jeannie_marksville
hi, my name is jeannie, and i have been dealing with weight issues all my life(we all have in one time or another) i was very heavy as a young child, and when i hit fifteen, i went on this starvation diet, didnt lose any thing, just gained extra, then when i hit eighteen, i was living off of frutopia sodas, and watermelon, and i got all the way down to some where around 117lbs, well, that only lasted about a year, then i got pregnant, and its been a battle ever since, i hit an alltime low on my depression, and my weight shot up to 230lb then i went into this stage where i couldnt eat any thing, i would just cry all the time. every thing would make me sad, and from not eating any thing i lost around a hundred pounds, and had to have alot of skin around my waist removed, but they told me i would have to lose about twenty more pounds, so i tried, but couldnt, and the surgeon did the procedure any way. after that i got more active, and lost a bit more, i was extremely happy, i stayed very active, i had the energy to play with my daughter, but then, five months later, i got pregnant again, well, that pregnancy went well, i started off weighing 173, but at about three weeks post op, i weighed 154! well, i did very well for a few months, but then, my weight started to rise again, then about a year later, i found out that i was pregnant again. dont get me wrong, my husband and i were very happy, but in the back of my mind, i always figured that meant i would have to try harder after the baby was born.
well, with my third pregnancy, things were going really well, i wasnt stuffing my face, but at seven months pregnant, my water broke, so they had to do an emergency c-section. but those six weeks he stayed in the hospital, were very emotional for me, even after he came home, i always blamed myself, and that was nine months ago, and now i am back up to 220lbs. i just cant seem to shut off my hunger switch. its like when ever i get euphorically happy, all i want to do is eat, or when ever i get depressed, all i want to do is eat. so no matter which way i turn, i get no where. ive even tried adipex, it makes me feel weird, and i have tried isagenix, cleansing system, i cant stick with that. i cant seem to stick with any thing. maybe the lapband will force me to make healthy changes. i have to dosomething. i dont want to die an early age!! im only 27! i want to grow old with my husband, and watch my kids's kids graduate!