Marsha S.
I've been overweight since the day I was born. I was the cute chubby baby with the cute chubby checks. Through childhood and my teen years I was always the fat girl, but it didn't stop me. I was a dancer, captain of the cheerleading and flag line squads, and a singer. Although looking back now, a part of my ambition to be the best was just to prove to the world that a fat girl could be just as good as everyone else. This continued into college and the working world as did my weight gain. Funny thing, the heavier I got the less confident I became and eventually I wasn't out to prove anything anymore. I just wanted to stay under the radar and not get pointed and laughed at by little kids as I walked down the street. I've always had a pretty face so attracting men wasn't a problem, just the right kind of men. I made it through a very low point in my mid 20's, with the help of my family, a counselor, and anti-depressants. I finally came to grips with who I was and regained some self-confidence. Years later I was lucky enough to meet the man of dreams and get married. All-in-all life is pretty good, but I still struggle with my weight and hating being fat. I hate not being able to wear the cute cloths thinner women can wear, and if they do make a certain style in my size (20) it never looks as cute. Almost a year ago now I had Lap-band surgery. I had been researching it for years and thought this was going to be the answer to my prayers. It worked at first, but has not been overall successful for me. Now what?
