Post-0p

Dec 09, 2010

I am 9 days out and still feel horrible.  It hurts to breathe.  It takes 5 minutes to catch my breath after a walk to the bathroom, which isn't far.  My worst day thus far was 6 days out.  I had my 1-week post-op appointment and was 3 hours late because of all the excruciating pain I was in that day.  Of course, the Dr. said that it was not uncommon for patients to have their worst days at the end of the 1st and/or 2nd weeks.  He said that everything looks great and I've lost 21 lbs.  I can't even get excited about that.  I am in such a funk and I can't pull myself up.  I was pretty much immobile before surgery, and of course it's worse now.  Is this going to get any better?  Did I really do the right thing?  Should I have just died the way I was?  All of these questions are sure to be answered, but what will the answers be?

I am making myself get on OH to try to express some of my thoughts.  I just want to feel better, and pull myself up out of this depression.  I have lots more to say, but my fingers aren't cooperating.  God, please help me through this!  

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