marion6366
More Waiting
Apr 27, 2009
This is getting so hard! Even though I know that I'm going to be having WLS I feel worse than ever.......I feel so awful about the way I look that I'm to the point that I don't leave my house unless I absolutely HAVE to!!I have surgery in June-but right now that feels like a year away. I really can't stand mirrors......I used to be the kind of person that loved dressing in cute clothes and I have tons of shoes, jewelry, and make-up but I never wear any of it anymore. It's like I know I look so terrible that what's the point of trying to dress it up? I don't WANT people looking at me right now....I just want to blend in to the background. I don't even wear lipstick anymore!
I truly don't know how my husband puts up with it....I don't like to look at me, I don't know how HE can......Needless to say, June and surgery will not come fast enough for me. I don't care if I never have sugar or a piece of pizza again in my LIFE! To me that is a small price to pay for getting my life and my body back in line!
I now weight between 215-225. I see people getting down to 130, 125 etc. That would be great, but I'm not gonna set myself up for failure. I'd be happy with 170, 165.
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About Me
Hammond, WI
Location
23.2
BMI
Surgery
05/26/2009
Surgery Date
Mar 11, 2009
Member Since
