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So I'm a year out now.. and well.. I'm still over weight but I'm excited about the direction I'm headed.  I'm poor at sharing my experience in the form of a blog, but I do tell a mean story.  And so I'm going to share one of those non scale victories that happen with weight loss surgery.. albe this is sort of a scale victory.. you decide.

I'm never going to say that I've been perfectly following my surgeon's diet.  I do the best I can and especially with some of the added stress from my recent life changes, I've caught myself cheating.  It slowed down my weight loss and I was disappointed with myself.  But I've figured out that I do stress eat and that eating something with too many carbs does indeed make me feel like I'm going to pass out.  Now let's get the next point...

I recently changed jobs and my new company has an on site gym (yay.. 7.50 a pay period) and some nice shower/changing facilities.  The first time in the locker room, I notice an old fashioned doctor's slide scale (you know.. nudge your weight) Well for the first time in I know over a decade and probably half my life, I was able to weigh on one!  I still weighed in at 347 (Which from my high is over 200 pounds lost in the last year) but the happy point is, I could weigh on it!   I'm not my goal weight, I'm not where I'd hoped to be at this point, but I'm still losing and I have the right tools to do it. 

The big lesson to take away here is.. celebrate the small victories and learn from the battles you lose.  If you stress on things too much, it's going to be too easy to give up.  But don't think you can't push yourself to do better and go further.  A year ago, I'd never have thought about doing some of the things that I've done this year (including being spotlighted by a health center/gym as a healthy lifestyle person) and plan to do next and that was just because of my size and weight. 

Well here I am.. now 2 weeks post op.. and I still can't find anything protein related that I can tolerate.. at least Friday I can eat blended up real food again.. I just hope I can tolerate it..

I just don't remember it being this hard last time.. and it's not like we're talking about a long time ago, I only came off the last round on august 2nd (Well actually 4th, since I kept to the liquid diet until I talked to the surgeon)...  I'm really craving food this time, but at least I know it's just cravings and not actual hunger...

Oh well... off to work..

Can I cry now?  Or I guess since I was conscious and in no way sedated while they placed the central line and etc, again?

So after a couple of years of running around I was finally able to get approved and in quick order get scheduled for my surgery.  Sure, I'm nervous but I really think it will be for the best.  The thing I am most worried about is the central line and waking up before the surgery is done (I've partially woken up from anathesia before) at least those in the short term.  In the long term I worry about remembering the vitamins and minerals that I'll have to have.

This was quick and dirty, but it's late..