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I thought that I would really keep up with the Blog now that I'm post op and losing weight.  Funny thing is, I'm too busy to spend much time on here!  Bottom line - I'm losing and it feels great!  Very strange process.  I eat my three little meals everyday, I exercise (almost everyday) and the weight just comes off.  I have absolutely no regrets to having this surgery.  There's no way I could do this without my new little pouch!

Well, after months and months and months.....I have a date!  My new adventure begins on May 18th!  I was surprised that I walked out of Dr. Urbandt's office today with an actual surgical date.  I thought that they would wait until they had approval from the insurance before they would schedule me.  I'm so excited.  If nothing else, this long wait really does help to get your head in the right place.  I'm not sure that I would have been as ready 8 months ago as I am now.  I'm still a little nervous about the whole insurance thing.  Unfortunately I still have the coverage with United through my work, and then Mike's Highmark as secondary.  My insurance has a 20% co-insurance that there's no way we can afford.  So I need there to be either a denial from United, or have Highmark pick up the co-insurance.  The insurance "guru" at Dr. Urbandt's office assures me that everything will work out fine, I guess that it's out of my hands.  I need to lose 10-15 pounds over the next 6 weeks, but I don't really think that it will be an issue.  I haven't really been watching what I eat that much, so I should be able to drop some weight just by doing all the "right" things.  I guess the real countdown begins NOW!

I don't suppose that I'll be writing much more than once a month at this point.  It's kind of like I'm in this wait, wait, wait mode.  Have to make it through these silly six months of pointless weigh-ins just so I can get the insurance company's stamp of approval!  My sleep study was negative for apnea (good? bad? I don't know!).... so I have to maintain my BMI at 40.  Seems pretty ridiculous that I'll be ineligible for surgery if I lose any weight now!  Oh well, play the game!  I went to a support meeting last night - not much support, more like an informational meeting.  I've done so much research into RNY that I could have given the lecture myself!  I was amazed at how little some people have looked into what this surgery means - one woman didn't realize that she'd have to eat differently after surgery!  Crazy!!!1

So, I started on this journey about 2 weeks ago.  If you would have told me a year ago that I would even be considering Bypass surgery I would have told you that you were CRAZY!  But everyone keeps saying that Bypass is a tool, and right now I feel like my toolbox is empty! I've struggled with my weight for so long - up, down, working on it, not working on it, care about my weight, don't care....I'm all over the place! I think that this is a way to start a new chapter, a new beginning, a different way to live with food. Not that it's going to be easy.  Apparently I haven't been "fat  enough " for long enough.  Insurance requires a diagnosis of Morbid Obesity for 5 years.  Silly me...I've been working on losing for so long that it's kind of ironic to be told I'm not fat enough! My only hope is that I'll be diagnosed with sleep apnea (how crazy is that?), that will give me a 25 pound "cushion" for my morbid obesity.  We'll see what happens!