Long2beThin
Hi! I am an apartment manager and college student in Houston, Texas. I have a 23 year old daughter and an 11 year old son who live at home with me. My fiance and I bought a house in the Spring Branch area last year (2007). I've been fixing it up while he is off contracting in Iraq (Starting his 3rd year now. I miss him SO MUCH!).
When we got engaged in June of 2006 I was 140 and a size 8. That was really skinny for me and I got there with Phantermine, water pills, low carb dieting and karate. I couldn't keep it all up with the added responsibilities of the house and dealing with a long distance relationship. The house is a LOT more work than an apartment! Anyway, I got up to 200 pounds and a size 17/18. That's a gain of 60 pounds and double my clothing size in two years. Hopefully it'll be all gone in 6 months, before the honeymoon period with the weight loss is over!
For anyone who thinks they need to wait until the "ideal" time to have their surgery; Don't wait! Take care of yourself NOW! If I had put off my surgery until I got my "act together", I would probably never have been able to have it! We all go through our crazy or difficult times in our lives. I deal with adult ADHD and am ALWAYS trying to keep up with what I need to do and to stay out of trouble for not getting done what I was supposed to have done. Every day is crazy and challenging.
My son has ADHD as well and is always in trouble at school. He is a sweetie with a loving heart but is never quiet or still. Sometimes I think I'll lose my mind but other times I zone him out, to both of our detriment. Despite all that, he made it through elementary school, Yeah! Today was his last day of school. Now he has to be off his meds for the summer (oh yeah) so he can gain weight and grow. He does not eat while on his meds.
I am in the process of evicting my ex-husband who lives at the apartment complex where I work. He didn't pay his rent for May 2008. He just got discharged today from the hospital for what he thought was another heart attack but apparently it was just side effects from the COKE he did last weekend! So THAT'S what he did with his rent money! My daughter actually had the nerve to take him over to my house after discharge because his electricity is cut off! He is soaking up my air conditioning and watching my cable on my TV because he has utterly failed to take care of his own responsibilities. My daughter and I will be having a heart to heart tonight.
My 23-year-old daughter still lives at home with me. She had CFIDS (Chronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunction Syndrome) from the age of 12 and was home bound from school for two years. She barely managed to graduate because of the physical challenge of being in school on a walker or a wheel chair and the pervasive mental fog. She has not had a relapse in several years but I'm always looking for signs. My worst fear in having children was that they might get something I couldn't fix. That was my worst nightmare.
I'm so thankful for her current health. She is taking college classes online now, working part time in the child care/home workroom at our friends’ local tae kwon do after school program. She does not, however, lift a finger at home despite the fact that I work full time and am in college as well.
Ok, so that's just a little bit of what I am dealing with today. Tomorrow it will be another assortment. I frequently don't deal with things as they crop up so I end up dealing with it for the long haul. It's not constructive or healthy and I am aware of that. Still, it's my baggage that I have to sort out. No more food field to keep the gremlins at bay!
Sometimes I just need love and nonjudgmental support. I know damn well what I need to do. It's the HOW and the ongoing management of it all that stumps me.
