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I had my first fill today Oh my goodness....when I saw that needle, all I could think was yikes! And the doctor had a resident with him and asked if I would mind if the resident handled the fill. I tole them no as long as he did not hurt me! Well, much to my surprise the fill did not hurt. Ok, maybe the first part stung just a little, but really not all that bad. I have 2CC's and can already tell a difference in my restriction.

My goal is to be at 240 by Memorial Day. I know this may be a stretch, but that is where I want to be! I am a banker so I am all about stretch goals! HAHAHAHA!

Anyway, my blue jeans can be pulled on and off without unbuttoning or zipping them.......Think I need to get some new ones or just pull some out of the closet that I had grown out of!

Have a good day and Happy Losing!

I went to the doctor today for a follow up with the dietitian and got on the scales....my heart was racing, what if this did not work, TEN POUNDS in 9 days! WooHoo! I could not believe it! That made me so happy to see that my body was responding to this! I told them I had been on my elliptical (sp?) and they actually got on to me for doing that. I told them I just figured I would go in full force! I am motivated to get this weight off! I am more motivated than I have ever been.

I have always said that I hate being fat, but I never did anything about it really. A diet for a few months maybe but I never changed my life before. Well, this time is different! I have never been more determined to do anything! I am not sure if it is my precious children motivating me or the fact I am thirty now and know that now is the time to change. I could not put this off any more. I am sick of being told how beautiful and I am and how well I carry the weight! is that supposed to be a compliment? I mean really people......what kind of comment is that? I REFUSE to be the "fat mom" that is at ball games watching their kids play and not even being able to enjoy it because of my weight. I REFUSE to sit by while me daughter goes to gymnastics and dance and cheer-leading and not be able to participate because of my failure to lose weight! I REFUSE to set on the bench of my own life and watch it go by! God gave me this life to LIVE and I am going to LIVE it well!

Well, I was banded yesterday! I am excited but feeling a little depressed. I know this sounds strange, here I am beginning my new life, but I am sad. I did not realize before how much I LOVED food. I am not sure why....but I do love food. I know that this is a new BEGINNING not just for me but for my whole family. My DH is so awesome. He would love me no matter what my size may be and my precious children think I hung the moon. I did this for myself and for them. I want to be here a LONG time and want to be an active part of their lives. I am choosing not to sit on the sidelines of their lives and be the 'fat mom."

Anyway, I am very sore and have a lot of pain in my shoulder. I will be glad when this part is over. I am also having a hard time getting in my liquids and protein. I am scared of overdoing it and making myself sick. More than anything though I just want to take a bath! My hair is sooooo greasy! I am getting ready to wash it in the sink. I will keep you guys posted on my weight loss! Thank you for your support!

This has been such a long road! I was approved for surgery on Christmas Eve and I am scheduled for February 16th! It seems like it went really easy  getting this approved. I know that this is the right thing for me to do. I am getting really nervous though...what if I can't lose weight? I know this is not a quick fix and I have to do lots of work......but what if I can't? I mean lets face it, if I could lose weight and control all of my eating issues i would not be fat. I have always been fat.

I just want to succeed! I have been working on changing all of my food choices and being more active and exercising. I am ready for my new HEALTHY LIFE! I am ready to live. Bring it on February 16 at Vanderbilt Hospital in Nashville....I am ready!