day 1 of antibiotics the journey continues

Jun 01, 2012

woke up early and for the first time in a while woke up not tired nor covered in sweat.  took the ventalator to help open the airways.  it makes me shake but helps me breath easier

not really hungry but hoping that as i feel better I will (This reminds me of the dilations and restarting your eating every time)  I have come to realise that what I want and need are two seperate things.  what my body needs and my spirit need are not always in sync.

It feels like I have missed out on many important things this year because I have been sick; this weekend is just another to chalk to the list.  my brothers graduation and my mothers birthday.  this has been a very long journey

i am tired of feeling tired and having no energy.  to be able to get up and take the dog for a walk and not have to talk myself into it, to be able to carry up the laundry basket up the 20 steps without having to take breathing brakes, to eat a meal with friends and family, not feeling sorry for myself,

Got Hungry!  had some food and got warm!  such a good feeling on a cold rainy day!

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