Maebeitsme
I am 42 years old. I have been pretty happily married to a great guy for over 20 years. I am blessed with two beautiful children. A daughter who is 15 and a son who is 13. I love being a Mom! It has been the only thing I always knew I wanted to do!
I had been overweight from the age of 20 until 36...for a combination of reasons (I really hate people that make excuses as to why things are the way they are) but I now realize there were a lot of contributing factors as to why/how I had let myself get to 274 pounds before I decided to do something about it.
When I was seventeen I was involved in a really bad car accident, and my best friend died. My world was shattered. I no longer felt safe in the world. At that point I weighed about 125. Only in retrospect do I realize that is kind of where my battle began.
I got married when I was 22, I weighed about 200 pounds then. I had managed to put on 75 pounds of protection in 5 years.
When I got pregnant with my daughter at 27, I weighed about 220. And then a year and a half later, I was pregnant with my son and weighed about 250 by the time all of that was said and done.
Oh, and did I mention I had a desk job for 12 years? That was a big contributing factor! When you get paid to sit for 8 hours straight 5 days a week it doesn't help...
I had considered having surgery for atleast 5 years, before actively seeking it out in 2003. Until then I had always thought the risks of having this surgery were too great for me...the risks out weighed the rewards. No one was walking my kids to kindergarten but me! But the bigger they got, and the bigger I got, the more I realized I wasn't participating in their lives nearly as much as I would like to! Eventually, my way of thinking flip flopped. The rewards so out weighed the risks.
Nowdays I weigh between 150-170. Which I am pretty happy at...for the most part. I feel best closer to 150...and the mornings I wake up and I am at 170 I do start to feel a little panicked...but then I start being more aware of what I put in my mouth!
I have come to the realization that I am an addictive personality, and there is always going to be something I feel the need to do excessively...I just try to make it more on the constructive side...lol.
