kurbism1979
It's weird - my initial response is to always say that I've struggled with weight all my life. But honestly, that's not true. I've FELT I've always sturggled, but when I look back in pictures, I was just a normal kid. That said, I remember being made to feel fat as a kid, and then I did become a fat kid.
Chubby kids turn into unhealthy adults, and at 22 I was about 330, diabetic, high bp, in a bad marriage, and chickened out the night before RNY.
I started therapy, got divorced and lost 100 pounds over the next few years and have kept it off - though I am still diabetic.
A few months ago, I was laid off and it triggered something in me. I find myself eating too much, finding breif pleasure in the pain of overeating. I recognized it after a while, but with hating my new job, and a bunch of excuses, I can't seem to wrangle myself in.
Last year, I had a spine fusion surgery, and in my most recent followup, the dr suggested WLS. My insurance already pre-authorized - literally zero hoops to jump through, and i meet the surgeon next week.
I'm ready. To get my mind and body back. It will be hard. It will be painful. I am worth it!
