and so starts my journey

Sep 17, 2009

The first big step was admitting that I needed help. That was a huge step so late in my life. Now that I have opened this door I feel anxiuos and relieved. I am now dipping my toe into a whole new future that is unknown. It's scarey. I met with my doctor today and was encouraged that he thought this was a good thing to do but discouraged when I heard that OHIP wants lots of proof over and above a BMI >45. I hate going to the doctors,even though I am a nurse!! tee hee. because they force you to see reality when I don't really want to.
    My weight gain started slowly. After my second baby I ahd gained 40 pounds, dieted, lost,gained it back and more and so on for 30 years.Now at 58 years of age I know that my window of opportunity is closing and I find that my strength and will are weakened. Why do I eat??/ I find it's mostly due to stress and boredom. When I am busy or very happy I am OK.But one can't always be in this state of happiness and business forever. I need to find alternatives to get me through all this. Funny enough....when my ex husband ran off with my best friend I ate like crazy but lost about 50 pounds??? I have had alot of difficulties in the past but have now settled into a comfortable life. All my old baggage is becoming more compact and portable. here's hoping that WLS is finally doing something for myself.

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