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Feb 25, 2010

 My pouch is so sensitive lately. I mean one day I can eat anything and the next I can't even drink without pain and throwing up. I guess that's the way it goes. I wonder if it stays this way the whole time? I probably shouldn't complain because I really can eat just about anything, And I've seen so many posts of others that have such a hard time. Ya see, I'm one of those hard headed people that have to learn the hard way. I've tried a lil bit of just about everything. I'm usually one that can take one bite and satisfy my craving but if I don't then that stays on my mind till I get it. Hmmm...could it be...food addiction?? Um, probably so.

Jan 30, 2010

I'm losing weight again!!! I'm really happy about this. I'm feeling so much better and working out regularly again. I'm now down 41lbs since surgery and 111lbs since I started my journey.   Sometimes I look at myself and can tell...most of the time I can't. At least not until I try to find something to wear and everything is too big. LOL

It just feels so good and I'm so proud of myself, I never thought I could do it by myself. I used to go to the doctor and say...I just don't have the motivation to do it...I'll let you know when I do. How sad...I just didn't think I could and I don't like to fail. Thank God I got out of my own way. 

Jan 10, 2010

So...I was discouraged the other day and if I think about it too much then I get that way again. So, I decided to look at things differently. I have so much more to be excited about.

1. I went from a BMI of 64 to a BMI of 46.
2. I've lost over 100lbs in less than a year.
3. I've gone down about 7 pant sizes!
4. I can breathe when I get to the top of a flight of steps!
5. I have learned to fight my cravings and not my friends and family when they are eating something I want. LOL
6. I can bend over and tie my shoes.

I could go on and on. And it's GREAT!!!! So...I'm going to try to keep this frame of mind. Be grateful and proud of my accomplishments. And don't sweat the things I can't change. I mean...I just had my surgery 7wks ago...this surgery works...and I'm on my way!

Jan 08, 2010

Jan 03, 2010

I went to buy some new jeans today. My others were about to fall off of me. I tried on a pair that was 2 sizes smaller...they were too BIG! To make a long story short...I've gone from a size 60 (mens jeans) to a size 48!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had to stay in the dressing room for a few minutes so I wouldn't look like an idiot crying at the register. I'm a mom and I've had plenty of happy, proud tears for my children but today, I was sooo proud of me! It felt GREAT!!! I've got a long way to go, but I'm on the way! Uploaded some pics today!

Dec 24, 2009

Dec 21, 2009

It's been a while since I've blogged. Things have been really crazy for me. I had my surgery on Nov.23rd. My partner took such good good care of me. The day after my surgery she found out she had to have another hand surgery. The 3rd one this year. Her bones were just not healing together. This meant that we would both be "down". I jokingly said to her..."Can I not have my 6 weeks?". So 2 1/2 weeks after my surgery we took her in for hers. I waited and waited by my self and finally they told me the Dr. would be out to talk to me. He came out only to tell me that she had an acute asthma attack on the table...they had to do CPR and that she isn't stable enough yet to even move to the ICU. My world began to crumble. When they finally got her to the ICU they told me that her kidneys were failing and that they were starting dialysis and that she was on a ventilator and that she may not wake up. How could this happen??? This was supposed to be an out patient procedure. She looked so swollen and lifeless.

I stayed with her day and most nights. Helped the nurses as much as I could. The second day, My Baby, woke up!!! She looked at me and knew who I was.  She squeezed my hand...wiggled her toes. It was the best feeling I've ever had in my life! I told her, I'd take her however she came out. In a wheelchair...diabetic...unable to care for herself. I didn't care. All that mattered is that she was alive.

So, to make a very long story short, she is supposed to come home tomorrow. FULLY RECOVERED!!!! Thank you GOD! She was in ICU for 6 days on a ventilator. She is having a little problem walking but it's getting better everyday. I feel so lucky. I feel so blessed!

I haven't really taken care of myself the way I should, which I'm sure everyone can understand. But, I'm doing better now. Ready to get on with our lives and recoveries. Thank you to all of you that have asked about me. God is good! And I've received the best gift ever...My Christmas Miracle!!!    

Nov 19, 2009

Nov 15, 2009

I only have one more week until my surgery!!! I'm so excited! I'm finally SOOOOO excited!!! I was so nervous and even a little mad before that I needed surgery. (If that makes any sense.) I've been dieting since April and have lost 66 lbs so far. I was a little resentful and felt like it wasn't fair that so many of my friend (and family) could and would just eat whatever they wanted right in front of me and never gain a pound or care if they did. Guess it's fighting "the Beast" inside me. (like Ruby would say) Guess I had to go Though that to be ready and excited to have the surgery. And finally,I really am truly excited. To everyone that has posted before and after pics...THANK YOU SO MUCH! They are such an inspiration. And to all of the people on here that have answered my posts and added me as a friend , thank you as well. It has meant so much to have people to talk to going through the same things. I'm sure I'll have many more questions and concerns after my surgery.  I'll be making many more posts in the weeks to come!!!!

Oct 05, 2009

 I"VE GOT A DATE  ! ! ! !   November 23rd!!! WOOOHOOO!!!