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So I'm comfortable.
No inclination to cheat, no hunger pains and an increase in energy.
I have mild pain but have to pace myself. If I do too much, I get tired.
Not ready for a marathon yet.
So far my activity level consists of walking, leg exercises, stepping on the spot, use of weight balls for arm exercises, breathing and coughing exercise.I would like to do more but my doctor has advised that my body is still healing and its best to take the time needed to heal.
I have noticed I am not reaching for my inhaler due to breatlessness and my bra and clothes fit loosly and more comfortably. I looking forward to this journey as it continues to show me a whole new world of possibilities.

Hi All,
Ive been home for 5 full days.
So whats my insight?

1. Follow the instructions they give you
2. Listen to your doctor
3. Don't be afraid to ask for pain medication
4. Get moving as soon  as possible
5. Don't bother bringing books, magazines because you won't have time for them..its best to concentrate on your mini-goals
6. Have your plans for going home organized in advance
7. have emergency numbers on hand in case you don't feel well at home
8. Take your time and don't push it

So since I'm home I am a bit frustrated because I have to force myself to rest in order to heal. I have taken showers only, no baths. I have had to carefully plan what to eat and how to eat it. All medication has to be chewable, drinkable, suckable or crushed into something to take the nasty taste away. I recommend crystal lite orange in water to take pain medication and forget about crushing multi vitamins yeck!

Favorite things are the protein drinks. I really do like them. I enjoy creme of wheat and jello. Ice chips all day long are great but without an ice crusher a blender doesnt really do the job. I have settled for ice in a plastic bag wrapped in a tea towel and I smash it all up with a hammer.

When your home you want to accomplish all sorts of things and meet everyones demands but you really have to take a deep breathe and take your time.

Happy to be home and down 20 lbs since this all started. It wasn't the stunning results I was expecting but then I really didnt know what to expect for the beginning. So the excitement begins as I see my face thin out...

God Bless

Its been a very crazy time preparing for surgery.
Adjusting to the liquid diet was difficult for about 3 days but once my body got used to it I seemed to do better.
A few issues were afternoon tiredness where I would have to lay down and rest for about an hour and on and off again headaches.
The 2 cups of vegetables helped and timing was very important to control hunger and stay strong.
I've also found I have more energy to move around and get things done.
There is each day a few time periods where I feel a bit racey.
With only 4 full days left I am nervous but also excited.

I always kept my religious feelings to myself but at times in our lives we need it.
Part of changing your attitude about food and eating habits can be easier if you ask for help when you are going through such a dramatic time in your life.
There is no doubt this type of surgery is somewhat miraculous but its only the beginning down a different way of life.
I have been mentally trying to prepare myself for the changes that are going to occur and sometimes it seems unreal.
I find the stories on this web site really help to think about what is going to happen more objectively.
However, there is no question that through the storm of all my thoughts, prayer is keeping my mind clear, organized, goal oriented and I have a general calmness.
You don't have to go to church if your not compelled but if it is something that will help you attain your goals consider it another support system with all the others available to you.

Now I am in the same month as my surgery date and counting the days until I have to start the optifast.
October 13th....
Its bad to say but I am thankful I begin after Thanksgiving weekend.
I am starting to line up all the various support I will need to get through this.
Heres what been going on
1) Care for when I get home - whos taking care of me and where my children will be plus take them to school and activities
2) I have a personal online journal - not this blog that I can share with my friends so they can see day to day results but also a place I can express myself
3) I have a list of things I will need after surgery
Vitamins
Calcium
Protein Powder
Slippers - yes I thre all the old ones out
I refuse to buy a stitch of clothes so that will just have to wait - I'm not buying one more xxl nightgown
4) I ordered a few books online to read about what to eat, changing habits, emotional changes after surgery etc.
5) Creating a booklet with all information, information and inspiration that revolves around my surgery
6) Sent time researching others stories, tips and workshops to help
7) Talked to family members with good and bad responses to advise them what is going to happen
8) talked to employer and co-workers about what to expect
9) I have a concrete set of appointments lined up with a cousellor to help me every step of the way
10) I joined a church group that has a workshop about " changing attitudes" - it came up and it was the perfect opportunity especially before surgery.
11) My children are small but I am still taking baby steps to prepare them for whats going on with Mommy.
12) Surrounded myself with positive, loving people that are giving and supportive and in turn I have rid all the negative, self-centered, users who were draining the life out of me.

With all this support I can only do well!

Much Love,
God Bless

I''m sick of being fat
People ignore me or interrupt when I speak because of how I look
My children need an active Mommy
I want to run
I want to complete a marathon
I don't want to shop in the fat girl store anymore
I want to wear a bra like its soppossed to be worn
I want to smile when I'm naked
I don't want to have high blood pressure, a heart attack, diabetes, hip replacement, knee replacement, breathing problems
I want to be strong
I want to get through a day where my feet arn't sore
I never want another lecture about what I'm eating
I want to go ice skating with my kids
I wanna dance and smile at the same time
I wanna feel sexy
Thats all I can think of for the moment....but theres alot more....

I'm taking some time out each day to review my preparations for the surgery and having my world around me organized while I am recovering. I will be in the hospital when my children are going to want to celebrate Halloween as this is one of their favorite holidays. I'm going to pull out the costumes and decorations early so we can enjoy this time together.
I am going to create a shopping list of things I will need in the home and I'm going to post a list of reasons why I'm doing this surgery.
I don't love food. Eating has become a laborous affair that I have to do but I don't want to do while I await my date .Over the past week I've had a few discussions at work: finding out many families are not thinking twice about going out to eat or getting take out 4-5 times a week! Do they realize the costs? Not just financially but what about the calories and cholesterol. Its very important to remember your children follow in your footsteps so its better to set a good example by preparing wholesome, healthy nutritious meals at home.  I want to eat to live not live to eat.

I wanted to come here and sign up and organize my information because I think this web site is a great source for info but also for connections and encouragment. I saw a post tonight where a lady couldn't believe how big she was in a picture now that she has lost some weight. I can believe it. I see it in the mirror every day and I can't beleive that i'm looking at myself. I don't even recognize the image in the mirror. I want to change everything. I have a drive deep inside that wants to do this without question. I don't want to be a failure. I am going to take all the support I can get and run with it.