5 Days!

Nov 03, 2010

God made the world in less then 5 days, so Ive heard, but I don't know what Ill do over the next few days. Nothing that great I'm sure. Had my first nightmare, I woke up thinking I had my surgery already and something was wrong with me. That sucked! 5 DAYS! CRAP! Ive cleaned the bathroom, done a bunch of laundry, helped Rachael with a school celebration for the day of the dead, had Halloween circle, pureed a lot of fruit and froze it in ice trays, and now I'm sitting here wondering what my tunny will look like with 6 holes in it. Maybe I'm just going a little nuts.

I saw my surgeon today and did all the final consents. He says I am doing fantastic. I have lost just shy of 50 pounds, I'm not anemic right now, and my entire family is eating better. I know its normal to be scared and excited at the same time, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.  Ive even ordered my medical alert, finally! I realized last night that I was putting it off because I was scared something was going to go really wrong and today my surgery would be canceled when I went to the Dr office today. I know that isn't right, but I wasn't doing it on purpose, I think, maybe, Hell I don't know!

One of the things I haven't done is buy a robe, why you might ask? That should be so simple, one would say. Well I haven't found a robe in my size for 20 years that cost under $50 and I just cant spend that on something that will be wearable for such a short time (I hope). Ive even been sewing up my bras to avoid buying more when Ive been, and will continue to be shrinking. I know its silly but I'm cheap and have a hard time spending ANY money on myself when we are paying co-pays, gas, meds & vitamins, college for one so far, and the holidays are coming. Ill be easy to find at the hospital, Ill be the one with my butt hanging in the breeze, OK prob not, but it seams like just one more thing I am stressing about. Anyone who knows me would think "Well Teddi you have 5000 yards of fabric in the garage for viking clothes, use that"! Well it turns out I don't have as much as I had a few years ago when I sewed for a living. Wulf think we can find something out there tomorrow, I guess I'm just bummed.

Well all I can say is 5 FRACKIN DAYS!

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