To whom it may concern:
I want to live. I want to be healthy. I want energy. I want to be in control.
I want to walk without pain and stand without pain.
I want normal legs that are not swollen.
I want normal ankles and feet that are not swollen.
I want to sleep comfortably at night without pain in my legs, feet and hips.
I want to be able to sleep a good night's sleep.
I want to have no pain in my back from the load that is on the front.
I want to have energy to do what normal people do.
I want to be able to walk...and walk with my daughter.
I want to be able to walk up stairs.
I want to be able to get out of a chair...and be able to sit in any chair and not worry that it is going to break.
I want to sit on the floor and play with my grandchildren...and get up again.
I want to tie my shoes and put on panty hose.
I want to know that the seat belt will fit.
I want to be able to entertain people in my home without having my body ache for days afterwards.
I want to be able to clean my house and do my chores like normal people do.
I want to go on a trip with my husband and not worry about being tired and so very scared that I won't be able to make it.
I want to be able to stand up in church without pain.
I want to dance.
I want people to look at me and see the best part of me, not the fat.
I want to see acceptance on peoples faces when I walk into a room...and never again feel the pain of rejections and disgust and inferred weakness of will.
I want to not be the butt of jokes about my size.
I want to be close to people and not be afraid to give them the best of me.
I want to FINALLY be successful in this lifetime battle. I don't want to fail again.
.......I want to be healthy............I want to have energy..........
.............................I want to be in control..............................
......................I WANT TO LIVE......................
Poem by Rosie Dehli