LilSisInTx
I have been thinking about weight loss surgery for two years but in the past 4 years I have had 5 surgeries and continuous cysts that have prevented me from having the surgery. Finally this year in May I had my final abdominal surgery and they finally were able to get my left ovary out which had wrapped itself around my colon. They then re-built my colon and removed the 10 cysts I had ranging in size from a quarter to a football.
In September I started looking really hard into the surgery and within 6 weeks here I am only 6 days away from my surgery date. Luckily for me since I go to the doctors all the time for other health issues I had copies of all of my medical history for the past 5 years so it was easy for my doctors to get everything they needed to my insurance for approval. I was approved in 9 days.
I am so scared but I am also so anxious at the same time. Its like a roller coaster ride. Part of me dreads the thought of the hard times ahead but most of me is so excited I can't even sleep at night for thinking about it non stop. I think about how many things are going to change in my life and I hope the pain in my feet is one of those things to change. Right now in the morning I can barely walk to the restroom, some times I have to crawl to use the restroom. I have a high tolerence for pain but this pain has gotten so bad in the past year. I have no doubt the weight is making the arthritis worse.
For the past 21 years I have put my family ahead of myself and never really thought anything about it. I feel like this surgery is the 1st step to putting myself 1st for once. I made a promise to myself that this year is the year I turn my life around and I start putting myself first every now and then. I have a wonderful daughter who is 21 and in Pharmacy School so I know she is grown and its ok to put myself ahead of her now and take care of me. I also hope by losing this weight I will feel better and look better. One day I will be standing next to my daughter at her wedding and will be proud of my weight loss. Also one day I will have lots of energy to play with my grandkids. This is going to change my life forever.
