I AM ALIVE!

Nov 14, 2010

I have been in so much pain. Just the thought of getting on the computer made me sick. I lasted 30 min a couple days ago.
I am so tired, not sleeping sucks. I cant find anyway to lay down without pain. I wake up every hour either in pain from the surgery or in pain from my hip going numb. Sleeping sitting up makes my back hurt. I wish I owned a recliner. My blood pressure is up enough that I am getting headaches, its not high enough that I think I should go to the hospital now but we are watching it very closely. I see my Dr wed so I hope it doesn't get worse before then.

Diet has been mostly OK. My family had pizza a couple nights ago and I had no desire to try to eat it or anything. I had yogurt before I left the hospital, jello, pudding, cottage cheese, apple sauce, and today cream of wheat. What didn't do to well was the scrambled eggbeaters yesterday. OMG I felt like I was going to die. Its wasn't dry or to big because I mashed it into baby food. I didn't get dumping systems either. I spent an hour trying to throw up and all I got to show for it was a little foam. I felt like I had been punched all the way to my spine. I told my hubby to eat all the eggs if he wanted to because I am not trying anytime soon.

I have had several instances of saying "Why did I do this" but what I also have had every one of those times is pain. I pretty sure its the pain talking every time. If I can just get through this next week of so without my blood pressure, lack of sleep, or something else trying to kill me, I'm told everything will be much better.

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