jen2fat
March 2 2009
My story, what can I say? I'll start with right now, I am feeling low, really low. I can hardly drag my self off my chair. I am so moody I want to distance my self away from everyone, including my husband and kids. I hate myself, the way I look, the way I am, how I can't snap out of this funk. I don't know what to do. This is all I can write now.
March 3 2009
I am not even sure I am writing this in the right spot, I am so not computer literate! I am feeling somewhat better since yesterday. The future seems so uncertain, unstable it is hard to even try to be positive. Last year was the worst year of my life, my father died ( he was 54 ), and I lost my job. My children and I were also in a car accident. These things made even the little daily stresses unbearable. I put on at least 60 pds last year. The what ifs that float around in my head torment me. I feel sometimes I am living my life dwelling in the past. My future is lost in the disaster that is my life. I must, must stop feeling sorry for myself.