Jessica M.
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Jan 19, 2012
I recieved a letter from someone who I thought was my best friend, shes the god mother to my children. She was my family 100%......She said some really mean things to me. She in a nut shell said I have done nothing with my life and I make excuses for everything.. Im blown away that, that is how she views me. She thinks that my 4 children are excuses. I told her she will understand one day since she has no responsabilities at all. No children, no bills, still lives with her and dad who still take care of her in every way. She has no idea how to run a washer and dryer or the dish washer ( not even exaggerating, she really doesnt). She was really mean and it hurts so bad to think she thinks of me like that and she says this is the new her. So I choose to morn the person who used to be and say good bye to the new her... I can never look at her the same or feel free to talk to her again. I could never be the same with her.....
My heart hurts so bad...........
All I want is some chocolate ice cream with brownies in it.....
THIS KILLS ME BECAUSE TODAY I FINALLY GOT MY ENERGY BACK AND MY MOTIVATION TO BEAT THIS STUMP AND THIS HAPPENS AND I WANNA CRAWL BACK IN MY WHOLE. I DONT WANNA GET FAT AGAIN SO I WONT BUT IT HURTS BAD.....
