Here we go again....

Jun 18, 2011

Exactly one year ago I was getting ready to the lap band surgery. My last baby had just turned one a couple of months before and now celebrating her Baptism with a huge party all catered I was excited to pig out and drink for the last time in my life when a surprise pregnancy stopped me in my tracks. I remember crying, I cried because I didnt want a 5th child, because I was done with being pregnant, because I could not have surgery and start living life like a normal person. I was 250lbs then and had a huge hernia. By the 4 month mark of pregnancy I was not "happy" but I was OKAY with this baby.

The pregnancy was HARD it was the worst pregnancy ever. I never looked pregnant just obese, the baby lodged itself in my hernia so he hung off the left side of my lower abodomen making it hard to walk. He was and still is a very calm and good baby the troubles I had were because of my obesity and the incisional hernia. God loves me because my pregnancy was cut short to 35 weeks and I delivered a healthy baby boy weighing 6lbs on 1/1/11 at 1am. He had an odd shaped head due to where he was lodged but he is my miracle baby . Alexander (my warrior) is the sweetest baby I love him to pieces and after my HORRIBLE delivery (I will post more later) he is my prize. I had a tubal ligation done at my son's delivery I also gained lots of weight during my pregnancy due to the fact I could not do much activity. Life threw at me a curve ball and I must believe that there was a reason for it as I believe God doesnt make mistakes.

I am now 280lbs and I am ready to lose weight and start living life like when I was thin. Playing on the playground with my kids, being able to walk longer and just being overall healthy. My family needs me, they need me healthy. On April 18 I went in for my first appointment with a new doctor with the lap band still on my mind as my weightloss aid however after talking to the surgeon he recomended the gastric sleeve instead. He said being my BMI is 50+ and that I am not fond of throwing up (I rather have needles or pain inflicted on me than to throw up!) this was my better option.

I have begun my 6 month weight loss regimen and seriously it only makes me more hungry! lol! I should be ready for surgery in September or October God willing. I am not scared and I am happy and this wait is driving me crazy!

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