Lindz72386
My name is Lindsey and I'm 22 years old. I'm 5'9 and weigh 306 pounds!!! Gross right! I haven't been overweight my whole life! It all started after I graduated high school! I use to weigh about 160ish all through out high school! I played volleyball from 5th grade thru 11th grade and played in a club that's how I stayed active. Instead of playing my senior year I had to get a job. The job I got was a sit down job and lots of carry-ins and that's when the weight started packin on! Needless to say I gained almost 150 pounds in no time flat! I hate the way I feel. I've had 2 knee surgery's and almost had to have a third one. The weight surely does not help the way my knees feel! I'm 22 years old and it HURTS to go up a flight of stairs! I can feel the grinding with each step I take! Not to mention that by the time I get to the top or walk through a parking lot I'm totally winded. My self esteem has of course dropped sooo low! I hate going out ANYWHERE!!!!! All my friends are small and have cute little figures. I love them to death and love being around them but HATE going out with them because I feel like the BEAST compared to all of them! They are 100% supportive and always try and cheer me up. My favorite thing to do is dance and sing! I love love love to dance, but Lord help me when I'm on the dance floor I feel like I need an oxygen mask. For awhile I was trying to find a boyfriend and wanted to be in a relationship but I finally told myself that I can't make someone else happy if I'm not happy with myself. My mom had Lap Band done on 9/10/2008 and after watching her weight come off and her self esteem go up, I finally decided it was time! My mom has been somewhat on my case about my weight since I was in high school because she knew I loved to eat! She was only on my case b/c she didn't want me to go through what she has been through and she loves me VERY VERY much but I never listened to her and I wish I would have!! My mom is my best friend and definately my number one support person through all of this! Yes we have our BAD moments a lot but we always work all way through them! I'm daddy's little girl and he is also a BIG support in my life! I have 2 brothers who got my back no matter what! I have 3 beautiful niece's that I can't even go out and play with because of my weight! I want to find that right man and eventually have kids one day but I will NOT have kids with my health and weight the way that it is! I'm soooo tired of feeling like a blob! I do love to eat and that is my biggest addiction! I eat my emotions and feelings! A lot of times I eat because I'm just plain bored! I'm ready to make this change in my life and I WILL DO IT!!!!!!!!! :)
