kenda11
I haven't always been overweight but I have never been skinny. I would say that even as a child I was considered, well bigger than the normal size but not to a point where people would call me fat. In high school I was dieting and trying to loose weight all the time. At one point I did loose about 30 or so pounds when I was a Junior/Senior and was proud to be smaller when I was a Senior in High School. Then I got married, and had 2 children and the weight kept coming on. I would always be trying the latest weight lost program with my over weight mother. We would loose 50 pounds and then gain them right back plus more. We would do weight watchers, and then go to doctors for medications and then to only drinking this liquid and well.. you name it we did it. Everyone in my family would tell her and I that we were fat. The only person who never told us we were fat were each other. My mother has had gastric bypass surgery, not only once but twice. She has lost weight but she is still 250 pounds. Better than before but I doubt that she will ever get down under 200. Well I have now turned 40 years old and am overweight. I want to be small and thin for the next 40 years of my life. I am ready to start my new life.
My name is Kendall and I just turned 40 and decided that I need to do something. I am the mother of 2 kids, 12 & 16, and have recently been married to a great guy for the past 2 years. When I met my husband, I was thinner than I am now and since we have been together I have gained 60 pounds in 4 years. I want to be thin, active and confident. Right now I work out of my house and really don't want to do or see anyone anymore. I don't care about the way that I look cause I always am tired and fat. This is something that I am going to do for myself, not anyone else. I do everything for everyone else and nothing for me. This time, this is for me and no one else. I don't want to live like this for the next 40 years. I am taking control of my life and getting gastric bypass surgery.
UPDATE TWO YEARS LATER:
I have now lost 129 pounds and am in a size 2. I weigh 126 and am holding strong. I can't believe it has been this long. I am so happy that I did the surgery. I worry every day that the dream will fade and I will wake up fat again. Everytime someone says something like - your so thin... I just laugh to myself. Some people don't remember me big or never knew me big. They can't even imagine me big. My drivers liscense needs to be updated with a thin picture of me. People ask me for it and tell me that is not me. And I am like - yes that is me. They can't believe it. When they say that with this surgery you will be reborn again. It is true. I am a new person, and yet the same. It is great!
