LindaLouise
Friday May 1
May 01, 2009
Well, I'm glad to see they allowed me to join the lapband graduates group.I have been having conflicting feelings.
First, I am feeling slightly more motivated to #1 watch what I eat #2 give up sugar #3 go get a fill #4 just get back on the bandwagon.
But, I am also feeling like a very bad advertisement for Lapband. I am one of those people who lost 50% of their excess weight and that has been it. At my doctor's office they call that a success. It's not success to me. I remember when I first found out about bariatric surgery and how hopeful I felt that I could really lose weight and get down to something resembling normal for my height. Instead, I have found it hard, hard, hard to keep motivated and do the hard work. Having a Lapband put around my stomach has not cured my sweet tooth, my grazing, or my love of food.
Still, my bloodwork is all good. My energy is pretty decent. I do everything I want to do. But I am still way too fat! I know that I will NEVER be slim. I can be slimmer but even when I weighed 155 in high school I always had big hips and thighs. I never was a small person who gained a lot of weight. I have ALWAYS been big. It depresses me.
But there are two things have been motivating me. First, watching The Biggest Loser. This year is the first time I've ever watched this show. Seeing those folks change the way they do inspires me. I realize that if I had nothing else to do but totally concentrate all my energies into losing weight I would have more success than I've had. I think all the folks who have been on the Biggest Loser realize what a blessing they have received to have the support and resources they have been given. Even so, their success motivates me.
Second is coming back to the OH board. I don't have the time to devote to the board that I had 2 years ago when I first started lurking around this board and cautiously posting a few things here and there, but I can find a few minutes every day to come, look over the postings and maybe once a week or so, write something on this blog.
My goal for May is to be refined sugar free for this month. No cookies, candy, chocolate, ice cream, cake, sugar, jam, syrup.
Two good books I read earlier this year - Strong Women, Strong Bones by Miriam Nelson and Eat, Drink and Weigh Less by Walter Willett. DH and I have been having lovely salads for our evening meal with ground flax seed & homemade olive oil & garlic dressing. We are working on getting our Omega 3's into our diet.
All for today. Next blog I need to write about exercise. I still hate to exercise - BIG, DEEP SIGH!
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