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First I want to say thank you to everyone who has contacted with support. Thank you
Yesterday, I went ahead and set my nutritionist, psych eval and pulmonologist appointments. Tonight I go to a seminar. Things are moving but slowly, Well I should have everything done by the end of the month to wait on approval, Thank you again. Oh I did ask my mom to come with me tongiht and she said no cause she doesn't want me to have it. At least I tried. She is however watching my lil one for me to go. I went to the seminar and there were a few couples there. Everyone was looking someone to talk to so I referred them to this website. It has been a huge help for  me thank you all. Kelly

Well today I went and saw my PCP. He laughed when I told him I wanted surgery and said I wouldn't qualify. I immediately asked why, he said cause I wasn't big enough. I laughed and pointed at my weight on the chart and he turned red and said I didn't look it. Today I am 272 my biggest ever. So we talked for a while and discussed some of the pros and cons. He wished me luck and I left and immediately called my surgeon. I go to a seminar Wednesday night and my cusultation Friday afternoon. I will post more on those days.

Today I have decided it is time.  I am 272 now the biggest I have ever been and can't believe it, you see 3 years ago I lost 60 pounds by working my butt off only to gain it all back and then some but can't seem to do it now. I am in otherwise good health, my PCP says my bloodwork is disgustingly normal. So I am concerned that I will not be approved and if I am then what. I have so many concerns. I have 4 children ages 6-18. My mom said she would disown me if I had it done b/c she has heard so many bad things. She keeps reminding of someone who died. So that is why I have turned away from bypass and started looking into lapband. It was strange I had never heard of it and right after I told my mom what I was thinking of doing and she flipped out I turned the TV on and here was this commercial the only time I have ever seen it and haven't seen it since. A sign not sure but. 
So I got online and found this site. I have called a surgeon and made an appointment for a consultation only to cancel it. I want to loose weight more than anything, I am tired of standing up and having to wait to move b/c of the pain in my joints. My hips constantly hurt and I just want it to go away.
But my concern is, is it worth it?  My mom has me scared to death, I think maybe I should take her with me to see the surgeon.
My husband is totally supportive but says as long as its not for him but for myself. In which it is. I want to be able to wear clothes and look nice and not frumpy, I have a job that has alot to do with appearance and anyway I am rambling on. I don't have any other health problems at the moment but I don't want to wait for them either. I want to see all my children grow up and have babies of their own. 
So tomorrow I am making my appointment and keeping it this time. I will let you know how things are going.