malia26
A new journey I've begun! From band to sleeve
Aug 04, 2009
Ok..my story...to summarize....
I started out at 281# as my highest...twice! I lost weight on my own but balooned back up and finally got to a point that I didn't know what to do. I LOVE working out. Even without losing weight, it makes me feel so much better day to day and I think it has really helped to ward off depression. I think my metabolism is that messed up that it takes extremes to lose weight. So my parents actually saw the band commercial on tv and told me about it. I went back and forth with "can I really do that diet" and finally decided, yes, I have to because I'm not getting any smaller without it. Had the band feb. 2007. All went well...fills went well, the weight loss was great. I loved my band!! Lost about 100# in just over a year. I never vomited/PB'd. I didn't keep tight fills. My doc was all about going slow with about .2cc per fill (I had a 4ccband). It's great too that the nutritionist is at ALL the appointments.
I ended up having an "accidental overfill" and I *think* that is what set me up for the trouble of the slip. In about feb 08, I had a fill...was fine..then about 4-6 weeks LATER it kicked in bigtime. You know, you've heard that fills kick in later but I don't think it's true. They kcik in within a week maybe but not a month later! I was much tighter and it was harder to get food down but I could STILL drink and eat fairly normal stuff, but it felt very different. I brushed it off as stress from new hours at work, dating, lack of sleep somedays. Oh boy when I worked 12 hour shifts and was up at 4am...those really did wreak havok on my band! I was tight ALLLLL day long. Very weird, but I knew it and would prepare and just eat mushy stuff those days. So I had tons of excuses why I was "suddenly tight" until it got to the point that one day I could eat and the next it felt like I'd eaten a huge meal when all I had was a sip of water and it was morning and had no food in my stomach. But I'd still tell myself, we'll see how I feel tomorrow and then call the doc if it's not better. Well, it'd get better...so I ignored it too long is the main problem. That's why I say if I can give ONE piece of advice...DO NOT ignore the signals. If you feel tight for more than a few days and it's been weeks since a fill....call the doc. It's more worth to lose that fill and make sure a slip doesn't happen vs. staying tight and causing damage. Anyway, finally got an unfill and I was supposed to have 3.0cc but actually had 3.8!!! YIKES! Took my fill down and a month later started to fill agian, did ok with a few, then ended up a tiny unfill again, then filled again and finally unfilled again. I'd do ok with the fill for about 2-4 weeks and then suddenly it'd be tight again. It was slipping each time I think. We finally did a swallow study and sure enough...slippped. Went in for surgery in Nov. last year to reposition but when the surgeon was in there, there was too much scar tissue and some "suspicous" spots that may have been the beginning of erosion. So out the band came! I was devestated! I figured it'd never happen to me and if I DID get a slip, it'd just get fixed. Not so easy!
Now fast forward.....I've been following my surgeon's NP and the nut monthly and emailing the nut weekly with my eating. I slowly was gaining and was trying my darndest to keep on track, keep up the exercise, the good eating but in reality...my stomach was bigger, I couldn't control how much I ate! I ate healthy for the most part but too big of portions. I finally hit a point that I couldn't PEP talk myself anymore and felt like such a complete failure. I had an AWFUL day at work one day feeling fat and gross and clothes fitting tight and even had someone ask me "when is the little one coming"...saying I'm pregnant! At least they thought I was pregnant and not fat!!! lol....I pretty much ended up giving up. I felt so up and down with my emotions and the weight gain I could feel in my body. In my back, when I tried to run. I LOVE running and havent' done it because those extra # make it hard! I *only* gained about 35# since my band came out in Nov. to July. Not too bad but still, I think only someone who has struggled this struggle can really understand how it feels. 5-10# can feel like 30# to one of us! And that scary thought of, Am I going to get to 281# again????
Finally the surgeon said Yes, lets do the sleeve. Him and his NP definitely agreed that I did so well with the band that I'll do great with the sleeve. My NP actually says this is her "WLS CHOICE" if she were to do it. You can still eat most foods but no where near as much and no fills to bother with and no malabsorption.
7/30/09 surgery day!!
It went ok....I think it took about 2 hours. THere was scar tissue they had to work through from the past surgeries. Both the bariatric surgeons were scrubbed in for me. The pain post op....WAY worse than the band for me. But then I also wasn't pushing my pain pump as much as I should've been I think. And then the nausea...I get awful nausea from surgery. I didn't vomit at least or dry heave even but didn't feel well. I have a drain in and it's scaring me. They showed it to me pre-op and it's on the end of this tubing and the end is about 5 inches long and 2 inches wide....and so when they pull that out hopefully tomowrrow (wed.)...I can't imagine how bad that's going to feel! I'm freaked out! THe inital pain was where my stomach is and the drain sitting next to it. Now my pain is more incisional and where the scar tissue is and the inner inciisons are trying to heal. I'm also having KILLER heart burn. I think my liquid pain medicine makes it worse. I think the heartburn is my biggest complaint right now. Today is day5 post op and am feeling not too bad.. I get tired though. It takes me an hour to clean myself up. Can't shower with the drain so I'm using "pampers baby wipes" to wash myself and my mom washed my hair outside with a kettle of warm water and shampoo of course! I even managed to shave my legs in the running water of the bath tub. I can't wait to take a real shower!
I'm only eating clears...jello, broth, water. I'm trying to get them in as best as I can but it's hard because I need to take meds. 1.carafate in a liquid form to coat the stomach and coat the staple line. 2. liquid pain meds 3. prevacid which dissolves on my tongue. Between the meds and my water/jello/broth. I'm constantly thinking about "when should I take _____?" And it feels tight to drink so I can't take pain medicine and then eat my jello. Feels tight like "band tight" like when I'd eaten enough with the band. The "going down slow and tight" feeling. I think the band greatly prepared and will help me for the sleeve.
So that's me...my story, my update! I'm excited to heal, I can't wait to eat cottge cheese and refried beans and yogurt! My goal weight is about 155 but the surgeon thinks I can definitely get lower than that....sweet!
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I started out at 281# as my highest...twice! I lost weight on my own but balooned back up and finally got to a point that I didn't know what to do. I LOVE working out. Even without losing weight, it makes me feel so much better day to day and I think it has really helped to ward off depression. I think my metabolism is that messed up that it takes extremes to lose weight. So my parents actually saw the band commercial on tv and told me about it. I went back and forth with "can I really do that diet" and finally decided, yes, I have to because I'm not getting any smaller without it. Had the band feb. 2007. All went well...fills went well, the weight loss was great. I loved my band!! Lost about 100# in just over a year. I never vomited/PB'd. I didn't keep tight fills. My doc was all about going slow with about .2cc per fill (I had a 4ccband). It's great too that the nutritionist is at ALL the appointments.
I ended up having an "accidental overfill" and I *think* that is what set me up for the trouble of the slip. In about feb 08, I had a fill...was fine..then about 4-6 weeks LATER it kicked in bigtime. You know, you've heard that fills kick in later but I don't think it's true. They kcik in within a week maybe but not a month later! I was much tighter and it was harder to get food down but I could STILL drink and eat fairly normal stuff, but it felt very different. I brushed it off as stress from new hours at work, dating, lack of sleep somedays. Oh boy when I worked 12 hour shifts and was up at 4am...those really did wreak havok on my band! I was tight ALLLLL day long. Very weird, but I knew it and would prepare and just eat mushy stuff those days. So I had tons of excuses why I was "suddenly tight" until it got to the point that one day I could eat and the next it felt like I'd eaten a huge meal when all I had was a sip of water and it was morning and had no food in my stomach. But I'd still tell myself, we'll see how I feel tomorrow and then call the doc if it's not better. Well, it'd get better...so I ignored it too long is the main problem. That's why I say if I can give ONE piece of advice...DO NOT ignore the signals. If you feel tight for more than a few days and it's been weeks since a fill....call the doc. It's more worth to lose that fill and make sure a slip doesn't happen vs. staying tight and causing damage. Anyway, finally got an unfill and I was supposed to have 3.0cc but actually had 3.8!!! YIKES! Took my fill down and a month later started to fill agian, did ok with a few, then ended up a tiny unfill again, then filled again and finally unfilled again. I'd do ok with the fill for about 2-4 weeks and then suddenly it'd be tight again. It was slipping each time I think. We finally did a swallow study and sure enough...slippped. Went in for surgery in Nov. last year to reposition but when the surgeon was in there, there was too much scar tissue and some "suspicous" spots that may have been the beginning of erosion. So out the band came! I was devestated! I figured it'd never happen to me and if I DID get a slip, it'd just get fixed. Not so easy!
Now fast forward.....I've been following my surgeon's NP and the nut monthly and emailing the nut weekly with my eating. I slowly was gaining and was trying my darndest to keep on track, keep up the exercise, the good eating but in reality...my stomach was bigger, I couldn't control how much I ate! I ate healthy for the most part but too big of portions. I finally hit a point that I couldn't PEP talk myself anymore and felt like such a complete failure. I had an AWFUL day at work one day feeling fat and gross and clothes fitting tight and even had someone ask me "when is the little one coming"...saying I'm pregnant! At least they thought I was pregnant and not fat!!! lol....I pretty much ended up giving up. I felt so up and down with my emotions and the weight gain I could feel in my body. In my back, when I tried to run. I LOVE running and havent' done it because those extra # make it hard! I *only* gained about 35# since my band came out in Nov. to July. Not too bad but still, I think only someone who has struggled this struggle can really understand how it feels. 5-10# can feel like 30# to one of us! And that scary thought of, Am I going to get to 281# again????
Finally the surgeon said Yes, lets do the sleeve. Him and his NP definitely agreed that I did so well with the band that I'll do great with the sleeve. My NP actually says this is her "WLS CHOICE" if she were to do it. You can still eat most foods but no where near as much and no fills to bother with and no malabsorption.
7/30/09 surgery day!!
It went ok....I think it took about 2 hours. THere was scar tissue they had to work through from the past surgeries. Both the bariatric surgeons were scrubbed in for me. The pain post op....WAY worse than the band for me. But then I also wasn't pushing my pain pump as much as I should've been I think. And then the nausea...I get awful nausea from surgery. I didn't vomit at least or dry heave even but didn't feel well. I have a drain in and it's scaring me. They showed it to me pre-op and it's on the end of this tubing and the end is about 5 inches long and 2 inches wide....and so when they pull that out hopefully tomowrrow (wed.)...I can't imagine how bad that's going to feel! I'm freaked out! THe inital pain was where my stomach is and the drain sitting next to it. Now my pain is more incisional and where the scar tissue is and the inner inciisons are trying to heal. I'm also having KILLER heart burn. I think my liquid pain medicine makes it worse. I think the heartburn is my biggest complaint right now. Today is day5 post op and am feeling not too bad.. I get tired though. It takes me an hour to clean myself up. Can't shower with the drain so I'm using "pampers baby wipes" to wash myself and my mom washed my hair outside with a kettle of warm water and shampoo of course! I even managed to shave my legs in the running water of the bath tub. I can't wait to take a real shower!
I'm only eating clears...jello, broth, water. I'm trying to get them in as best as I can but it's hard because I need to take meds. 1.carafate in a liquid form to coat the stomach and coat the staple line. 2. liquid pain meds 3. prevacid which dissolves on my tongue. Between the meds and my water/jello/broth. I'm constantly thinking about "when should I take _____?" And it feels tight to drink so I can't take pain medicine and then eat my jello. Feels tight like "band tight" like when I'd eaten enough with the band. The "going down slow and tight" feeling. I think the band greatly prepared and will help me for the sleeve.
So that's me...my story, my update! I'm excited to heal, I can't wait to eat cottge cheese and refried beans and yogurt! My goal weight is about 155 but the surgeon thinks I can definitely get lower than that....sweet!
Dating, self confidence, ramblings and my ONE YEAR BANDIVERSARY
Feb 17, 2008
Wow, it's been a year since surgery. (well on February 19) That date is indented into my brain like it was tattooed there. I'm down about 85#, not too shabby considering I couldn't imagine being under 200# a year ago! Now I can't imagine being in the 180's but am only a few pounds away from there. I only want to lose about 40 more but . I know I'll make it and maybe even keep going if I think I can spare the fat and still be healthy about it. Otherwise 155 would be a dream....which is so close to being mine.
I look at my pictures and cannot believe it's me! I know it is, but....wow....what will I look like at goal? I still have that damn "muffin top" flab in my belly above my jeans which I HATE....my stomach has gotta step up onto the roller coaster soon. It is getting smaller but my upper body, chest, shoulders, back, are all getting smaller faster than anything else. I've always been small on top and carried my fat all in my belly/midsection area.
I've been building muscle and maintaining it, not losing muscle mass like so many people do when they lose weight. I actually lost 14# and gained 2# of muscle (so 12# lost total) between my last 2 doctor appointments...that's ALL fat I'm losing! How awesome is that! I do my eliptical trainer most days and my bowflex a few times per week. I can't wait for spring so I can start jogging outside again, I'm sure I'll drop a quick 5-10# when I start that again. Exercise is such a huge part of this whole journey, there's no way I'd be able to lose as fast as I have without it...that goes to show how sluggish my metabolism really is. Plus, working out makes me feel so much better, I have more energy and it makes my day go better. I also think it helps curb hunger.
For the first time ever, I can actually wear CUTE looking clothes! (of course I have to wear spanx to smooth out my belly fat). It seems like each week, my jeans are fitting better and better and looser and looser and then suddenly I'm in the next size down...even when I'm not losing weight on the scale. Being able to wear cute clothes makes my confidence higher too, especially with men and dating. I love this band, and it hasn't been too hard of a ride so far, seems like lately the hardes part is my "image" that I have distorted of myself, but I'll get over that as I keep seeing myself get smaller and smaller. This was by far the best decision I've ever made
I'm so ready to date, to find that someone to settle down with. But it's hard. Where do you meet someone...I'm not into meeting at the bar becuase when I go out with friends, it's to go out with them, not pick up guys. All my friends don't know any "decent" guys to hook me up with, so I've been trying the online dating thing. It's hard too because then I worry about "Will he think I'm too fat, even though he sees my current pictures?" Funny, I don't worry about what I'm going to think of him, but what he's thinking of me. I'm worried about him liking me but in the end I might think that some of these guys are dumb. I don't want to settle either. I'm a good catch, I know I'm not ugly, and I'm gonna be damn hot when I hit my goal weight. Maybe I should wait to look for someone until I'm thinner, I might feel better about myself.
This is hard. It's hard to meet someone and get to know them and then wait and see if he's interested. Even though I'm a believer in "if it's gonna happen, it will" you can't make something work that isn't going to. I feel like I'm a very open person when I meet someone. Looks are first impression, but I'm one that looks past that (unless someone is seriously hideious, I know, I'm mean). But personality is big...I want someone that can make me laugh so hard I cry. I'm half hooked if he can do that....even if he didn't look perfect. But do guys feel the same?? Do they look past the initial looks? I know I have the "pretty face" and I'm fun and confident and stable and have a great job and am the package...a chubby total package for now. But will guys look past that? How come you see cute girls with not so cute men, but you don't see good looking men with fat girls. Fat guys get cute girls. How come I can't get a guy...not even a cute one but an average one! If someone can give me the chance and get to know me, I know he'll like me.
I was talking to a guy online and he asked...how come your profile says "a few extra pounds" when your pics don't look like it. I was ecstatic that he thought I looked good. I told him it's because I DO have some weight to lose, but at least I'm working on it. He said I wasn't fat, and I said, "no but I can stand to lose a few pounds." But this is where it worries me, what if I meet him and then he's thinking..."oh, she is fat, even though the pics don't look it"....that's where my confidence fails. I guess though, I don't really want someone that isn't going to look past my looks..especially since in a few months I'll be smaller and look better. I still feel like that fat girl though.....I was thinking about how I look the other day and it popped into my head...oh my god...I used to have trouble wearing ANYthing...my fat stomach always stuck out and I felt most comfortable in sweatshirts. Now, yes my stomach will stick out, but I can wear a lot more clothes, cute clothes too. If I throw my spanx on to smoothe my fat and make me look more curvy than fatty, I can wear tighter fitting clothes that are more attractive. So I was thinking about this because I wore a simple sweater out the other night and I was bothered by the fact that I could see my fat stick out a little above my jeans(not my bare skin fat belly, but when you can see someone has "a few pounds")....but it is not as bad as it used to be...I mean, i can actually get away with wearing this and the worst that will come of it is that someone might think, oh, she's a little chubby. yeah, I AM a little chubby. I should be proud to wear this because I couldn't a year ago, and a year ago someone would say she's so fat...vs. now it's probably a quick glance and a quick thought of there's a chubby girl. I see people that look like what I'm seeing in the mirror with a little fat on them and I don't think anything of it. I need to remind myself of this daily I think. I think part of it is that i"m not used to wearing form fitting clothes and cute clothes. So if I got used to it, and wore them more, I'd probably not even care if I didn't have the perfect smooth sillouette and had some fat. I'm going to work on this.
I look at my pictures and cannot believe it's me! I know it is, but....wow....what will I look like at goal? I still have that damn "muffin top" flab in my belly above my jeans which I HATE....my stomach has gotta step up onto the roller coaster soon. It is getting smaller but my upper body, chest, shoulders, back, are all getting smaller faster than anything else. I've always been small on top and carried my fat all in my belly/midsection area.
I've been building muscle and maintaining it, not losing muscle mass like so many people do when they lose weight. I actually lost 14# and gained 2# of muscle (so 12# lost total) between my last 2 doctor appointments...that's ALL fat I'm losing! How awesome is that! I do my eliptical trainer most days and my bowflex a few times per week. I can't wait for spring so I can start jogging outside again, I'm sure I'll drop a quick 5-10# when I start that again. Exercise is such a huge part of this whole journey, there's no way I'd be able to lose as fast as I have without it...that goes to show how sluggish my metabolism really is. Plus, working out makes me feel so much better, I have more energy and it makes my day go better. I also think it helps curb hunger.
For the first time ever, I can actually wear CUTE looking clothes! (of course I have to wear spanx to smooth out my belly fat). It seems like each week, my jeans are fitting better and better and looser and looser and then suddenly I'm in the next size down...even when I'm not losing weight on the scale. Being able to wear cute clothes makes my confidence higher too, especially with men and dating. I love this band, and it hasn't been too hard of a ride so far, seems like lately the hardes part is my "image" that I have distorted of myself, but I'll get over that as I keep seeing myself get smaller and smaller. This was by far the best decision I've ever made
I'm so ready to date, to find that someone to settle down with. But it's hard. Where do you meet someone...I'm not into meeting at the bar becuase when I go out with friends, it's to go out with them, not pick up guys. All my friends don't know any "decent" guys to hook me up with, so I've been trying the online dating thing. It's hard too because then I worry about "Will he think I'm too fat, even though he sees my current pictures?" Funny, I don't worry about what I'm going to think of him, but what he's thinking of me. I'm worried about him liking me but in the end I might think that some of these guys are dumb. I don't want to settle either. I'm a good catch, I know I'm not ugly, and I'm gonna be damn hot when I hit my goal weight. Maybe I should wait to look for someone until I'm thinner, I might feel better about myself.
This is hard. It's hard to meet someone and get to know them and then wait and see if he's interested. Even though I'm a believer in "if it's gonna happen, it will" you can't make something work that isn't going to. I feel like I'm a very open person when I meet someone. Looks are first impression, but I'm one that looks past that (unless someone is seriously hideious, I know, I'm mean). But personality is big...I want someone that can make me laugh so hard I cry. I'm half hooked if he can do that....even if he didn't look perfect. But do guys feel the same?? Do they look past the initial looks? I know I have the "pretty face" and I'm fun and confident and stable and have a great job and am the package...a chubby total package for now. But will guys look past that? How come you see cute girls with not so cute men, but you don't see good looking men with fat girls. Fat guys get cute girls. How come I can't get a guy...not even a cute one but an average one! If someone can give me the chance and get to know me, I know he'll like me.
I was talking to a guy online and he asked...how come your profile says "a few extra pounds" when your pics don't look like it. I was ecstatic that he thought I looked good. I told him it's because I DO have some weight to lose, but at least I'm working on it. He said I wasn't fat, and I said, "no but I can stand to lose a few pounds." But this is where it worries me, what if I meet him and then he's thinking..."oh, she is fat, even though the pics don't look it"....that's where my confidence fails. I guess though, I don't really want someone that isn't going to look past my looks..especially since in a few months I'll be smaller and look better. I still feel like that fat girl though.....I was thinking about how I look the other day and it popped into my head...oh my god...I used to have trouble wearing ANYthing...my fat stomach always stuck out and I felt most comfortable in sweatshirts. Now, yes my stomach will stick out, but I can wear a lot more clothes, cute clothes too. If I throw my spanx on to smoothe my fat and make me look more curvy than fatty, I can wear tighter fitting clothes that are more attractive. So I was thinking about this because I wore a simple sweater out the other night and I was bothered by the fact that I could see my fat stick out a little above my jeans(not my bare skin fat belly, but when you can see someone has "a few pounds")....but it is not as bad as it used to be...I mean, i can actually get away with wearing this and the worst that will come of it is that someone might think, oh, she's a little chubby. yeah, I AM a little chubby. I should be proud to wear this because I couldn't a year ago, and a year ago someone would say she's so fat...vs. now it's probably a quick glance and a quick thought of there's a chubby girl. I see people that look like what I'm seeing in the mirror with a little fat on them and I don't think anything of it. I need to remind myself of this daily I think. I think part of it is that i"m not used to wearing form fitting clothes and cute clothes. So if I got used to it, and wore them more, I'd probably not even care if I didn't have the perfect smooth sillouette and had some fat. I'm going to work on this.
70 pounds lost in 8 months
Oct 15, 2007
Today I've hit 211 and that makes 70 pounds lost in just under 8 months! Yippee! I'm at the point that each pound lost is my lowest adult weight. I really think I can make it to under 200 by Christmas/new years. I have 2 months to lose 12 pounds.
So far this has been an awesome journey. Sure there are bad days and hungry days and nothing wants to pass through the band days. But overall it's not so bad.
I'm going through jeans like crazy, my american eagle jeans that just started to fit, are fitting perfectly right now....give it a few weeks and they'll be too baggy...what a problem to have..a pricey one. But the AE jeans I like are only about $30. So that's not too bad. I'm trying to stay away from the ones that are $50-60...not worth the price to wear for a month.
So far this has been an awesome journey. Sure there are bad days and hungry days and nothing wants to pass through the band days. But overall it's not so bad.
I'm going through jeans like crazy, my american eagle jeans that just started to fit, are fitting perfectly right now....give it a few weeks and they'll be too baggy...what a problem to have..a pricey one. But the AE jeans I like are only about $30. So that's not too bad. I'm trying to stay away from the ones that are $50-60...not worth the price to wear for a month.
Halfway to my goal!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sep 23, 2007
Today I'm officially halfway to my goal!! It's been a few days over 7 months since surgery and I'm down 63# as of this morning. I think I'm a little water logged though so maybe in a few days it'll be lower.
Wow, what a journey so far....it'd be nice to be at goal in 7 months...that'd be in April. But I'm sure my loss might slow more as I get closer to goal. But I'll take it! I have to say I was really worried about my skin being saggy and so far it's not too bad. I have lots of stretch marks though. I'm hoping the skin keeps rebounding nicely, but hey, there's always plastic surgery and a total body lift if I need it. I'm saving $$$ right now for it.
I have good days and bad days, most of the time I follow the rules pretty closely. I had an out of town conference this past week for 3 days and amazingly ate fairly well. I did drink too many beers the first night, but hey, don't we all have to let loose sometimes. It reminds me that I'm getting older and cannot possibly drink like the fish I used to be!
I went jogging this morning. Farther than normal. I didn't keep track of time, I just kept going according to how I felt. I jogged most of it, stopping maybe 5 times to walk for about 30 seconds. I'm so proud of myself, my length of running and endurance and speed are all increasing a lot. I would love to someday do some sort of 5K. I hadn't exercised since last week tuesday(today is sunday) because of being out of town. I think I'll do my bowflex tonight. I can totally lose more weight by the time I meet Chad, running helps me think things out in my head. It takes the whole world away and it's just me and the nature around me. There's a trail by my house that I go on and it goes through the woods and some open areas. Some days the deer are running through too which is so neat! They're really beautiful animals.
I'm thinking of doing mostly liquids today, I need to detox my body from the junk I ate this week and the beer I drank, even though the stuff wasn't too harshly bad for me. But if I do a day of liquids, my fluid balance will be back.
Clothes are fitting better. I have my old american eagle jeans I cannot wait to fit into. It seems like each week they fit better and better. Right now I can fit them, but they're a little tight and uncomfortable to wear. But I'm mad because my new jeans are pretty loose, I'm spending too much $$ on clothes. Maybe I should hit good will. But to me, good will might not have my size and many options if they do.....I'll check it out though.
I cannot wait to lose another 20 pounds, I am currently almost at my lowest adult weight and am getting so many compliments. It makes me feel so wonderful.
Have I mentioned, I love this band!!!
Wow, what a journey so far....it'd be nice to be at goal in 7 months...that'd be in April. But I'm sure my loss might slow more as I get closer to goal. But I'll take it! I have to say I was really worried about my skin being saggy and so far it's not too bad. I have lots of stretch marks though. I'm hoping the skin keeps rebounding nicely, but hey, there's always plastic surgery and a total body lift if I need it. I'm saving $$$ right now for it.
I have good days and bad days, most of the time I follow the rules pretty closely. I had an out of town conference this past week for 3 days and amazingly ate fairly well. I did drink too many beers the first night, but hey, don't we all have to let loose sometimes. It reminds me that I'm getting older and cannot possibly drink like the fish I used to be!
I went jogging this morning. Farther than normal. I didn't keep track of time, I just kept going according to how I felt. I jogged most of it, stopping maybe 5 times to walk for about 30 seconds. I'm so proud of myself, my length of running and endurance and speed are all increasing a lot. I would love to someday do some sort of 5K. I hadn't exercised since last week tuesday(today is sunday) because of being out of town. I think I'll do my bowflex tonight. I can totally lose more weight by the time I meet Chad, running helps me think things out in my head. It takes the whole world away and it's just me and the nature around me. There's a trail by my house that I go on and it goes through the woods and some open areas. Some days the deer are running through too which is so neat! They're really beautiful animals.
I'm thinking of doing mostly liquids today, I need to detox my body from the junk I ate this week and the beer I drank, even though the stuff wasn't too harshly bad for me. But if I do a day of liquids, my fluid balance will be back.
Clothes are fitting better. I have my old american eagle jeans I cannot wait to fit into. It seems like each week they fit better and better. Right now I can fit them, but they're a little tight and uncomfortable to wear. But I'm mad because my new jeans are pretty loose, I'm spending too much $$ on clothes. Maybe I should hit good will. But to me, good will might not have my size and many options if they do.....I'll check it out though.
I cannot wait to lose another 20 pounds, I am currently almost at my lowest adult weight and am getting so many compliments. It makes me feel so wonderful.
Have I mentioned, I love this band!!!
4 months out
Jun 23, 2007
I'm 4 months out and had my fill appointment yesterday, no fill for me though. My surgeon says I'm a rockstar! I've lost around 10# in 4 weeks....It's so amazingly exciting! I knew the band would work for me because I just needed a tiny boost and something to make me not eat so much...I didn't *really* think I'd have lost 45# in about 4 months. I've lost 5 pounds in about 7 days...how? Well, I've really really been staying away from carbs. I've been exercising every day this week. I've started jogging a little more when I take my dog to the dog park(if no one is around otherwise I feel stupid..look at the fat girl running!) I've been doing the bowflex about 2 times per week, my goal is 3 but it usually ends up being 2 only. Better than nothing! I've been drinking a crap load of water...around 100oz most days...gotta keep my body water levels equalized.
I have a wedding September 8th, so I'd like to lose 20 more pounds and weigh in at 217 by labor day..about 10 weeks away. That's completely do-able.
I have a wedding September 8th, so I'd like to lose 20 more pounds and weigh in at 217 by labor day..about 10 weeks away. That's completely do-able.
40 pounds lost!
Jun 02, 2007
I stepped up on that scale this morning and I am 241# WHOO HOO! 40 pounds lost since surgery! That's in barely 3 1/2months. I'm almost to the 230's! My goal for 4th of july is only 7 pounds away...completely do-able in 4.5 weeks. This is so awesome..I can't wait for a few months from now.
3rd fill
May 26, 2007
I had my 3rd fill yesterday. I'm so excited about my loss so far. I'm at 35 pounds lost since February 9th!!! I lost 6 pounds according to the doctor's scale since my last fill 4 weeks ago...8 at my home scale. I know that's good but I still asked for a tiny fill and my doc agreed to it, YAY! Just a tiny one he said of .2 on top of my already having 2cc to make a total of 2.2cc. Which was exactly the same amount that I was thinking, just a small one to boost me. I've not had any vomiting or PBing. I did get chicken stuck once and pizza stuck once but the pizza I was on piece number 2...of course I know I cannot eat that much now and the chicken was a little dryer and I think I wasn't chewing well. I'll be more careful. Otherwise I've been pretty satisfied when eating. I eat around 1 cup of food, sometimes more depending on what it is like salads. And not having REAL hunger in between meals, just fighting off head hunger(cravings). If I eat decent foods, I don't crave as much. If I eat junk like sweets...then I crave more sweets. Man O Man, I'm hoping this fill helps! ANd I hope it doesn't give me problems, or I'll hear it from the doc for wanting it! I probably didn't NEED a fill but ya know...we all want to lose faster. Today I'm eating some black pepper and black bean tomato soup made by campbells...not bad and good with cottage cheese. i have to be nice to my band, I forgot what it feels like to take baby sips of water and how it feels to be so scared to hurt my band and stomach not knowing how much restriction is there. I got my bowflex and got it finished putting it together today too, and I went to the dog park 3 days this week and cut the grass so I got all 4 days of exercise. As long as I keep up with my 2 pounds per week, I'll be 234 for 4th of july! Maybe I'll fit into my old jeans??? I can hope. And I'd love to be 210-215 for a wedding I have in september. This is so exciting!
31 pounds in 3 months!
May 09, 2007
I'm now at 250#...wow, I've seriously not been this low since over 2.5 years ago! about 15 more pounds and my favorite old jeans hopefully will start fitting again! I got my 2nd fill on April 27. I only lost 4 pounds in april and that was within the first week. Otherwise I stalled and was hovering 254 for 3 weeks straight!!!! But now i lost 2 pounds each last week and the week before! Yay! I actually feel some restriction I think. I get that golf ball feeling every now and then and actaully feel full at times! YAY! I'm part of the 4th of july challenge. My goal was to lose 20 pounds by 4th of july so my weight would be 234. So I'm down 4 pounds and only have 16 to go with 8 weeks left. If I lose 2 pounds per week I'll make it! I cannot wait to be back in the 220's! I looked not to bad at that weight but of course really cannot wait to be "normal"sized. I haven't been normal size since I was a little kid. my goal for New years/christmas is 200. And 210ish for my b-day. I know it's possible. I'm buying a bowflex so I can start weight training. I hate going to the gym because I have to talk myself into going and then drive there and back and in that time I could do my bowflex and go run outside on the trail or go to the dog park and walk or jog with my dog.
20 pounds gone FOREVER!!!
Mar 19, 2007
I'm down to 261 today!! that's 20 pounds since feb 9th! Whooo hooo!
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Mar 18, 2007
Last night I did well at the b-day party. I'm down 2 pounds according to my parent's scale which makes 19 pounds total!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And OH is pissing me off because They're not letting me post and when I post a message, the message doesn't come up but my last post's title changes to the new title and message stays the same.
Flippin' stupid!
And OH is pissing me off because They're not letting me post and when I post a message, the message doesn't come up but my last post's title changes to the new title and message stays the same.
Flippin' stupid!
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Surgery
07/30/2009
Surgery Date
Oct 26, 2006
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