ElizaBeth Ramirez
Hi, my name is ElizaBeth. I have been overweight for most of my life. There have been times when I get on a new diet and loose weight. The thing is though, I ALWAYS gain it back. I am almost 30 years old and I am so frustrated with not being able to be the person I want to be.
When I was 4 years old I was rail thin and for some strange reason by the time I turned 5 I weighed 90lbs. I always wonder what happened in that 1 year that would forever haunt me. Being that my mother passed away when I was only 10, I don't think I will ever be able to find out. I was tourmented in school. It was so horrible what I went through I honestly would not wish that on my worst enemy. I was the most popular kid in school because everyone, and I do mean everyone, picked on me. The preps, the jocks, even the geeks and other fat kids picked on me.
That was an experience that today still haunts me. I have anxiety really bad and the bigger I get, the worst it gets. I try not to pay attention to it but, even at the grocery store I can see the way that people look at me and even hear their comments sometimes. I just do my best to hold the tears back and get the hell out of there as soon as I can. It's gotten to the point that I don't want to go anywhere alone, because at least if someone else is with me either people won't be so brazen to make comments or my conversation will drown them out.
I am really looking forward to having this surgury that will forever change my life. I want to live and be free from the negativity that surrounds you when you are big. I know that there is a really big difference because I have actually been skinny for a few years and I can firmly say that not only is wearing the type of clothes you like the perk BUT EVERYONE treats you different, BETTER.. and I can't wait. 
