almost 8 months out...

Mar 08, 2011

 I dont know what my problem is but I cant stop eating. Not sure if its the birthcontrol pills the cold Ive had or the depression of the stall in weight loss or if all those are simply excuses for wanting to eat all the time. I feel like I never even had surgery I can eat way more than I should be able to and I dont haver any nausea vomitting or dumping no matter what I eat. I used to have issues with dairy but now I can eat or drink anything and be fine. I know it all on me to make the right choices and eat like I was taught and that will help but I am finding it harder and harder and I feel like I am falling off the wagon. I wish I had Concequenses for not eating like I should. I actually had ice cream and cake yesterday (not more than 3 bites) but still I shouldnt be eating that at all and I didnt have one problem. I feel Like a failure like I am my own enimy and I went through all of this for nothing. I need to start going to a support group i have noone who understands. I dont regret having the surgery because I have made it so far but I wish I could get past this battle with food so I can make my goal.

Well Im just so disapointed in myself and I cant help but think Im never going to be under 200 lbs. 

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