Kim B.

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I found my way back here today looking for information on anemia due to the duodenal switch surgery.  My levels have been low for many years now and most recently they have hit their lowest.  I am so tired all the time!  In addition last year I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.  Today I am sitting at 161.  Life is still good as long as I can stay awake through it!  I need answers on how to get my levels normal again.

 This morning the scale read 167!  10 years out and I haven't messed it up!  I thought for sure I would be the one to mess it up!  I have had my ups and downs with the scale since being at goal.  Last year i was back up to 187 but was able to drop 20 pounds and get back on track.  I didn't even need a fill to get me back on track, it just took discipline.  I am still a huge food snob, I won't eat fast food, it is not good enough to waste my calories on!  

I am the Assistant General Manager at a high end Sports/Health Club, I have worked there for almost 6 years now.  10 years ago there would have been no way would I have been considered for or even applied for this position.  I LOVE my job and the healthy environment!  

I am not about only eating the right things, I enjoy anything that I want.  I just realize that I can not eat all of it and if I do something else has to give.  Now for me it is about daily calorie intake, monitoring and having discipline.  Yes, sometimes my head wins over the discipline and I eat the whole thing but then I realize something else has to give such as cutting out the next meal.  That is why no wasted calories go in my mouth with sub standard (fast food) food!  I only want the good stuff!  

I guess I didn't do such a good job at using this as a blogging site!  lol  This year really got away from me, and I am so glad it is over.  Today I am sitting happy most days at 155.  Some days I think "damn you look great" and others I am like "I cant believe I wore this last week, it looks so bad on me".  I can't seem to shake the mental. 

Scale said 170 this morning!  I have been sick so that has helped it a long a bit!

Wow, what a year it has been.....  This morning the scale said 187.  I have been fighting with it for the past 3 months watching it go up and down from 183 to 190.  Could be my lack of discipline in taking my thyroid meds, could be that I am just plain not sticking to a good eating plan!  I began doing a boot camp work out 2 times a week and try to get in another day of working out on my own.  My band was placed in January 2006, I am almost a year out.  It has been a rough year for me and through it all I managed to lose 63 more pounds thanks to my lap band.  Since loosing 214 pounds I am finding that I need to find other things to do to occupy my time other than food.  Lately I have been looking for a good blogging place, never gave thought to this profile I had set up and the new features it offers!  I think I discovered my blogging place!  I don't particularly find myself to be an excellent writer, but I do feel the need to get rid of some of this junk that floats around in my head.  Since losing all the weight I have gained more self assurance.  Not only about who I am but about where I stand on issues.  Many people in my life did not like my newly found independance and I had confrontation with many last year.  I have to sit back and wonder if it was me or them. I feel betrayed by a few.....the knife is still in the back and I pull it out little by little daily.  I sit saddend now over the loss of friendships.  A new year is begining along with a new job and new friends.  I have a few friends that stuck with my through it all and they are the ones I know are genuine, I am grateful.  Now on to a great oh'7!