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So I am almost seven weeks out, wow that seems so unreal to me it has gone by so fast. I think I may have hit my first stall but really I can not complain 25lbs in six weeks is just crazy! And yet I still struggle with myself. A part of me refuses to believe that this will work. I keep waiting for the disappointment shoe to drop, again. I know I am probably getting in 1/4 of the calories then I was before surgery by the numbers alone my body can not do anything but lose and still I doubt. I won't even allow myself to go clothes shopping because I haven't lost enough. I do love my sleeve so far it has exceeded my expectations. I can pretty much eat what I want but my wants have changed. Sweets don't seem to taste as good as they did. Before surgery I had minor issues with greasy fried foods but would eat them anyway but now it just doesn't even sound or look good to me. I still have issues with fighting the urge to clean my plate.  And lef-overs! If I had left overs more then a half dozen times in a year pre-op  I'd be surprised, now I have leftovers with every meal. Needless to say I end up throwing away a lot of food. So this is where I am at.

Hi All, So today is my third week post op. So far so good. I have been out walking an hour five times week and am feeling great have all my old energy back. Drinking has been good I get close to 3 liters a day. I am also doing well with the protein all I can say is don't give up on them there are so many different ones some taste nasty but not all. I love Unjury's chicken soup and chocolate shake. And GNC has About Time Vanilla. Mostly I make surgar free pudding and have mixed it into plain yogurt. My biggest issue to date is learning to eat slower and not so much. I have been so use to piling it on its hard to get just a half a cup. Haven't gotten sick but have felt that rock in the stomach!

Nancy

Well its day 5 I won't say its been easy but it hasn't been all that bad either. Today seems like a bit of a turn around day for me I am able to take bigger sips. But all this down time has had me thinking. The first thing that has struck me on this journey is how many of us say things like "we have done this to us" or use the word "elective" I don't know about that to me there was nothing elective about this. High B/P, high cholesterol and a borderline ekg are all warning signs that my weight is killing me. If a doctor told me oh you have this tumor it could kill you in 10-20 years and will cause you health issues What do you want to do about it?" What do I need the roof to fall on my head? I have tried and I exercise but it isn't working so now it is time to do something before it is too late. I may be a bit miserable today but tomorrow I will feel a little better and the next day even better. And in a few weeks I will feel normal. 

And here is something else I don't get about us (those of us plague with obesity) why are we so hard on oursleves? I have five cats four normal weight and one obese. Do I love Neko less? Do I think of him as a lesser cat when he sits next to his thinner "brothers"? Do I look at him with disgust when he sneaks bites off of the other cat's dinners? Of course I don't! So should we not all treat ourselves the same way I treat Neko? It certainly isn't his fault he eats the same food as the other four.

Obesity is a disease IMHO obviously with the exception of bariatric surgery there is no cure there is no majic pill scientists have been working on this for years and obesity is still not really fully understood. We need to love ourselves not constantlt beat ourselves up!
Someone commented on my blog that we are brave for doing this , Katy is right we are!

Nancy

Hi All, Let's see I am in my fifties married 20 years to a wonderful support man am 5'2" and weight 200lbs. I have always been overweight I can remember at an early age not understanding why I was overweight or what it was just that I was overweight and the only one in my immediate family that was. I don't think there has ever been a time when I wasn't dieting or at the very least conscious of the things I ate that should not have not that that had ever stopped me. My biggest issue is that when I eat I just plain eat too much I only feel satisfied when I feel full and it takes a lot to get me there. To make matters worse somewhere along the line I developed the habit of eating once a day. In my twenties the only time in my life when I was actually thin. I discovered walking and love it to this day, yes I have been walking for the last 30 years not as much as I did when I was younger but I still walk 5 miles a day 5 days a week with hills. And yet over the years the pounds crept up. I think the walking has kept the weight gain in check to some extent. Anyway the walking has given me a false sense of security calling my self "fat but fit" thinking I was keeping any potential weight health issues far away. Then a couple of years ago my blood pressure started climbing along with my cholesterol and I really could not fool myself any longer. I know that if I do not do something my health will start failing no matter how much I exercise. I know I have trouble getting to my feet not just when I am on the floor but also rising from a chair. I also know that a life time of dieting has not worked and that I could not convince myself that somehow history would not repeat itself. That all my efforts keep me running in place I never go anywhere. So I have decided on the sleeve not for vanity sake though I know there is some vanity involved but mostly because I realize that I can either have my stomach under the knife or in a few years my heart. I had a bit of a wake up call with my pre op ekg it was considered borderline with the possible beginnings of major issues. I have to do something and this is my choice. Tomorrow 8/24 I go in for surgery. I am scared out of my mind about now. Scared about surgery, scared about recovery, scared about complications and most scared of it not work.
Nancy