1/7/02...I just wanted to post and let everyone know, that I just got a call from my insurance (BCBS Messa) and I am APPROVED!!! I am so psyched and so incredibly happy, I'm in tears of Joy right now. I spoke with another woman this morning from my insurance and she told me I wouldn't hear anything for another 2 weeks, but low and behold God was watching over this today!!:) I was just about to devour a HUGE piece of Oreo Cookie Cream Cake, when the phone rang and totally stopped me! I am so happy, I put the cake down and said "I'm so happy I can't even eat this" to my husband.....he hugged me and said he's so happy for me......so I should get my approval letter within a few days and then I can schedule my date with Dr. Marymor at BTC. WooHoo!!!
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1/16/02...Well I have been in a bit of Depression thinking that I was never going to get a surgery date. But today God has answered my prayers. At 3pm today I got the call from Jen at BTC Scheduling and she said "How does February 8th sound for surgery?" I about crapped my pants and dropped the phone!! I said "That sounds Fantastic!" WooHoo, I have a date!!! I am so incredibly happy! All the time, effort and work to get to this point is well worth it. I'm almost crossing over to the other-side. I have to go for my Pre Op testing on Jan 28th. This is just so amazing. Anyone out there reading this, Don't ever give up on getting that approval, Fight, Fight and if you have to change insurances then do it! Don't give up!
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1/28/02...Well I went for my PAT's today and all went well. It took 3 full hours, but it was well worth it! Vitals, Weight, blood work, urine sample, EKG, Pulmonary function test, Chest Xray, gallbladder ultrasound, speak with Nutritionist, see the nurse and talk with the Internist....all my tests came back Normal,blood sugar is WNL...all is well and surgery is still on for Feb 8th!!! ya know what? I can't believe I have gained 10 pounds since I had my consult back in December!!! Is this common to gain more weight before you have surgery? I feel so huge!!
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2/6/02...Well I can't say I'm nervous...Just incredibly excited and sooooo ready for this to happen. Tomorrow at noon I start my clear liquids and bowel prep....then Friday morning at 9:30am I am going on the table...my *re-birth* so to speak. God watching and Angels above me, I hope and pray.
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2/18/02...Well I know it has taken me a little while to update, but having surgery is not easy!! (I know you all know that)...anyways, 2/8/02...I got to BTC at 7:30am and signed in, they had me sign some paperwork and off to the lab for some blood. (Pregnancy Test and Fasting Blood Sugar) They won't do your surgery if your FBS is above 200 or something....I passed with flying colors. So my husband, mom and me went to the "waiting area" on the 3rd floor.....got into the Pre-Op room at 8am....they had me remove all my clothes, shoes, etc. Took my vitals and weight....then started the I.V. I had to do a breathing treatment because I was a previuos smoker. They squirted the back of my throat with a numbing solution and then Dr. Marymor came in with my mom and husband....he explained the procedure one more time, just to make sure we ALL new what I was about to do. And complications that could arise....kinda scary, but yes, complications can happen. He is such a pleasant man....anyways, I remember being wheeled into the O.R. and them asking me to get on the table, but from there, I'm gone.....Surgery was approx 1.5 hours...I was being forced awake "Jackie, it's over, surgery is over, your doing fine." I started freaking...I mean, I was dreaming of SWEET things and LaLa Surgery, but when they woke me, so quickly...I was in PAIN and I suddenly realized I still had the Intubation tube down my throat....they made me cough to extubate me and get it out and boy, that was horrid!! I'm not trying to scare anyone, but it was BAD....nothing I ever want to experience again. I don't know why they didn't pull that thing out before waking me? So off to recovery....things are a bit "iffy" cuz I'm coming out of anesthesia, but I remember them doing more breathing treatments, making me cough and doing the insentive spirometer as best I could, which wasn't much....I was in Hell and I didn't know If I had made the right decision about surgery!! (Now up until this moment, I had never had a negative or bad thought about me having this surgery....but now the thoughts were crossing my mind) After about 45 min they wheeled me into my room on the 2nd floor(for 24 hours only)....they had Respiratory Therapists coming in...Nurses, etc....I remember looking at my mom and husband saying "I'm dying, just go home." They knew I was out of it and in major pain. They got me up to walk about 6 hours post op and it went okay....painful, but okay, Dr. Marymor did come see me and explained that surgery went well, he did have to repair a small umbilical hernia, but overall good surgery....FAST FORWARD...day 2, I still didn't think I felt that great...but realized things will get better. The more you move, the better you feel. Plus, now you go up to the 3rd floor rooms....I had no roomate, but 2 TV's :) Dr. Lane came to see me on Sat and Sun and he was wonderful too!! My incision was doing well and so was the drain (not scarey, so don't fret)....Oh, I wanted to tell you the reason my pain was so bad, I was having severe muscle spasms in my abdomen....felt like the muscles were retaliating against surgery....that is why my pain was so severe. FAST FORWARD....day 4, I was so ready to come home. If I had to sleep in that hospital bed one more day, I was going to hurt someone!! I must say that all the staff at BTC were exceptional and caring (Jill, Pat & Colleen were my Nurses). The ride home was OK...no major pain...muscle spasms have subsided. So now....11 DAYS post op, I am doing fine, other than a sinus/ear infection (totally un-related to surgery)....haven't had a pain pill in days and am moving as much as possible. Went to the doc's today and I have lost 26 pounds total from my PAT's.....21 pounds total from day of surgery!! This is already the BEST thing I could do for myself! Hugs to you all and God Bless.
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2/21/02...Well I have been on Clear/Full Liquids for 2 weeks now and I am so ready to EAT!! I didn't know that I would miss food this much. I think I am going through a grieving process over food. I'm not hungry but my head still wants to eat all the time. I'm doing very well, I'm scared to death to eat anything pureed till next Friday and I don't want to *fail* at this, my last hope at normalcy. I'm staying positive and leaning to my support group for support and friendships....I think they are going to be my back bone thru the next year. I go tomorrow for my 2 week check up and I can't wait to step on the scale....that will make it all worth while to see those #'s dropping. I'll post more tomorrow.
12/11/01! WooHoo!! I am on cloud 9...can you see me up there? That Gold Cloud in the middle, that's the one I'm on!!!! :)
Anyways, I feel like my foot is in the door and now I have something so incredible to look forward to. Oh and my surgeon is DR. Neil Marymor. I have heard many positive things about him!! I can't wait to meet you Dr. Marymor!
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11/13/01...Well the wait for this consultation is horrid! I want this procedure so bad!! I find myself dreaming, thinking, eating, shopping....everything I do, I have WLS in the back of my mind. It's quite obsessive behavior don't you think? Oh well, I just want this soooo bad, it's all I think about! Still looking forward to my consultation next month, 4 weeks away! I have been reading some WLS books, including Carnie Wilson's to pass the time. I have been active with several support groups on and offline, which also helps. I love all these wonderful friends I am making through this whole process. I luv you all!
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12/1/01...Oh My God! I can't believe I have insurance again!! WooHoo! Life is good. Okay, now to get a few things going before my consult on 12/11/01. I want to go see my PCP, who has been treating me for over 7 years and I know she will be sooo happy to hear that we finally have an insurance to work with. She was up front with me when dealing with HAP (she told me not in a million years would they approve surgery for me) but I know that now with the BCBS Messa insurance, we can't go wrong! I'm gonna ask her for her written approval in a letter and I also need some new pain meds for my back....the weight is really taking it's toll on my body right now. I also am going to see my OB/GYN, I want her to give me written approval as well. Along with a letter saying my 'female organs' are okay. I keep thinking every little bit has got to help, right? I'm so excited!!!Nervous!!!and happy....my consult is in less than 10 days!! I'm gonna be so ready....think they can fit me in their surgical schedule for that evening of the 11th? HA! NOT!!! I'm just dreaming! My next update will probably be after my consult!
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12/10/01...Well the consult is in less than 24 hours and I'm totally geeked! I have all of my paperwork and I'm all ready to meet this man, Dr. Marymor....who is going to change my life! With my excitement there is also fear = fear that I won't qualify, fear that I'm too fat, fear that I won't know what to do if I lose this excess weight I've known for so many years. But I know that this is my last attempt at regaining LIFE and living. This is something I have to do to regain HEALTH. Oh, I went to my PCP this past week and she was all for the surgery....she even gave me a copy of my records to take to the consult and said "IF you need a letter of medical necessity, I'll write one, but I don't think you'll need one." She was very supportive and said "Go For IT!".....then I went and saw my OB/GYN and she too was wonderful with it.....she said she'd dictate me a letter of recomendation and put it in the mail! Hope to get it tomorrow before my consult! So all is well and I'm so ready! I've waited 3 long years for this! Thanks be to God for all that he has blessed me with!
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12/12/01...Well it's done and over with....I've had the consultation with the man that is going to change my life forever...Dr. Neil Marymor @ BTC. He was very pleasant, but kinda made me feel like he was tired of giving his "Speal"! My consult was the last one of the day @ 5pm yesterday. Anyways, I spoke with Kisha (patient counselor) and gave all of my medical history, as well as my medical records and complete diet history since 1983. But I don't think they needed it, cuz I had to basically make them take everything and add it to my file. I asked him about his experience, pre-op questions and he was kinda vague with his answers.....but I just think he was tired. Thus far he has done approx 400 surgeries since he has been with BTC and has had 1 death. That was a bit reassuring, although, I am still a bit scared (ya just never know when it's your time to go)!! So after an hour and a 1/2 they walked me back to the front desk and basically said I should here something within 6 weeks from my insurance....Kisha said my insurance was very good about approving (MESSA).....which again was very reassuring. I do have to get a Psych Eval....but I dont' even know where to go for this one....Oh and Dr. Marymor said the insurance doesn't require the eval....HE DOES! I said OK....I'll do my best! So anyways, I'm hoping for a late January early February surgery date....everyone cross you fingers and say a prayer or 2 for me!!! Oh and I had to get on the scale and I was totally shocked by the numbers.....weight has climbed to an all time high of 359! I am slowly killing myself with food.....why is my mentality to "Live to Eat"....all I want is to "Eat to Live". Oh and for years I thought I was 5'4" and today they tell me I've shrunk an inch...I'm at 5'3"!! I've not been that short in over 15 years that I can remember.
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12/13/01...Well a nice friend of mine has given me the name of a Psych doc in Wyandotte (Dr. Garg)...I go for my Eval on January 3rd!!! It's all happening so fast!!
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12/20/01...Well the fast pace has slowed down. I spoke with Jeff at BTC and my paperwork was sent out the day after my consultation, but just in case "snail mail" isn't going fast enouogh, he said he would FAX everything to Messa again today! God, I keep thinking with all this holiday crap, I won't get a surgery date until February. I really wish I could get in by the end of January, but that's probably wishful thinking. God answer my prayers and grant me an approval soon!
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1/2/02...Well tomorrow I go for the Psych Eval....hopefully things go well! I know I'm not crazy and I'm so ready for surgery I could spit nails! ((oh no, that might not be a good thing to say...sounds a bit crazy, huh?)) Called Messa today to see what was the hold up....basically my paperwork has been sitting on someone's desk since 12/20/01 and they haven't even looked at it, so looks like it will be a few more weeks before I know anything for sure....this is killing me...Waiting!!!
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1/3/02...I went for my Psych Eval this afternoon (Dr. Garg out of Wyandotte) and all went well. It took less then an hour and we basically discussed the surgery, my medical/mental history, what I know of Bariatric surgery and what I expect out of surgery. This doc was great! Very nice and he knew *everything* BTC needed without having to take that darn MMPI-2 test! He dictated a letter right in front of me and said it should be ready to be sent to them by mid-next week!!! So now, all I have to do is wait for my insurance to approve. And they don't even require the Psych Test, it's Dr. Marymor who wanted me to have it.....I think this is the hardest thing...WAITING.....waiting for someone else to decide my fait, my future! grrrrr.....I am so worried that now, I won't get a surgery date until March. Does anyone know if BTC has a cancellation list? I want the first slot available, don't care what time....I just want a date. I'm not working and my financial prospects are limited until AFTER I have surgery.....so I'm hoping to get in and on the road to recovery ASAP!! Please everyone pray that I get a letter of approval from Messa soon! I'm so tired of waiting!! Those greener (a little snow covered) pastures are within sight.....I just can't get close enough to jump the darn fence!
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1/7/02...I just wanted to post and let everyone know, that I just got a call from my insurance (BCBS Messa) and I am APPROVED!!! I am so psyched and so incredibly happy, I'm in tears of Joy right now. I spoke with another woman this morning from my insurance and she told me I wouldn't hear anything for another 2 weeks, but low and behold God was watching over this today!!:) I was just about to devour a HUGE piece of Oreo Cookie Cream Cake, when the phone rang and totally stopped me! I am so happy, I put the cake down and said "I'm so happy I can't even eat this" to my husband.....he hugged me and said he's so happy for me......so I should get my approval letter within a few days and then I can schedule my date with Dr. Marymor at BTC. WooHoo!!!
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1/16/02...Well I have been in a bit of Depression thinking that I was never going to get a surgery date. But today God has answered my prayers. At 3pm today I got the call from Jen at BTC Scheduling and she said "How does February 8th sound for surgery?" I about crapped my pants and dropped the phone!! I said "That sounds Fantastic!" WooHoo, I have a date!!! I am so incredibly happy! All the time, effort and work to get to this point is well worth it. I'm almost crossing over to the other-side. I have to go for my Pre Op testing on Jan 28th. This is just so amazing. Anyone out there reading this, Don't ever give up on getting that approval, Fight, Fight and if you have to change insurances then do it! Don't give up!
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1/28/02...Well I went for my PAT's today and all went well. It took 3 full hours, but it was well worth it! Vitals, Weight, blood work, urine sample, EKG, Pulmonary function test, Chest Xray, gallbladder ultrasound, speak with Nutritionist, see the nurse and talk with the Internist....all my tests came back Normal,blood sugar is WNL...all is well and surgery is still on for Feb 8th!!! ya know what? I can't believe I have gained 10 pounds since I had my consult back in December!!! Is this common to gain more weight before you have surgery? I feel so huge!!
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2/6/02...Well I can't say I'm nervous...Just incredibly excited and sooooo ready for this to happen. Tomorrow at noon I start my clear liquids and bowel prep....then Friday morning at 9:30am I am going on the table...my *re-birth* so to speak. God watching and Angels above me, I hope and pray.
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2/18/02...Well I know it has taken me a little while to update, but having surgery is not easy!! (I know you all know that)...anyways, 2/8/02...I got to BTC at 7:30am and signed in, they had me sign some paperwork and off to the lab for some blood. (Pregnancy Test and Fasting Blood Sugar) They won't do your surgery if your FBS is above 200 or something....I passed with flying colors. So my husband, mom and me went to the "waiting area" on the 3rd floor.....got into the Pre-Op room at 8am....they had me remove all my clothes, shoes, etc. Took my vitals and weight....then started the I.V. I had to do a breathing treatment because I was a previuos smoker. They squirted the back of my throat with a numbing solution and then Dr. Marymor came in with my mom and husband....he explained the procedure one more time, just to make sure we ALL new what I was about to do. And complications that could arise....kinda scary, but yes, complications can happen. He is such a pleasant man....anyways, I remember being wheeled into the O.R. and them asking me to get on the table, but from there, I'm gone.....Surgery was approx 1.5 hours...I was being forced awake "Jackie, it's over, surgery is over, your doing fine." I started freaking...I mean, I was dreaming of SWEET things and LaLa Surgery, but when they woke me, so quickly...I was in PAIN and I suddenly realized I still had the Intubation tube down my throat....they made me cough to extubate me and get it out and boy, that was horrid!! I'm not trying to scare anyone, but it was BAD....nothing I ever want to experience again. I don't know why they didn't pull that thing out before waking me? So off to recovery....things are a bit "iffy" cuz I'm coming out of anesthesia, but I remember them doing more breathing treatments, making me cough and doing the insentive spirometer as best I could, which wasn't much....I was in Hell and I didn't know If I had made the right decision about surgery!! (Now up until this moment, I had never had a negative or bad thought about me having this surgery....but now the thoughts were crossing my mind) After about 45 min they wheeled me into my room on the 2nd floor(for 24 hours only)....they had Respiratory Therapists coming in...Nurses, etc....I remember looking at my mom and husband saying "I'm dying, just go home." They knew I was out of it and in major pain. They got me up to walk about 6 hours post op and it went okay....painful, but okay, Dr. Marymor did come see me and explained that surgery went well, he did have to repair a small umbilical hernia, but overall good surgery....FAST FORWARD...day 2, I still didn't think I felt that great...but realized things will get better. The more you move, the better you feel. Plus, now you go up to the 3rd floor rooms....I had no roomate, but 2 TV's :) Dr. Lane came to see me on Sat and Sun and he was wonderful too!! My incision was doing well and so was the drain (not scarey, so don't fret)....Oh, I wanted to tell you the reason my pain was so bad, I was having severe muscle spasms in my abdomen....felt like the muscles were retaliating against surgery....that is why my pain was so severe. FAST FORWARD....day 4, I was so ready to come home. If I had to sleep in that hospital bed one more day, I was going to hurt someone!! I must say that all the staff at BTC were exceptional and caring (Jill, Pat & Colleen were my Nurses). The ride home was OK...no major pain...muscle spasms have subsided. So now....11 DAYS post op, I am doing fine, other than a sinus/ear infection (totally un-related to surgery)....haven't had a pain pill in days and am moving as much as possible. Went to the doc's today and I have lost 26 pounds total from my PAT's.....21 pounds total from day of surgery!! This is already the BEST thing I could do for myself! Hugs to you all and God Bless.
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2/21/02...Well I have been on Clear/Full Liquids for 2 weeks now and I am so ready to EAT!! I didn't know that I would miss food this much. I think I am going through a grieving process over food. I'm not hungry but my head still wants to eat all the time. I'm doing very well, I'm scared to death to eat anything pureed till next Friday and I don't want to *fail* at this, my last hope at normalcy. I'm staying positive and leaning to my support group for support and friendships....I think they are going to be my back bone thru the next year. I go tomorrow for my 2 week check up and I can't wait to step on the scale....that will make it all worth while to see those #'s dropping. I'll post more tomorrow.
About Me
Monroe, MI
Location
63.3
BMI
Surgery
02/08/2002
Surgery Date
Mar 05, 2001
Member Since
Before & After
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New Years Eve 2001
360-370lbs
29 months post op and feeling amazing!
166lbs
