16 days post op

Jul 17, 2009

So I am 39lbs lighter since I started this journey and 19lbs lighter since surgery.  I can not see it in the mirror at all which is the most disappointing part.   I can feel it, my clothes are bigger but I really want to see it.  Even my wedding rings and grandmas ring I wear are almost too big!!  I want other people to see it.  Other then my close friends and family no one even knows I have had the surgery or says anything to me.  I see people I havent seen in months and nothing....that is depressing.  

I know it my head it will come.  I have a lot of comments, probably some negative coming my way but I am and have always been very impatient.  I went to the gym yesterday and did well.  I got on the treadmill for 30 mins and walked uphill.  I only walked about 3mph but it was good for the first time back.  I was afraid to get dizzy and be there with my kids alone.  I am just going to work my way back up to where I was prior to surgery. 

I am on solid foods now.  I have had eggs, ground turkey ( in meatloaf and burgers), cooked veggies, watermelon, and even a few bites of Cold Stone's fat free no sugar added ice cream....sooo good.  I am getting all my vitamins in but having a hard time swallowing so I ordered chewable. 

So my favorite lunch I will share.   I make a mix of equal parts fat free cream cheese, goat cheese and light Mayo ( I make a lot because my husband and kids love the mix too) I spread like a 1/4 tsp of the mix or less on a slice of deli turkey (my store sells sun dried tomato turkey) and then a 1/4 tsp of jellied cranberry and roll it up.  I eat one or two rolls for lunch....soooooo good if you like the turkey cranberry thing.  I used to love the sandwiches some shops made!!!   Once I can eat salad I will put a few spinach leaves or romaine lettuce in the rolls also.   My husband eats the mix in a tortilla with the turkey, sprouts, lettuce and sometimes sunflower seeds.  I think it is his new favorite also. 

What else can I say, I think I am doing well.  I have already experienced constipation, diarrhea, overeating (chicken salad) and feeling like something is stuck and I am definitely learning from my mistakes!!!   Boredome is hard on me and makes me want to snack still.  I had to tell my husband to stop asking me what he should eat.  He is trying to basically eat what I am and eat healthier in general but when he snacks all day and tells me he picked healthy choices it is like he is rubbing it in.  I know he isnt but after being asked if it would be better to have a popsicle or carrots, or a yogurt or nuts, or crackers or cheese I get tired of it.  He has since stoppped asking me and has actually become very aware of his own snacking.  I am glad he is sooo supportive of me.

Speaking of my husband he is a new man, doing more around the house, he is relaxed more and funny.  We are like teenagers dating.  Plus he can't keep his hands off me which I am definitely not complaining about!!!  Life is good and I just need to relax and be more patient I know. 

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