loribrie
Academy Awards Blues
Feb 26, 2007
February 26, 2007
Last night was really depressing for me. I really missed my mom so much. I associate watching the Academy Awards so closely with my mom, and damn.... I just wish so bad that she could be seeing my progress and sharing the excitement of taking my health back with me. But, that is not to be.
I truly hate giving in to depression, my mom would hate it. But sometimes it is hard not to.
I want to say thank you to Dawn for your advise, and also to Nikki for your encouraging words. This site and space is so supportive, whenever I was feeling scared before my surgery I would come on here and read people's blogs and look at the before and after pictures, and it never failed to make me feel better and more sure of my choice to have wls.
THANKYOU!
Family Worries
Feb 24, 2007
February 24, 2007
I realized that my B-12 was low and began taking vitamins. I feel pretty good and they go down ok. However, I have been going through a real pukey stage. I have not really been able to keep down much food at all. Meat is a definate no no, I was able to keep down a tiny piece of ham the other day but, nothing of any substance.
My daughter and dad are a bit worried that I might be doing it on purpose. I wonder if anyone elses family ever feels like this. They are both extremely supportive and happy for me, but they know how much I want to lose this weight. I guess they don't realize that more important to me than anything is being HEALTHY!
I got weighed on the 22nd and was down 76 pounds.
A New Me!
Feb 17, 2007
February 18, 2007
I am feeling so much more energetic and full of life. I can't believe how long I let myself hide away in my house. I have missed so much, and damn do I ever plan on making up for it!
I got weighed on Friday and am now down 72 pounds. I took the pic of me in the navy tshirt as I was getting ready to go out Friday night.
At work earlier in the day on Friday, one of the women I work with came up and said to me as I was standing at the front desk that she didn't recognize me from behind - my shape has changed so much.
Sometimes I get missing food and feeling a bit worried about the fact that I still can't keep any meat down - but I keep trying. I drink my protein shakes and take my vitamins and hope for the best. I am sure that things will even out eventually.
Another thing I like is that for the first time in I'll bet at least 8 years I am getting my period regular again ( I forgot what a big pain in the ass it is) but, none the less I feel good knowing my body is working as it should be.
I will post again soon.
I am feeling so much more energetic and full of life. I can't believe how long I let myself hide away in my house. I have missed so much, and damn do I ever plan on making up for it!
I got weighed on Friday and am now down 72 pounds. I took the pic of me in the navy tshirt as I was getting ready to go out Friday night.
At work earlier in the day on Friday, one of the women I work with came up and said to me as I was standing at the front desk that she didn't recognize me from behind - my shape has changed so much.
Sometimes I get missing food and feeling a bit worried about the fact that I still can't keep any meat down - but I keep trying. I drink my protein shakes and take my vitamins and hope for the best. I am sure that things will even out eventually.
Another thing I like is that for the first time in I'll bet at least 8 years I am getting my period regular again ( I forgot what a big pain in the ass it is) but, none the less I feel good knowing my body is working as it should be.
I will post again soon.
I Wore Jeans Today!
Feb 05, 2007
February 5, 2007
For the first time in at least 8 years I had on a pair of jeans! I am so happy that I have such support from my family, friends and work. In life it is so important to give thanks for your blessings. I just wish my mom could see me, she would be so happy!
Out with Friends
Feb 04, 2007
February 4, 2006
I went out with my friend on Friday night to a club I used to love to go to about 8 years ago. I should have taken a picture I felt really great, I bought these gorgeous black carwash pants and adorable top and shit if i didn't feel like a million bucks! I still have a LOT of weight to lose but getting all dolled up and dancing again sure makes the journey feel like I can sustain the ride! Best of all, or perhaps not lol this guy I used to go out with was there and asking when he can see me again! He is a huge dog but DAMN it felt good to feel attractive again!
I got weighed yesterday and I am down 66 pounds!
By the way, I went to a Mary Kay cosmetic party recently and was mad at myself because I impulsively bought the skin care products and micro dermabrasion kit. But WOW, my skin has not been as soft and beautiful since I was in my 20's! I think the kit, water and healthy eating have taken a good 10 years off of me (in my mind anyway and isn't that what counts?! LOL?
I went out with my friend on Friday night to a club I used to love to go to about 8 years ago. I should have taken a picture I felt really great, I bought these gorgeous black carwash pants and adorable top and shit if i didn't feel like a million bucks! I still have a LOT of weight to lose but getting all dolled up and dancing again sure makes the journey feel like I can sustain the ride! Best of all, or perhaps not lol this guy I used to go out with was there and asking when he can see me again! He is a huge dog but DAMN it felt good to feel attractive again!
I got weighed yesterday and I am down 66 pounds!
By the way, I went to a Mary Kay cosmetic party recently and was mad at myself because I impulsively bought the skin care products and micro dermabrasion kit. But WOW, my skin has not been as soft and beautiful since I was in my 20's! I think the kit, water and healthy eating have taken a good 10 years off of me (in my mind anyway and isn't that what counts?! LOL?
2 Months Post-op
Jan 30, 2007
January 29/07
I am really happy with the results so far. I am down 61 pounds and feeling much better already!
People are beginning to notice the difference. It is exciting the things I am doing again. On the weekend I went to an auction sale with my dad, I used to love them! I think my replacement addiction for food is spending money! This is okay right now but I cant keep this spending up LOL
I finally figured out how to get my pics on here from my daughters lap-top so I have posted my monthly update photos. I still need to get a profile pic that is not too big so I can replace my question-mark face - looks a bit masculine to me. LOL
Happy journey to all!
I am really happy with the results so far. I am down 61 pounds and feeling much better already!
People are beginning to notice the difference. It is exciting the things I am doing again. On the weekend I went to an auction sale with my dad, I used to love them! I think my replacement addiction for food is spending money! This is okay right now but I cant keep this spending up LOL
I finally figured out how to get my pics on here from my daughters lap-top so I have posted my monthly update photos. I still need to get a profile pic that is not too big so I can replace my question-mark face - looks a bit masculine to me. LOL
Happy journey to all!
Back to work
Jan 20, 2007
January 20/07
I can't believe how much better I am already feeling. I still have a lot (understatement) of weight that I need to lose.
For the first time in at least 5 years I am going places again! I am spending time with my friends and shopping again. These are huge break throughs for me.
I felt like I had lost who I really was for so long. Now I am finding Lori again! I forgot how much I liked me! This surgery has changed my life.
I went back to work on the 15th, I am so fortunate that I work with the most amazing people. Everyone is so happy for me and soooo supportive. However I was shocked at how tired I was after working only 4 hours. As much as I hate to admit it - it is probably a good thing that my family doctor put me on a 4 hour day for 2 weeks then a 6 hour day for the next 2 weeks before I come back for full 8 hour days.
I am really looking forward to putting my pictures up but for some reason the digital pics my daughter has taken are too big! I will post them as soon as she can help me figure this out.
I can't believe how much better I am already feeling. I still have a lot (understatement) of weight that I need to lose.
For the first time in at least 5 years I am going places again! I am spending time with my friends and shopping again. These are huge break throughs for me.
I felt like I had lost who I really was for so long. Now I am finding Lori again! I forgot how much I liked me! This surgery has changed my life.
I went back to work on the 15th, I am so fortunate that I work with the most amazing people. Everyone is so happy for me and soooo supportive. However I was shocked at how tired I was after working only 4 hours. As much as I hate to admit it - it is probably a good thing that my family doctor put me on a 4 hour day for 2 weeks then a 6 hour day for the next 2 weeks before I come back for full 8 hour days.
I am really looking forward to putting my pictures up but for some reason the digital pics my daughter has taken are too big! I will post them as soon as she can help me figure this out.
1 month Post-op Results
Jan 20, 2007
Updates:
Pre-op visit at the Barix Clinic in Ypsilanti Michigan with Dr. Kam was on November 21/06.
Surgery was done RNY -open and I also had my gall bladder removed at the same time.
I went into the surgery just praying that If I woke up and made it through I would deal with any pain without complaint.
I could not have asked for the Dr. or the nursing staff to have treated me better. They all were very kind and professional. I felt so thankful to each of them for the dignity they treated me with. My daughter and cousin came with me and stayed in Ann Arbor - I was glad they were so close by.
SUrgery was on Wed. and I was heading home on Sat.
Honestly I don't ever remember having any really intolerable pain. There were times that I was uncomfortable but nothing that I couldnt handle (or rather, the vicodan couldnt dull -lol).
When I went for my 2 week check up on December 18/06 - (Exactly 6 months to the day that my mom passed away) Dr. Kam was pleased with my results. I was down 28 pounds from my pre-op visit on Nov. 21/06.
1 month post op results are 42 pounds down and I feel great!
I am very lucky because I have had no complications. I am taking a long time to eat anything and I still only tolerate soft food and NO meat - but I think that will come in time.
Pre-op visit at the Barix Clinic in Ypsilanti Michigan with Dr. Kam was on November 21/06.
Surgery was done RNY -open and I also had my gall bladder removed at the same time.
I went into the surgery just praying that If I woke up and made it through I would deal with any pain without complaint.
I could not have asked for the Dr. or the nursing staff to have treated me better. They all were very kind and professional. I felt so thankful to each of them for the dignity they treated me with. My daughter and cousin came with me and stayed in Ann Arbor - I was glad they were so close by.
SUrgery was on Wed. and I was heading home on Sat.
Honestly I don't ever remember having any really intolerable pain. There were times that I was uncomfortable but nothing that I couldnt handle (or rather, the vicodan couldnt dull -lol).
When I went for my 2 week check up on December 18/06 - (Exactly 6 months to the day that my mom passed away) Dr. Kam was pleased with my results. I was down 28 pounds from my pre-op visit on Nov. 21/06.
1 month post op results are 42 pounds down and I feel great!
I am very lucky because I have had no complications. I am taking a long time to eat anything and I still only tolerate soft food and NO meat - but I think that will come in time.
History
Jan 20, 2007
Here are the posts from the old format. Gives a bit of info leading up to the surgery.
May 21 /06 I am a single 38 year old woman who has one beautiful 18 year old daughter. I can remember dieting my entire life and struggling with weight and self esteem issues for about as long too. In the past 6 years I have gained a considerable amount of weight (120 lbs.). I have become a prisoner in my own home. Luckily I have a job that does not require a lot of physical exertion. Although there are times that I am not able to go to conferences or out of town meetings. This is humiliating and adds to all the other issues that go along with being morbidly obese. With weight loss surgery my goal is to become healthy again! Things I look forward to doing once I lose this weight. 1. sleeping a full night through! 2. walking without my back feeling like it will break. 3. not worrying whether the chair will fit anywhere. 4. buying clothes I like, instead of buying clothes just because they fit. 5. being able to reach all places on my body easily (am I the only one with this problem - how humiliating this is). 6. looking in the mirror and feeling attractive again. 7. spending time with friends again, I have isolated myself so much! 8. keeping my house and gardens clean and beautiful (this has become such a chore and BIG job) 9. enjoying being around small children again- I love kids but damn they scare me too! - they are so honest. I am always worried they are going to comment about the "fat lady" and then have to look at the parents quick sympathetic, embarrassed look - I hate that look. 10. BREATHING! At 38 it should NOT be such a chore. Those are just a few things I am sure I will think of more! I have a consult visit planned for May 31, 2006 at the Ypsilati, Barix Clinic. A friend (Tracy S.) has recommended the doctor I have noted as my surgeon, I will meet him at the consult. I am excited, scared, worried and happy all at the same time. I will keep you updated.
June 22 /06 Things have all been put on hold for a while. Recently my mom was quite ill and was finally diagnosed with cancer on June 6th and passed away 12 days later on June 18th. Please forgive me for not answering any of the emails people have sent to me. I have been consumed with what has been happening. I am still going to go forward with my plans as my mom wanted for me to live a healthier life. My application to OHIP is still in progress. I will call and reschedule my consult appointment very soon too. However I am sure I have lost about 25 pounds from stress. Just wish I could weigh myself.
June 24 /06 Today is my birthday. It was a sad day.
mid July /06 Received my letter from OHIP, I have been approved to have the surgery costs covered! YEAH, this made me call and make a consult appointment. I have been so busy grieving and just moving on that I have not felt like doing anything. This was somethng my mom really wanted for me and we talked about a lot. Getting this letter really felt like a sign from mom that I was needing to get on with things.
About Me
40.0
BMI
Surgery
11/29/2006
Surgery Date
May 21, 2006
Member Since
Before & After
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