Susan B.

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I am just 5 months post surgery and I reached a huge milestone today.  I posted on the Ontario forum and I am copying that here.  The Ontario forum is the best one imho on this web page.  The regular posters are amazing they say it like it is, do not sugar coat the truth and truly help those who are going through this.  I know my life is crazy busy and I do not get on here as often as I would like so those regular posters who are there to answer questions, offer support and just be there really are great people.  They give of their own personal time to help those they do not even know. 

Thanks to the OH regulars~thanks to RNY surgery!!


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                                                                              copy of my post on the Ontario forum

So first off I want to let everyone know you all rock!! This is the best forum, not just faries and butterflies~you all say it like it is ~ you do not just tell us what we want to hear. Cause sometimes we need to hear the truth~no not sometimes Always!.

It is hardest to say the truth when you know the other person is doing it wrong or could do it better. You all do that~Thanks even if it was not my post I have listened and it has helped.

That leads to my milestone. I weighted myself today and I am down ~~drum roll~~ 105 lbs!!!!!!

I am 5 months out from my surgery and already 105 lbs, I find this really surreal. I have worked at it but its strange. People are not recognizing me~that is cool and weird at the same time.

My weightloss pattern has been strange in the last 40 lbs or so. I see a big drop then I do not see that numberfor another week or two. Today the drop was a milestone. I am taking it. I am ok with knowing it will not be solid for a week or so. It is the first time I have seen these numbers on the scale for over a decade!.

I have to say this has been a really interesting journey. It is not easy, although I am determined so I am making it appear easy. I do nto whine, complain or moan. I am readjusting my lifestyle and my outlook on food. Everytime I put something in my mouth I ask myself are I hungry-do I need to eat-is this what my body needs or my mind thinks it needs.

I am still working to overcome the head desires for food. I am still tracking my food intake. I am still measuring to be sure I recreate the appropriate habits in my food life.

I am 52 the end of the week I have many years of wrong eatting to overcome. This will not happen overnight. I am ok with the thought it maybe my entire life that I need to be fully aware and conscious of my tendancies to wrong eatting habits.

I am off to go shopping with my daughter today. I need to start trying on clothes to learn my style. I am now shopping in normal stores. Its wierd as well. I have to realize just because it fits doesnt mean it is my style and doesnt mean I should buy it. I have to admit it is a bit overwhelming to shop everywhere rather than just having the large size section of walmart, additionelle and penningtons. I have wandered a bit in the other stores, it is really strange!! Good but strange!

Thanks again to those who post on here, you have been a huge part of my sucess!

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I do not get on here as often as much as I would like but if you have any questions feel free to email me I will answer hoenstly to anything.  Please feel free to ask me anything.

Cheers!!

Hello everyone-this is my first of hopefully many blogs in my latest weight loss journey.  I am the typical fat girl, I have been big all my life.  I am 5'9" so that in itself made me feel larger than life as I was that height at 12years of age.  Needless to say I was taller than everyone else. 

That is not my reason for being fat, I just am fat, I like food I really don't like to exercise and I simply do not have the perseverance to stick to any diet.  When I am hungry or fancy something to eat I eat it, as a result I became fatter and fatter as the years progressed.  My weight however never held me back, I did whatever I wanted, wore whatever I wanted and had a very healthy self esteem.  I was also a smoker-(ya ya I know bad girl).  I tried a couple of times to quit smoking but always went back.  I finally quit in 2010, October.  Since then my weight has taken the brunt of the non smoker in me.  I put an extra 60 pounds on top of the larger than life me, so I ended up at the highest I have ever been at 325 pounds.  With that added weight I started to have issues with pain in my back and knees, as well I simply did not like me.  My weight was stopping me from doing things!!  This had never happened, so I knew I had to do something drastic. I did not want to be the fat girl who sat on the sidelines for the second half of her life.
I found out about the bariatric referral network, got hooked up and had my intro session in August of 2011.  I learned a great deal at  that first step and there was no turning back.  This has not been an easy decision but truly I know I am helpless against winning my battle against sugary, fatty, greasy food.  Don't get me wrong I love good food too, I love ALL food!

I have done all of my visits, learned a ton from TWH team and am presently on the 3 week of optifast.  My surgery date is Friday Feb 17, 2012, One week away.  I have already lost 20 pounds on the optifast.  It has not been easy however I am hungry!!!  sooooo hungry!!! I really do not like being hungry-I thought the hunger would go away however it has not,  Its only 3 weeks that is what I keep telling myself. 

I am going to get some fat pictures of myself and keep a record of my loss with both numbers and pictures.  This is not a sprint its a marathon.  I am standing my ground and taking back my life.  (I could get really silly and start quoting all those motivational quotes but I am going to save that for later)

Feel free to drop me a note if you have questions, or just want to chat, I don't have all the answers but its always nice to chat.

Cheers!!