its so hard

Mar 08, 2009

hey everyone i know i havent been on here in a while its because im really upset one week im told i lost 15 then the very next week i gained three back somehow some way and what do i do when i find that out well i got mad and kinda gave up. i'm like this aint no game.i have to loose fifty pounds before i loose weight and at first it seems easy but its hella hard. like i told my doctor my sister in the car eating wendy's my favorite and i had a protein shake for breakfast and yet i'm the one gaining 3 pounds are you serious. i go see my surgeon this coming saturday and i wanna tell him so bad look i really need this cause if it were not so i would have lost the weight already. anyhow my point is i been back to eating regular food against the doctors orders cause i am mad i feel like i failed already and my family see me giving up and they feel like they have failed me cause they be eating around me all the time which then makes me feel like they dont want to eat around my fat ass. now the protein drinks was not bad at all in fact i did not really feel hungry after drinking them and i do feel real gassy and have lots of bowl movements from eating regular food and i want to stick with the plan the point is im going crazy trying to loose fifty before surgery and the fact that its going up one minute down the next is killing me. not to mention she now says i have high blood pressure something i have never had a problem with

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