Kelsie_Laine

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Well, here I am at 1 month out. For the most part, I feel great! I have my days that I feel like junk, but those are becoming fewer and farther between. So far I have lost 42.5 lbs! I can't believe I have dropped that much in only 1 month. I should really start trying on jeans that are the next size down, but honestly, I'm a bit afraid. What if they don't fit yet? But, the jeans I am wearing now require a belt and they still nearly fall off.

I have finally been cleared to go back to the gym. I am excited about that. Oh, and the Nut said that I am getting in enough protein from food, so I don't have to drink the shakes anymore. HOORAY! I still am not able to eat much at all. Maybe 3-4oz at a time, so I try and make it all dense protein. I haven't really found anything that my stomach can't handle. I have even tried salad. My new favorite snack is grapes though. I can't seem to get enough of them.

I am still of course missing my husband like crazy! We talk on a pretty regular basis, which helps, but I can't wait to have him home! I am so ready for September!

So, that's my 1 month in a nutshell. It is crazy how fast time has flown by already. I can't wait to see what the future holds for me and my new tummy!

 

And I am hating life! I am starting to really regret this surgery. I feel miserable. And all the staff at the bariatric clinic are worthless! They never call me back in any sort of a timely manner. My acid reflux is killing me, but I am having a hard time taking the powdered nexium. I think it's a texture thing. I have even tried taking Zofran prior to the nexium, but nothing seems to help with the gagging, and so I can't get the nexium down. I am barely able to get in 1 bottle of water a day due to nausea, and I am starting to feel the effects of that too. I know everyone says it will get better, and I hope it does. Right now I am really wishing I had never done this to myself in the first place.

I feel so confused! I am terrified that I won't lose the weight with the sleeve. I keep going back and forth in my mind between the sleeve and the RNY. How am I supposed to know which one will work better for me? It is all I can do not to cry when I think about it all.

I know that I need the surgery and that it will be best for me and my health. That isn't what I'm conflicted about. I just feel so insecure about my decision to go with the sleeve over the RNY. But then again, I feel like this one day, and the next day I'm team sleeve again! :)

Has anyone else felt this way? How did you choose?

I just got back from my initial briefing. THe surgeon thinks that the sleeve will work great for me, so that is the route I'll be going. My next appointment is the 17th. It's a 4 hour briefing all about the sleeve. They are also setting up my sleep study, ekg and PAP. He asked that I get a letter from my PCM stating that she has "counseled" me on weight-loss so that I can skip the 6 months with the nutritionist. I hope she will give it to me. Keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed that everything goes smoothly!