It's happened.

Nov 19, 2010

I've become one of "those"....those who don't update thier profiles nearly often enough.  I didn't think it would happen quite so quickly! I hate that, because this site and all of you who have given me so much encouragement!  I will try to do better. 

Wow, it seems like so much has happened in the last couple of months, but for the life of me, I can't pinpoint down exactly what all has happened?!!  Did the last two months really even happen?  It seems to be going by SO fast!  I am now down 125 (!) lbs.  Holy cow, I lost a skinny person!  I am two days over being five months out, and physically, I feel better than I have in YEARS!  I feel like the happiest still fat girl in the world!

I am finally starting to fit into some of my older clothes, which are really nice.  Let me tell you, though, what can bring a losing weight but still very plump girl to her knees...losing 125 lbs and ONLY JUST NOW getting into a size 28.  Yup, that's a big suckaroo...granted, it's not a 36 or 5x or whatever I was before, but still.  Really?!?!  A 28??  Come on, body, you can do better than this!  At least I have some cuter clothes now, that I have unearthed from all the hoarding I have done over the years (see, now I can REALLY tell my husband that I am going to lose weight to get back in those clothes, and MEAN it!! ). 

Here's another downer...I still have AT LEAST another 175 to go.  At the very least.  Wowza.   In reality, I am still 2 overweight women...but at least I am not two overweight women and a skinny woman any longer!  Right!?  I hope to be at 150 lost by my 6 month surgiversary.   I'm gonna have to start really working on getting in exercise.  Which brings me to excercise?

Why do I freaking hate to excercise?  Like, I think about it, and I'm all "Oh, yeah, if I did this and this, and then this, then I am going to tone up and look like this..." and you know what really happens?  I come home and sit on the couch.   I want to want to excercise (yes, I meant for it to read like that!), but for some reason, I think I have some weirdo mental block against it.  MUST.GET.PAST.THIS.   The hubbers and I are going to go to Puerto Rico in March, so I need to start working on some of this flab-o-rama.   Pronto.

I am no longer as uncomfortable everywhere I go anymore.  Tonight, we went out to dinner, and I sat in a booth.   I wanted to freaking die when I saw that there were only booths left in the restaurant, because I just KNEW that I wouldn't fit.  I did.  Now, obviously, at 377 lbs, I am still large and in charge.  But tonight, I fit, and I fit easily.  That's the first of many "fits".  

So, let's sum this puppy up.   Good News:  Down 125 lbs, finally in old clothes, feel great.   Bad News:  Honestly, really not any. I made a great decision.  I got my life back. 

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