Jacklyn55
July 2009, Losing Fast!!
Jul 19, 2009
Hard to believe we are half way through the summer already! I am great and still loving every minute of my new life. So much going on now it is great! I have taken to "The Calorie King" to start keeping track of my intake, and what a difference. Just making myself more aware of what I take in has really helped. The scale is moving to the tune of 140 lbs lost. Amazing!
So far summer has been great. I have made 2 trips to Wonderland and am happy to report that I can do everyride there! It was so amazing to ride the rides again, it had been FAR too long. I have a season pass and plan to go a couple more times for sure.
My friend is getting married in Septemeber and I went to buy a dress yesterday... I got one... in a size 18!!! Who am i??? Crazy, 3 summers ago I was going to another wedding I had to get an ugly peasant top in size 28-30 as that is all that would fit. Yesterday I had my pick of the dress store... was awesome!! Single tear moment as we say. I got a beautifal black number that I cannot waitto wear... check my photos for a sneak peek!
I am still diligent with the workouts. I do 2 miles 5 days a week on the treadmill, some crunches and weights as well so that is getting me into pretty good shape. My legs are toned and my arms are getting better. The belly fat is taking it's sweet time though. I do as many sit ups as I can to get that tighter lol.
Like I said, life is great. I am only really struggling with 1 thing. Dating. I have been out of the loop so long now that I am having a hard time getting into it. I want a boyfriend really bad but am nervous. Nervous because it has been so long and the shape and damage I have done to my body. I look awful and no amount of tanning and weights will fix it all. Ihave tried some dating sites and had offers but always chicken out when it comes to meeting someone. I see guys looking on the street now and some make comments, it is a blast but still I am nervous. I know it will all happen when it is supposed to, but am just so sick of being single!
Will report again soon.... thanks for letting me vent!!!
May 2009.... slowly losing still...
May 24, 2009
Wow it has been far too long since my last post!! Life is still trucking and so is the weight loss. I am now 125 down and edging on being under 250lbs, something I never thought would happen. The loss is really slowing down. I am a saint monday to friday, working out an hour a day etc. it is the weekends that kill me though... just crap food all the time. I really have to try to get off that and being good all the time.
Went out to Alberta last week, my 1st trip home in 5 years. It was so fun and everyone was very impressed with the new me. The best part was flying alone! I have not done that in years... it was great. No pre flight nerves about who would be next to me etc. and squishing them at all. Life without worry is awesome... my nerves love it!
Should shape up to be a good summer! I have a lot of plans, I got a season pass to Wonderland so my first roller caoster ride in 15 years is coming soon... so life is good!!!
February 2009 - Still losing and loving life!
Feb 21, 2009
Life is really good. Like I have said I am loving the shopping and buying clothes. What I love the most is that I am almost a "normal person" now. Sounds crazy but no longer getting looks from people for my size and being afraid of everything is so nice. I can sit in any restaurant booth, concert seat, go through any turnstyle etc. I booked a flight yesterday for myself to fly alone! I have not done that in 10 years.... always so scared about who I would be squishing into next to me. All those fears and anxieties are long gone! I love it...
The only thing I still get nervous about is clubs and bars... I still feel like I am too big and unattractive to go and like I will stick out like a sore thumb. The problem is I am really ready to get out there and start dating and I am noticing no one is walking up to me in the mall etc. I have friends I can go with etc. but the confidence is just not there yet.... soon hopefully.
As I write this I am thinking of what goal I want to reach before I write again.... ok by the next post I want to be under 250lbs and into a size 18. Me a size 18... crazy... lol. I am a solid 20 now... so not far to go! We bought a treadmill and right now I am doing it 5 days a week 2-2.5 miles a shot. Gotta keep that up!
Wish me luck!
Month 13, 102 lbs down and loving it!
Nov 05, 2008
Ok, I know I have been away from here FAR too long! I honestly just ran out of things to write. I had a long plateau with the scale that I just could not shake.
I am thrilled to finally report that I am past the 100lb loss mark!! I am now 102 down and just over a year post op. This was the best thing I ever did and I do not regret a single thing.
No new fills to report. I am in a great sweet spot and do not want to mess with it. I am lean and fitter than ever thanks to my relentless 5 day a week workout routine. I know the scale really slowed but I could and still see the progress in my body and the way clothes fit so that has kept me out of any kind of depression about the scale #s.
Life is great. People can see the change in me and the compliments are amazing. I am shopping far too much for clothes, but is it just too fun. To finally be in a place where I can dress to my taste and not just what fits me is astounding still. I went to see Madonnna last month and bought a tshirt and a track jacket! Buying a concert shirt is something I have not done since I was 14 years old, so that was a big deal in my world!!!
I am getting noticed by the opposite sex now too (FINALLY!!) and I love it! I have been out of that loop so long that adjusting to the looks and getting noticed is hard. I just take it as it comes and try to enjoy it.
I have promised myself to update more often again so I can have these memories from my journey forever!
Month 10 - New Fill
Aug 29, 2008
Decided to go see the nurse for a fill. Got on the scale there and had dropped 16lb since the last visit in April. That is an awfully long time ago and I am not happy with only that much off. The fill seems to have REALLY helped though, I have dropped 8 lbs since going there 2 weeks ago and I am not hungry at all between meals. At my meals I am fine with just that cup of food. I think I lost the sweet spot long ago and did not know it. Feels great now to have it back.
I have only 6lbs to go before hitting that magic 100lb milestone. Now that I am back on track I have no doubt that September's update will have that news!!!
Month Nine and Feeling Fine!!
Jul 27, 2008
Hello again! Another month has past in my band journey and things are still trucking along as they should. Nothing major to report this month.
I am now 92 lbs down and so close to that 100lb loss mark I can taste it!! I posted a new pic of a then and now instead of me in the red shirt. I feel it does not show the loss well anymore being that the outfit is so loose. Starting in August I will stand in the same place in my house but wear proper fitting clothes.
The weight is still coming off. My struggle has been weekends. I am perfect Sunday to Thursday but come friday and Saturdays I go back to the old ways. I get mad at myself for working so hard all week then eating crap on the weekends. That is where the whole "lifestyle" change has not fully come into play. If I am at a restaurant I still eat what I want I do not modify my eating and that angers me, yet I do not change it.
I am really going to try to work on that. In the end I could be losing 3-4 lbs a week instead of 2 if I am good all the time.
More updates next month and hopefully I will have 100+lbs off!!!!
June 2008.... Still going strong....
Jun 14, 2008
Today I went to to Winners (never could even look there before, was a 5X at Penningtons for 10 years and that was my only option) and was able to put on a pair of size 22 Calvin Klein jeans. HOLY CRAP... me in a designer pair of jeans.... crazy, it was all I could do not to burst into tears in that fitting room. As I get slimmer so does my wallet lol, I should not even be looking as the last thing in the world I need is more clothes!!
My best friend has been in Africa teaching for 6 months and I saw her last night for the 1st time and her jaw dropped, she said I look so amazing. It was so much fun! The compliments will never get old and just drives me to work harder. My aunt comes out in August from Alberta and I cannot wait until she sees what I look like, it will be fun!
I still find myself getting stuck a lot with the band. You would think at month 8 I would have finally learned the whole Chew, chew, chew mantra but I cannot do it. I am fine when I am out as I know I have no easy out to the bathroom etc and I really take my time eating but at home I get lax and just chomp away, especially at dinner time and get stuck at every meal. I know it is not good but I truly just forget and swallow a bite too big and am in the bathroom spitting up. I have to really work on getting this under control, as it is my own doing.
I am only 15 pounds away from 100 down, hard to believe! I am planning to get a tattoo to mark the event and have the goal in mind of Labor day. I think I can do it! I want to get the symbol from the cover of Madonna's Ray of Light album. I am an insane M fan and when I listen to the lyrics of the song Ray of Light I think of the Journey I am on. I think it is a fitting choice. It looks kind of like this..... )I( ..... I want it on my back shoulder blade I think. I am sure I will change my mind, but that is the plan for now.
Back for an update in July... wish me luck and if anyone out there is reading this and considering the surgery DO IT... it has changed my life in ways I cannot discribe!!!
May 11th, 2008.... Flying Free....
May 11, 2008
Well I am back from a short break here. Sorry no April Post, there was just not much going on and I wanted to wait until after my trip to Las Vegas to blog.
The trip was fanastic, perfect even. To start it all off I stepped on the scale the morning of my flight and discovered I had finally hit two-ter-ville! This was huge for me as I have not been out of the 300s since I was like 15.
I got on the plane just praying the belt would fit as I have had to ask for an extender every time I fly for the last 10 years. I was thrilled to hear the click of that belt... I will admit it, I cried! Something so simple had cause me so much heartache, it was such an accomplishment that words cannot discribe.
We had so much fun, gambling, drinking, walking, shopping and seeing Cher her opening night, it was truly a perfect trip. I am now 76lb down and so close to that 1st 100 lb off I can hardly wait!!!
March 20, 2008.... Losing Weight and Feeling GREAT!
Mar 20, 2008
I am now 67lbs down. I started at 375lb and am 308 now! I am really hoping April's post has the news that I am in TWOterville. I have been in the 300's since highschool so the thought of being in the 200's is crazy to me. There will definitley be some tears that day.
I am going to Las Vegas in May and seeing Cher opening night so I thought I better get something to wear. I went shopping and I usually hate shopping for anything dressy because not many places go to a 5x (30-32) and if they do it is not very stylish. Well today I tried a funky, slinky top with a chain around the neck and all in a 3X and it fit beautifally, I was so happy!!! I used to dread things like this and weddings etc because clothes are so hard to find, now a whole new world has opened up for me, it is awesome.
Other parts of life are better too, not just clothes but the little things. Restaurant booths used to give me ulcers lol as I never fit comfortably and I would dread sliding in and out of them, theater or concert seats, I always worried about not fitting and forget flying alone, not gonna happen. That is all a thing of the past now thank god!
Anyone reading this who is considering the band, walk don't run to see a surgeon, it will be the best thing you ever did. If I stopped losing here I would be happy, to think how I will feel with 67 more gone, well I cannot even imagine it!
February 9,2008 - 3rd Fill... or so I thought...
Feb 09, 2008
Well went to the clinic yesterday. I had not been since December 3rd so figured it was time for a fill and to get weighed in. My scale and theirs are always miles apart so I was anxious to see what theirs said.
I saw Tammy the nurse there and an amazing person. She is always kind to me and we have nice chats. I walked in the room and she said "hop on the scale and lets see what we have". I asked what I was last time I was there and she said "340.2lbs" We looked down and it said 315lbs. She was like 'WHAT"???? She was amazed, it was awesome, she said "that is since Dec 3rd, are you sure you need a fill?" She showed me her arm and said I gave her goosebumps! It was so cool!
We talked and I was honest and said I was not hungry between meals and the 1 cup of food 3 times a day was enough. She said she would give me a small fill but she really felt I was in the sweet spot and did not want to mess with it. I agreed as I do tend to get stuck if I do not chew and having the band any tighter could make that worse.
So needless to say I am thrilled with this band. I have lost 58lbs in 4 months more than I have EVER lost on any diet and could not be happier. I am sitting here wearing the Tshirt I got for joining the Madonna fanclub.... a normal peice of clothing... WOW! Life is good... finally!
