Still Hanging In here.

Aug 30, 2009

I am still doing well here. Maintaining my weight although always struggling with being anemic and getting in my nutrition. I am happier than I've been in a long long long time. I think the depression stays with you forever. I've never stopped having bouts with it.  Sometimes I get frustrated because I've lost all this damn weight and I still have huge arm, leg and boob skin that needs to be removed. It's like you dream and dream of reaching your goals and when you get to your ideal weight, for me I still can't wear shorts, tank tops or enjoy swimming because I look like a flying squirrel. *giggle* Seriously though I'm not sure if we ever find that place that makes us truly comfortable with our bodies. I'm so grateful to be thin and alive and fairly healthy for what I've come through. But on the other hand, It's a hard fight and I have to keep reaching down deep inside myself to get that strength to keep trying and keep fighting. I know I will get through it. I just want others to be aware that just because our weight is gone, other issues remain.  Sometimes the weight is just a good excuse not to deal with alot of other things. I'm not trying to get all "Dr. Phil" on ya or nothing like that.  It's just I always thought I would live a perfect life after losing weight and never thought about how many surgeries it would take to adjust my skin so I can appear "normal".  Thanks for letting me vent. I will update again soon. I have my son, Mother and the love of my life to help me stay strong and work at being "okay".

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