MakingANewMe2010
Where is my mind? Random thoughts of my mind....
Sep 20, 2010
Wow I have a lot to say and not sure what is that I want to say.... makes sense huh?
Let me start by saying I do not regret WLS at all. Here I am 7 months out and happier than I have been in YEARS. I am now wearing size 6 and 8's.... my 10's and 12's are falling OFF! ( I was just hoping to wear 10's when I did this ) My doctors PA actually called me TINY!
I have to really watch myself now around people because my hubby is starting to get a little possessive now.... He is always telling me how good I look but he is not liking the attention and looks I am getting from other guys... so I make sure I do NOT flirt with them... I am nice and thank them for opening the door or whatever but i am careful not to "flirt" HOWEVER with that said.... I flirt without knowing it.... always have so I have been told...skinny or fat it is my nature. I mean NOTHING by it in MY mind.
My husband used to walk really fast ahead of me... I always thought I just couldn't keep up.... but I was never out of breath or anything.... I have now come to realize that he was not wanting to be seen with me... don't know if he did this with a conscience behavior or not.... I hope not. NOW he can't keep his hands off me in a store....always beside me touching me.... feels kinda strange at times but I love the attention...... he now wants me to go even to Home depot with him just to get a fence board or something like that.........
My hubby actually made a comment the other day that ticked me off .......... the more I thought of it...
he said... now that you are hot are you going to leave me???? WTF??? We have been married for 21 years and he has stood by me Through thick and thin...literally. He has put up with more crap from me than 99% of men would of ever done. I love this man. There was a point early on in our marriage I wanted out and did many dumb things to try to make him leave..... so he would be the bad guy for leaving me.... I was so wrong! I need to find a way to show him that he means the world to me now that I have lost weight I don't want to lose him too!
Sex...... OMG... he is like a freaken rabbit.... he can't keep his hands off me and wants it every night..... I tell him that the average couple do it once or twice a week... When I "reject" him he pouts and says well FINE when you want it you have to ask for it ... I will not try again... well that is always short lived. Or he pouts and and says I am not attracted to him anymore..... I like I said above am very much in love with him but geez I personally don't need sex 24/7.
clothes..... I LOVE THEM.... I love shopping now and I am addicted to goodwill stores.
I am worried about regain..... and I think this mentally helps me stay on course.... that and I don't want to fail at this....
What I am doing for myself now???? i start classes next week at the local community college here to become a Dental assistant..... something I can do anywhere my hubby and I should go to.... we both want out of this town and now that both of our kids are gone from the house we can do this as long as our house will sell in this market and he can transfer out of here!
I am excited for the future and what it holds............ I am enjoying life.
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Let me start by saying I do not regret WLS at all. Here I am 7 months out and happier than I have been in YEARS. I am now wearing size 6 and 8's.... my 10's and 12's are falling OFF! ( I was just hoping to wear 10's when I did this ) My doctors PA actually called me TINY!
I have to really watch myself now around people because my hubby is starting to get a little possessive now.... He is always telling me how good I look but he is not liking the attention and looks I am getting from other guys... so I make sure I do NOT flirt with them... I am nice and thank them for opening the door or whatever but i am careful not to "flirt" HOWEVER with that said.... I flirt without knowing it.... always have so I have been told...skinny or fat it is my nature. I mean NOTHING by it in MY mind.
My husband used to walk really fast ahead of me... I always thought I just couldn't keep up.... but I was never out of breath or anything.... I have now come to realize that he was not wanting to be seen with me... don't know if he did this with a conscience behavior or not.... I hope not. NOW he can't keep his hands off me in a store....always beside me touching me.... feels kinda strange at times but I love the attention...... he now wants me to go even to Home depot with him just to get a fence board or something like that.........
My hubby actually made a comment the other day that ticked me off .......... the more I thought of it...
he said... now that you are hot are you going to leave me???? WTF??? We have been married for 21 years and he has stood by me Through thick and thin...literally. He has put up with more crap from me than 99% of men would of ever done. I love this man. There was a point early on in our marriage I wanted out and did many dumb things to try to make him leave..... so he would be the bad guy for leaving me.... I was so wrong! I need to find a way to show him that he means the world to me now that I have lost weight I don't want to lose him too!
Sex...... OMG... he is like a freaken rabbit.... he can't keep his hands off me and wants it every night..... I tell him that the average couple do it once or twice a week... When I "reject" him he pouts and says well FINE when you want it you have to ask for it ... I will not try again... well that is always short lived. Or he pouts and and says I am not attracted to him anymore..... I like I said above am very much in love with him but geez I personally don't need sex 24/7.
clothes..... I LOVE THEM.... I love shopping now and I am addicted to goodwill stores.
I am worried about regain..... and I think this mentally helps me stay on course.... that and I don't want to fail at this....
What I am doing for myself now???? i start classes next week at the local community college here to become a Dental assistant..... something I can do anywhere my hubby and I should go to.... we both want out of this town and now that both of our kids are gone from the house we can do this as long as our house will sell in this market and he can transfer out of here!
I am excited for the future and what it holds............ I am enjoying life.
4 months out today!
Jun 02, 2010
I made it to 4 months out!!! my scales Naked I weigh in at 160.3 this morning. :) very happy...... I am nervous because on Monday I go back to my Dr. for a check in! I hope he will be proud. I got my labs done already and my Gen Dr told me that they all look good.... :) so I hope that means they look good for a bariatric person too!
I have had to buy all new clothes and can you belive I cried when I had to get rid of my favorite skirt???? what on earth was I thinking? I am soooo glad I have a good goodwill store close by! I am now in 14's (kinda loose) and some 12's they fit pretty well! I have not found any shorts to buy at good will yet that are not like daisy dukes!!! Um... not ready for those yet! ha! I have a goal to wear my daughters jeans by feb. they are a size 7 ( the ones we agreed on....she wears 5's normally)
I have received so many compliments on my weight loss and everyone seems to have noticed. I am not sure I like the attention but I feel soooooooooo wonderful now. I always make sure I have my hair done and makeup on now.... I feel much better about myself. oh yeah and I LOVE jewelry! ( I think I found my new addiction )
I hope all my friends on here are doing well...... thinking of you often.
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I have had to buy all new clothes and can you belive I cried when I had to get rid of my favorite skirt???? what on earth was I thinking? I am soooo glad I have a good goodwill store close by! I am now in 14's (kinda loose) and some 12's they fit pretty well! I have not found any shorts to buy at good will yet that are not like daisy dukes!!! Um... not ready for those yet! ha! I have a goal to wear my daughters jeans by feb. they are a size 7 ( the ones we agreed on....she wears 5's normally)
I have received so many compliments on my weight loss and everyone seems to have noticed. I am not sure I like the attention but I feel soooooooooo wonderful now. I always make sure I have my hair done and makeup on now.... I feel much better about myself. oh yeah and I LOVE jewelry! ( I think I found my new addiction )
I hope all my friends on here are doing well...... thinking of you often.
3 months out now...
May 03, 2010
Well I can see that I haven't kept my blog up to date now have I?????
yesterday was 3 months by date... I am happy with my progress to date! 53 pounds and 39 inches so far.... I have get into 14's... I even had an old size 10 dress on but I wouldn't wear it in public to say the least but it was ON and just very snug!
This has been a lot of fun in a strange sort of way.... but it has been hard also losing food as a comfort to turn to.... but I haven't touched sweets because I am scared I would dump. (so sugar free Popsicles are my best friends now...hehe) and I LOVE fresh fruit...it doesn't bother me at all!
my hubby's favorite restaurant ..... the waitress there was curious why I only ate like one scrambled egg or a cut of hot tea... or if I ordered the omelet why I took 90% home with me.... so I broke down and told her... she was / is so supportive... she gets the cook to put my order in the take home box before it gets to my table and she brings me a small / tiny portion to eat there.... and has my hot tea as soon as I sit down so I an enjoy it before my food is there! now how sweet is that?????
I am NOT exercising like I should be however..... I have no excuse for this either! I need to get my butt in gear!
well that is about all for now... I hope all of you are doing great on your journey too!!! :)
Barbara
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yesterday was 3 months by date... I am happy with my progress to date! 53 pounds and 39 inches so far.... I have get into 14's... I even had an old size 10 dress on but I wouldn't wear it in public to say the least but it was ON and just very snug!
This has been a lot of fun in a strange sort of way.... but it has been hard also losing food as a comfort to turn to.... but I haven't touched sweets because I am scared I would dump. (so sugar free Popsicles are my best friends now...hehe) and I LOVE fresh fruit...it doesn't bother me at all!
my hubby's favorite restaurant ..... the waitress there was curious why I only ate like one scrambled egg or a cut of hot tea... or if I ordered the omelet why I took 90% home with me.... so I broke down and told her... she was / is so supportive... she gets the cook to put my order in the take home box before it gets to my table and she brings me a small / tiny portion to eat there.... and has my hot tea as soon as I sit down so I an enjoy it before my food is there! now how sweet is that?????
I am NOT exercising like I should be however..... I have no excuse for this either! I need to get my butt in gear!
well that is about all for now... I hope all of you are doing great on your journey too!!! :)
Barbara
Venting flustrations...
Jan 27, 2010
My brother in law had back surgery yesterday and my hubby and I drove the hour and half to visit him last night. On the way there we were talking about my upcoming surgery. I told him that I was excited and I hoped that I lost my weight like a lot on here have... and I was not looking forward to my first "stall" ........ my dear hubby doesn't believe that there are ever any stalls and that if you do not lose weight you are not trying. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.... so he thinks that if I do not lose weight every week/ day / month I am a failure and I am going to just go back to being fat???? good gracious! I intend on having Robin (my cordinator) or my dr. speak to him about helping me thru stalls...ect.... it kinda really ticked me off. but there is NO telling him anything.. he is right in his mind and if you argue with him he just get more upset with you. My kids and i have learned to just shut him out and let him rant and rave... we seriously just tune him out and nod once in a while... He can drop weight just by thinking about it.... but he only likes things like tacos, roast, chicken strips, and hamburgers.... no veggies, salads, good for you things.... he has high blood pressure...he blames on me.... diabetes.... he watches his carbs... *kinda* selective... like he will not eat bread but he will eat sonici blasts!!! * I am lucky I can't stand blasts, blizzards, mc flurries...frosty's or milkshakes...* well enough ranting and raving on my end.... just waiting for my surgery date in 6 days... YEAH !!!
9 Days till surgery....
Jan 23, 2010
Here I am 9 days till surgery and fearing it will get canceled. My husband has come down with a bad sore throat and fever. (not strep) I am afraid I am going to get it and my surgery will be canceled. My current date is perfect. I have to go to Coos Bay for my surgery and my inlaws live there. I will be staying at their house when I get out of the hospital and we can have my daughters 17th birthday there too My inlaws are moving to Texas soon and I am NOT staying with my sis in laws... cause neither has any space..... I love them that is not the problem. My work, I have a work with the end of March with Bayer inc. and I need that time between my surgery and the visit to get ready for them. So if it has to be postponed it will be until April. That would really bum me out! I am sooooo ready to get this done... so I am staying away from him and upping my vit. C. as well as praying I will not get it so I will be worrying for nothing....
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