My Bariatric Non-blog Blog

Mar 28, 2010

Friday was my last appointment with the nutritionist before going back to see the surgeon for the pre-op appointment. It was pretty anticlimactic. I was figuring that I would get the pre-op appointment that day or at least get an appointment to set up the pre-op appointment but I didn't. The surgeon's office is still waiting on paperwork from my PCP. Once they get that then we can move forward but not until then. Bummer. A minor set back, not horribly bad.

I had a good weekend. My blood sugar was under 200 for almost the entire weekend except for Friday night when it was 294. EEK! I think I did pretty well for being in Tunica and having every meal out over the weekend. Plus because we were walking through the casinos I got lots of walking in which I'm not gungho on. I have new goals which include making sure that I eat in the right order to prepare for eating after surgery (protein, vegetables, starches), making sure that I continue to drink enough water or tea, continuing to whoop my sister's butt on the Wii... or I mean, continue to excercise on the Wii. :o)

I find that the excercise is the hardest to do because life gets in the way. It's far too easy to sit back and say that I will do it in the morning but when morning comes and I've set the alarm clock 45 minutes ahead so that I can get up, that extra 45 minutes sleep looks pretty good. I know so you'll say, do it at night as a way to destress from the day! At night I have to do my homework for school and I don't some days get home until close to 9 PM after being at work since 8 or 8:30 that morning. I know, far too many excuses and if I really tried, I could get my schedule together and excercise.

Perhaps spending a little less time on Facebook and a little more time on the Wii... yup, sounds good... so maybe I'll start - tomorrow.... PROCRASTINATE NOW!
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Randon Thoughts of an Ordinary Woman 3/23/10

Mar 23, 2010

So I was talking to a good friend of mine, Leighanna, who has also gone through gastric bypass and came to the realization that April is only a week away. GASP! No, it's okay - I'm good with this now. I was good with it before but I'm more comfortable with the decision now. I go to my last nutritionist appointment on Friday morning and hopefully I will have a pre-op appointment set up by that afternoon so I can keep y'all updated on that too. This entire experience has made me realize how quickly time flies. It's so easy for us to sit back and say, I'll do that tomorrow or next week, or maybe even next month or year and how quickly God makes us realize that it's time for us to do it.... NOW!

In this time of freakish pace that I have been trying to achieve I have begun to lose the thing that is the most precious to me, time to sit and listen to what God has to say to me. No, I'm not talking about the random words of wisdom from the Facebook application either. I mean, true words from God. So, it's time for me to make the time to do, seize the moment, talk, and most of all listen.
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Random Thoughts of an Ordinary Woman 3/21/10

Mar 21, 2010

Part of my preparation for gastric bypass is that I am to blog about my feelings about life, the universe, and surgery. I have to say that my feelings about surgery change every day and some days I’m altogether excited about it; some days I see other people that look as though they may have had gastric bypass and are disproportionate (very large hips, boobs, calves, ankles, arms, etc but little everywhere else) and it makes me a little leery that I will look a tad freakish afterward. I guess my biggest fear is that I will end up some weird semblance of myself with my massive knockers and butt but with chicken legs and twigs for arms and a big head. I know somewhere deep inside that those are irrational fears and that it’s the health aspect that should be the most important but then there are fears there too. What if the miraculous surgery that is supposed to eliminate my diabetes doesn’t get rid of it? Is it really worth it? Today, I think so. So, all I need to do now is remember to log my dancing on the Wii, my food, my blood sugar levels, my water intake, etc, etc, etc and trust that everything’s going to be alright. I recently started taking an antidepressant. I used to think that taking an antidepressant for me meant that I was crazy… but I’ve got to tell you, it’s some good stuff. I was feeling a tad hopeless with so much to do and so little time to do it in and a surprising lack of hats (divorce, child custody, work, life, surgery, health, school, homework, family, battling public opinion of non-custodial mothers) but now I realize that I still have the same lack of hats but it’s okay! And I can sleep again without the effects of Ambien (I don’t get up and cook dinner for the coming weeks, talk to the walls, make phone calls, etc in my sleep). There are few things that gripe my ass more than people who claim to know something just to impress someone else. I mean honestly, if you don’t know what you’re doing then you need to be up front with whoever is asking you about it. If you lie and say that you know how to do something and then are left alone with people depending on you, you are not only setting yourself up to fail, you are most assuredly going to cause the others to fail as well. Fess up! Tell the truth! Everyone will be better for it in the long run even if it means that you have to humble yourself and learn from someone else – you do not know it all.
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The worm realized it was a caterpillar and thus a butterfly

Mar 17, 2010

So, my parents and I were talking the other day and realized that it has been a year and a half since I moved back home after leaving my husband. It's been a hectic crazy year in which I have grown and thus gone through growing pains. I came to the realization that I was being abused and moved through that by confronting my abuser and ceasing that relationship through divorce. I went back to school to finish my degree so that I can move up in the world for myself and my children and cemented the visitation for my children over the summer. I was an inchworm, moving slowly but surely through life to a goal that I had not yet realized.

My parents have both had bariatric surgery (laparoscopic Roux en-Y) and after my dad had his toward the end of last year, my PCP made the recommendation that I follow the same path. I began the path to bariatric surgery at the end of December/the beginning of January and realized for the first time that I could weigh less than 180-230 pounds. I am realizing that I am not at all an inchworm, I am instead a caterpillar waiting to change into a butterfly.

This caterpillar has begun to spin its crysallis and hopefully in a little over a month I will begin to emerge from that crysallis a new healthier, thinner person... a butterfly.

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Starting the path to a brand new me tomorrow!

Dec 20, 2009

At least that's what I'm telling myself. My diabetes is way out of control even with fast acting and long acting insulin and Janumet is afterall 1000mg of Metformin in pretty packaging which still causes the same problem... diarrhea from hades. My parents have both gone through it and it's amazing their transformation - even my Dad's who had his surgery in October and has lost over 70 pounds already! So, tomorrow I go to the first appointment of many at the Bariatric Wellness Institute here in Huntsville and hope for... a yes? Yes, definitely a yes to move me through to the next round. I am, as I calculated it today, over 120 pounds overweight with a BMI of close to 50. It's no wonder I feel so bad about myself. I know that if I want to be around for my kids and be able to see them graduate from high school in 10 years or so then I need to do something and dieting is obviously not the answer. So, off I go into the great unknown with three great supporters and seasoned pro's who have all been there and done it themselves before. And I know it's all for the best.
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About Me
Meridianville, AL
Location
41.0
BMI
RNY
Surgery
06/21/2010
Surgery Date
Dec 15, 2009
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