Struggling

Feb 02, 2011

 Soooo... I weighed myself this morning (no big surprise since I do it all the time lol) and was very happy to see 179.... great strides since my highest recorded weight of 363!!!!! So happy about that!  And I am so grateful, and healthy now...but, with that being said... I am really struggling.  No one understands, unless the have been through this themselves... but I am really struggling with the excess skin issue.  It is extremely bad for me.  The panni, the thighs, and especially the upper arms.. they are terrible. It is all bad, but those are the worst areas... it makes me so self-conscious.  Again, I am much better off than I was before the surgery, I know that... but I really struggle...... I am relatively young, single, and am afraid to meet people due to this.......I mean my family and friends who have not have WLS say "If someone really cares about you, the skin won't be an issue..."  But in reality, it is...I look ok with clothes on, but I almost feel like a fraud, because without clothes.... it's nothing nice......I mean I was so overweight for so long...and lost it so quickly... I expected the excess skin, I knew I would get it... just didn't realize it would be THI and I am so upset right now I just had to vent... I have no money for plastics... and my insurance is terrible, but I have an appointment Monday to see if at least the panniculectomy would be covered... my credit is terrible from bad financial mistakes I made in college... so a loan is not an option... and I am just having a tough time with this.. Just had to vent I guess........

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