Impatiently waiting

May 27, 2009

My name is Jill and I'm still waiting on my surgery date.  I am sooooo excited!  You all look AMAZING!!!  I have been big my whole entire life and knowing I'm going to do this is a dream come true.   I'm the girl that has heard all her life "oh but you have such a 'pretty face' "  (dontcha just hate that!!)   I quit smoking 3 months ago and have really packed on the pounds (20 to be exact!)  It was my first big step to getting healthy.  I wake up every morning and I can hardly walk to the bathroom from the pain!  Just my drive home from work kills me when I climb out of the car and take those first painful steps.  I am 35 years old and I feel 75.  I am feeling so down on myself ecspecially since the recent weight gain that I have been pretty much "hiding out" in my house.  I am afraid for people to see me.  I mean, I get up every day and go to work because I have to but I would really liketo climb in bed and let the world pass me by.  BUT of course that is not an option.  I have a family, friends and a great job.  But, most important 2 wonderful girls I need to be a role model to, which, is very  very hard when you feel lazy and lifeless.  I need to save myself and be the woman I know I was meant to be.   I read all your profiles and peep everyones pics on here and it is such an inspiration- I know it's meant for me, too.  Thank you all and keep up the good work!!!  

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