Kaycie
Finally!!
Oct 20, 2007
So I'm finally starting my blog 3 months after my surgery. I feel like I've come a long way, but yet I still feel like I have such a long way to go. I'm down 53 pounds since day of surgery and 77 pounds total. I've gone from a size 24 (had one pair of 26s) to a size 18 regular- not 18 plus. Very important to clarify that! LOL
Here are my milestones achieved so far:
1. I now weigh less than my husband (quite embarrasing that it took me losing 77 pounds to achieve this, especially since he could stand to lose a few himself).
2. I now shop in regular size clothing stores (well, Gap and Old Navy anyway). I've still been too nervous to try Ann Taylor or New York & Co. (stores that I know carry 18s).
3. I am off my blood pressure medication, in fact I'm all all medications except for Prevacid due to the surgery.
As far as goal, my doctor hasn't given me a number. He said something very early on that he thought I would look great at 180-190 because of my height (5 foot 9 1/2 ish) but that seems too high to me. And it seemed like a comment in passing- not that he was putting that as my goal. Its seemed like its too far in the future to discuss so I haven't really worried about it. I think its something that I'll discuss with him next time though. I've always wanted to wear a size 8 and one of my friends at work is my height and wears an 8 at 160. So thats what I'm shooting for right now, subject to revision as I get near to that number. I think 160 is on the high side of a healthy bmi for my height, so we'll see.
It's interesting as I get further out from surgery how my thoughts and worries change. First I was worried that I wouldn't get approved for surgery, then I worried that insurance would deny me, then it was obsession waiting for the date to get here mixed with terror of something going wrong, then its fear of not losing (where I'm still at), with a pinch of fear of losing and THEN regaining.
Speaking of regain. What is with people who always have to tell me how they know someone who had RNY and lost 150 pounds (or whatever) and GAINED IT ALL BACK. Are they trying to scare me? Are they trying to make themselves feel better that I'm losing weight and they're still as fat as ever? WHAT?
Oh, and yesterday I got the comment "you're losing too fast, what did your doctor say?" Well my doctor said I'm doing great! So bite me.
Here are my milestones achieved so far:
1. I now weigh less than my husband (quite embarrasing that it took me losing 77 pounds to achieve this, especially since he could stand to lose a few himself).
2. I now shop in regular size clothing stores (well, Gap and Old Navy anyway). I've still been too nervous to try Ann Taylor or New York & Co. (stores that I know carry 18s).
3. I am off my blood pressure medication, in fact I'm all all medications except for Prevacid due to the surgery.
As far as goal, my doctor hasn't given me a number. He said something very early on that he thought I would look great at 180-190 because of my height (5 foot 9 1/2 ish) but that seems too high to me. And it seemed like a comment in passing- not that he was putting that as my goal. Its seemed like its too far in the future to discuss so I haven't really worried about it. I think its something that I'll discuss with him next time though. I've always wanted to wear a size 8 and one of my friends at work is my height and wears an 8 at 160. So thats what I'm shooting for right now, subject to revision as I get near to that number. I think 160 is on the high side of a healthy bmi for my height, so we'll see.
It's interesting as I get further out from surgery how my thoughts and worries change. First I was worried that I wouldn't get approved for surgery, then I worried that insurance would deny me, then it was obsession waiting for the date to get here mixed with terror of something going wrong, then its fear of not losing (where I'm still at), with a pinch of fear of losing and THEN regaining.
Speaking of regain. What is with people who always have to tell me how they know someone who had RNY and lost 150 pounds (or whatever) and GAINED IT ALL BACK. Are they trying to scare me? Are they trying to make themselves feel better that I'm losing weight and they're still as fat as ever? WHAT?
Oh, and yesterday I got the comment "you're losing too fast, what did your doctor say?" Well my doctor said I'm doing great! So bite me.
